This is how sick I have become. My old friend suffered for two years with pancreatic cancer. And I am so envious.
Why? Because she suffered, her family and friends rallied around her, nursed her, were gentle.... and she got to die at the end of it.
I am told to essentially suck it up forever as it gets worse and worse ( Please read my story).
My other friend got ALS, didn't have much pain, had so much support and died within a year.
I genuinely wish I get a terminal illness that kills me soon, even though I am forever disqualified from legally hastening death like VSED because of psychiatric diagnosis. Even though my psychiatric diagnosis disqualifies me from euthanasia anywhere. And makes hospice difficult.
Oh, and the person I most envy? My old friend who OD'd. No one knows if it was intentional or not but she died in her sleep.
This is a sick world if you are forced to envy your friends' untimely demise, especially the ones who suffered horribly.
Why? Because she suffered, her family and friends rallied around her, nursed her, were gentle.... and she got to die at the end of it.
I am told to essentially suck it up forever as it gets worse and worse ( Please read my story).
My other friend got ALS, didn't have much pain, had so much support and died within a year.
I genuinely wish I get a terminal illness that kills me soon, even though I am forever disqualified from legally hastening death like VSED because of psychiatric diagnosis. Even though my psychiatric diagnosis disqualifies me from euthanasia anywhere. And makes hospice difficult.
Oh, and the person I most envy? My old friend who OD'd. No one knows if it was intentional or not but she died in her sleep.
This is a sick world if you are forced to envy your friends' untimely demise, especially the ones who suffered horribly.
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