Venting emergency room

[ssUser34]

Don't trust your fucking school therapist… I was talking to her about a tough situation I've been going through for two months at school socially, but the moment she asked about if I have suicidal thoughts and I said maybe a little, it began to spiral downwards. Asking me if I'm planning anything and stuff and I just said no and I said I know most methods aren't realistic and I'm too scared to do it, but it seems like that wasn't enough. She called me in her office later in the day, said she called my mom (which I hesitantly agreed to beforehand but I thought she'd just let her know I'm having a tough time) and that I need to be evaluated by a professional. And said that'd happen immediately. I'm sitting here waiting even though I don't want to, I wasn't even having a bad day wasn't even thinking of ctb but I fucking said too much and I regret it, now I have to deal with problems. I just want some peace, the discomfort of having my mom sit with me in the waiting room is so awful I feel gross.

 

[ceilng_tile]

If they ask you again, just downplay it. Tell them the thought may have crossed your mind once or twice but you don't have a plan and you would never do that to your family. Don't admit to going on this forum or researching methods--they'll see that as a red flag. Tell them you're onboard with seeing an outpatient therapist and they'll most likely discharge you.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

This is outrageous. How anyone thinks this kind of treatment is "helpful" is beyond me.

 

[ceilng_tile]

This is outrageous. How anyone thinks this kind of treatment is "helpful" is beyond me.

It's helpful to the counselor because then OPs parents can't sue them for negligence.

 

[VoidButterfly]

Preusmably you're an adult and there voluntarily at this point? You've even said here in private you weren't actively suicidal, there's no reason for you to be held, so just let them know you're leaving and go tbh.

Edit: realising this is probably a bit late.

 

[FoxSauce]

Yeah this happend to me in middle school [14] I was having a bad day and expressed in class that i just wanted to hit my head kn5o a was with a nail in it , ofc a teacher heard this and basically trapped me (i heard the door click) The "guidance counselor" sat me down and just talked to me.

She called my mom ,knew I was done for beacuse my mother hated when we called her when she was at work.

She came in tried to dik start a investigation, CPS and that bunch of shit that got me more scared, I didnt want my mom to be arrested. Yes put the fear of authorities into kids.

So for protocal spent 24 hours, with people next to me on the emergency room with the flu and alao slept there.

Also I lied a told everyone it was a joke , even tho deep down I really wanted to cbt.

My mom still brings it time to time to prove her point when im being dramatic, even tho i told her later on I meant it.

Good times

So i hope you get out of there and dont trust people like that sounds she didnt do anything just made it worse.

Im sorry for the long reply just wanted to say that I sorta understand in the situation your in and wanted to tell you my experience, I dont mean to take the lime light from you.

Be strong , and I hope you'll feel better despite your situation

Best of wishes

 

[ssUser34]

Preusmably you're an adult and there voluntarily at this point? You've even said here in private you weren't actively suicidal, there's no reason for you to be held, so just let them know you're leaving and go tbh.

Edit: realising this is probably a bit late.

Yes I voluntarily agreed, because I know even if I wouldn't want to my mom and school therapist would still encourage it later on. I just have to be way more careful with words now, not talking about ctb at all.. at least they didn't lock me up :,) but I did get to mention experiencing a panic attack a day prior to the doctor so she at least noted that, if I want help if that starts happening more often.

 

[VoidButterfly]

I did get to mention experiencing a panic attack a day prior to the doctor so she at least noted that, if I want help if that starts happening more often.

Oh that's good at least! I know from personal experience that they can really help with panic attacks, it'd be great if they can stay on top of that with you.

 

[ssUser34]

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Yeah this happend to me in middle school [14] I was having a bad day and expressed in class that i just wanted to hit my head kn5o a was with a nail in it , ofc a teacher heard this and basically trapped me (i heard the door click) The "guidance counselor" sat me down and just talked to me.

She called my mom ,knew I was done for beacuse my mother hated when we called her when she was at work.

She came in tried to dik start a investigation, CPS and that bunch of shit that got me more scared, I didnt want my mom to be arrested. Yes put the fear of authorities into kids.

So for protocal spent 24 hours, with people next to me on the emergency room with the flu and alao slept there.

Also I lied a told everyone it was a joke , even tho deep down I really wanted to cbt.

My mom still brings it time to time to prove her point when im being dramatic, even tho i told her later on I meant it.

Good times

So i hope you get out of there and dont trust people like that sounds she didnt do anything just made it worse.

Im sorry for the long reply just wanted to say that I sorta understand in the situation your in and wanted to tell you my experience, I dont mean to take the lime light from you.

Be strong , and I hope you'll feel better despite your situation

Best of wishes

Thank you for sharing your expirence and for the empathy. I'm sorry you also went through that :(

This is outrageous. How anyone thinks this kind of treatment is "helpful" is beyond me.

Technically the school therapist had a reason for concern because I was saying stuff like "yeah most methods aren't realistic and I couldn't mentally bring myself to do it" even though that sounds well, non-suicidal, I guess she took it as that. But yeah, it was not fun waiting for 5 hours to get evaluated in there. I wish the school therapist focused more on trying to solve the issues I told her about (breakup, grieving loss of friends) instead of asking right away if these things made me suicidal. To get me less suicidal it'd be nice to talk about what these situations make me feel.. not really just jumping straight into "are you planning to take your life" :( makes them really hard to trust.

 

[bankai]

My mom still brings it time to time to prove her point when im being dramatic, even tho i told her later on I meant it.

I hate how they can't remember where they kept the car keys, but they'll never forget this stuff till the end of time.