Enjoying being alone?

[Hateyouprolife]

I see lot people here who are sad to be alone. I was too, ages ago. But after decision to ctb I no longer feel lonely. In fact, I prefer to be in solitary since then I can make preparations. Even though I got family who care about me, I dont care about them. Wish they even didnt exist as it would make ctb easier.

I avoid most persons I find them not worth talk. Why? Because they are cruel, they prefer person to be locked up rather than having choice to end it all.

Can anyone relate?

 

[Smart No More]

I'm curious why you don't care about the family that care about you.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I see lot people here who are sad to be alone. I was too, ages ago. But after decision to ctb I no longer feel lonely. In fact, I prefer to be in solitary since then I can make preparations. Even though I got family who care about me, I dont care about them. Wish they even didnt exist as it would make ctb easier.

Can anyone relate?

100%, family dropping dead would be a dream come true. I care about them not suffering, I don't care about them experiencing positive things. Same as with myself.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I'm curious why you don't care about the people that care about you.

Why should I? My preference is ctb and they are obstacle on my goal.

 

[FuneralCry]

I need to be alone. I am very introverted and that is the way I have always been. I cannot stand people, they are loud and annoying. It is tiring being around others, I need my own space. In general, many people can be quite cruel and they can cause us pain. I see it as better to stay away. Ctb would also be easier for me if there was no family members, they would selfishly expect me to stay alive, the problem is the society that tries to force us to live, it is cruel how they take away the peaceful methods.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

I need to be alone. I am very introverted and that is the way I have always been. I cannot stand people, they are loud and annoying. It is tiring being around others, I need my own space. In general, many people can be quite cruel and they can cause us pain. I see it as better to stay away. Ctb would also be easier for me if there was no family members, they would selfishly expect me to stay alive, the problem is the society that tries to force us to live, it is cruel how they take away the peaceful methods.

I am lucky since thought of my family suffering after Im gone leaves me cold. Guess im sociopath or something.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I am lucky since thought of my family suffering after Im gone leaves me cold. Guess im sociopath or something.

You are honest with yourself. I respect that alot. I wish I could be the same but I lie to myself that I care. Maybe it is just SI doing its evil job of keeping me here. Who knows?!

 

[Hateyouprolife]

You are honest with yourself. I respect that alot. I wish I could be the same but I lie to myself that I care. Maybe it is just SI doing its evil job of keeping me here. Who knows?!

SI is a demon that can morph into anything. It could make you feel like all problems are suddenly solved, that you actually want to live, (it was a lie!) Or even mentally block gathering things.

 

[meetapple]

I love being alone because I know that I won't be treated unfairly. I would prefer to have lonely feelings while alone then to be free of those feelings around people.

 

[kirax7]

I need to be alone. I am very introverted and that is the way I have always been. I cannot stand people, they are loud and annoying. It is tiring being around others, I need my own space. In general, many people can be quite cruel and they can cause us pain. I see it as better to stay away. Ctb would also be easier for me if there was no family members, they would selfishly expect me to stay alive, the problem is the society that tries to force us to live, it is cruel how they take away the peaceful methods.

What do you mean when you say people are cruel and they cause pain? this reflected more on what you feel than on what they cause you

I need to be alone. I am very introverted and that is the way I have always been. I cannot stand people, they are loud and annoying. It is tiring being around others, I need my own space. In general, many people can be quite cruel and they can cause us pain. I see it as better to stay away. Ctb would also be easier for me if there was no family members, they would selfishly expect me to stay alive, the problem is the society that tries to force us to live, it is cruel how they take away the peaceful methods.

what makes you have this conclusion about them if you prefer not to allow yourself to them? I say this because I turned away from people, but not because of what they do to me, it's actually because of what I expected from them.

 

[Ch92921]

Absolulty mot

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

sometimes i like to be alone, sometimes i dont. imo, being alone is not the worst thing, but never having experienced anything in life, in my case, never having a friend or a group of friends, never having the first kiss, never having a job or never being in a university. I feel like an alien, a blank sheet, I cant relate or connect with anyone.
Sorry if I made a spelling mistake, im drunk and English is not my language.

 

[Beeper]

"I never feel alone when I am by myself. I feel alone when I am with people that don't understand." -Witt Lowry

I prefer copious amounts of solitude. I tend to be an introvert and need time away from other people to recharge.

Socializing often causes me stress. Sometimes I feel that I need to put on a heavy mask to blend in.

I don't have an issue being part of a crowd, but being socially on-point in conversation is draining.

 

[Smart No More]

Why should I? My preference is ctb and they are obstacle on my goal.

Well by that logic it's perfectly fine to suicide by train or any other method that negatively impacts others. Unless I'm missing something that seems a bit heartless and selfish to me. Especially family who care. I guess your definition of care may be different as it appears english isn't your first language so maybe something is getting lost in translation. Maybe your family aren't so good and their way of 'caring' isn't what I'm assuming or what you meant exactly. Otherwise it seems a bit harsh from my perspective. That's why I asked the initial question. Not to judge so much as to understand.

Maybe we just have different views. I can agree to disagree.

 

[Hateyouprolife]

Well by that logic it's perfectly fine to suicide by train or any other method that negatively impacts others. Unless I'm missing something that seems a bit heartless and selfish to me. Especially family who care. I guess your definition of care may be different as it appears english isn't your first language so maybe something is getting lost in translation. Maybe your family aren't so good and their way of 'caring' isn't what I'm assuming or what you meant exactly. Otherwise it seems a bit harsh from my perspective. That's why I asked the initial question. Not to judge so much as to understand.

Maybe we just have different views. I can agree to disagree.

By caring I meant wishing me to be succesful, being supportive. Its just I dont need it.

You are completely right about being selfish. My goals come first, other's wellbeing comes second. Even if this earns me a label "selfish" or "egocentrical" I dont feel bad about.
I have completely disregarded societal norms and turned myself quite nihilistic a person.

 

[FuneralCry]

What do you mean when you say people are cruel and they cause pain? this reflected more on what you feel than on what they cause you

what makes you have this conclusion about them if you prefer not to allow yourself to them? I say this because I turned away from people, but not because of what they do to me, it's actually because of what I expected from them.

It is just the way I see people in general. I have had some bad experiences with people in the past which has made me come to that conclusion. I hear about other people who have been hurt by others which makes me want to isolate myself even more.

 

[Ch92921]

Absolutly not, and if you believe I am interested to live alone as a ugly man, then you are wrong!

 

[demuic]

"I never feel alone when I am by myself. I feel alone when I am with people that don't understand." -Witt Lowry

This is exactly how I feel. I avoid people because they make me feel very alone and like a damaged alien that can never be understood by anyone and belongs nowhere. I feel lonely when I am near a bunch of people.

 

[Nolife33]

I feel like I make people feel uncomfortable. I enjoy it being alone. Not always, sometimes you need some company.

 

[YAYorNAY]

My family keeps telling me how much happier I would be if I was more social and how i have to like (or at least pretend to like) my relatives. How exactly is spending time with people I don't care about or even hate supposed to make me feel better?
i don't like People, they don't like me, Let's stay away from each other.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I am introverted and have no problems to be alone. When I was young I thought I have to have many friend but it´s much easier if you need nobody. But I am not alone, wife, children, grandchildren are around and maybe it is easy to write these words if you are not alone.
My impression is, that many here suffer from their loneliness. I am curious whether introverted, lonely people commit suicide more easily.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I can't say that I enjoy being alone. In fact, normally I hate being alone.
Right now however, being with most other people is excruciating. First of all these Other human beings are probably aware that I am shrouded in darkness - so that's not a lot of fun to bring to the party.
Other people are mostly engaged in interesting and renumerative activities And listening to them Chatter on about it just makes me feel worse about my own total failure.
I just wanna exit the planet quickly and quietly. I want to walk into the suicide store and make a purchase, But weirdly, that's not available.