yeah I wasn't thinking properly when I first wrote the post, I would edit and reconstruct post but I can't do that. I am not saying that society should allow death on demand or people should be entitled to euthanasia. But ctb is not as easy as chinsaki makes its seem, obviously because he/she is still alive, there are lots of failed attempts. Its one of the hardest decision to make in ones life. When I talked about letting people go I wasn't talking about giving people death on demand. I was talking about giving people the freedom to make the decisions for their own life. To choose their own fate. And not be arrested and locked up due to a failed ctb. People just do their jobs and they don't really care as long as their payed. You can't pay people to care about other people. There are people out there that have empathy and compassion and there are some people that don't. If I could write the post again and I would make it specifically about the government and why they have made suicide illegal because it is not in their benefit to have their citizens ctb as this lower overall economic revenue among over reasons. I want to be realistic in the sense that no matter how much someone supposedly cares about you or loves you that only you can save yourself. You are responsible for your own happiness and your wellbeing no government or loved one can save you from that responsibility. How do you explain to someone that you have lost the will to live and that you can't keep on going? How do you explain to someone that you feel no joy or happiness despite the myriad of ssri's that you take. When life for you become this sort of unending source of pain and suffering with no relief. Then they tell you that you are selfish or your mad and lock you in a mental hospital and force food down your throat. You kick and scream that you want to be left alone and they hold you down against your will. Threaten electricshock and waterboarding therapy against my will, I had to get a lawyer involved otherwise they would of had their way with me. Thats just abuse. Who does it help? You or them. Obviously it helps them because it satisfies whatever ideological belief that they have. Life is a series of choices. If you're not allowed to make choices aren't you just a slave. People should be allowed to choose for themselves. Maybe my post would geared specifically towards the government. But random people don't necessarily have your best interests at heart, I just don't believe that. If I could edit my original post I would gear more towards the government and I just question their motives. I would also take out the part if people love you they should let you go because I think people are confusing that to mean I think doctors should give euthanasia on demand. Yes ctb is a traumatic and horrible thing. Especially to witness but it doesn't have to be that way, there are peaceful methods that people could take like N if the government did not ban them and make them illegal.
If I had a choice I would choose to not to be born in this world as think that would be much easier than ctb. But shit happens and here we are. When you live in a capitalistic society thing are cutthroat. Only the strong survive and the weak suffer and maybe even perish depending on what country you live. Who chooses to be born in this world? I hope that makes more sense, ask questions if you are confused.
It just seems so pointless, the materialism. The gluttony, the greed, the superficiality, the sensationalism and drama of it all. Of life. The clashing of egos, to see who has the better cars, money, social status, who is more good looking, who's kid has gone to what school, who's prettier? The sheer vanity of it all. Maybe if I had a family that actually gave a shit about me, maybe life would be worth living, maybe I could justify my existence in this world, maybe I am just projecting my own fucked up situation onto the world. Im sure there are good people out there. I guess the reason why I personally want to ctb is that I guess I have just never been happy in my life. And I use this platform to try and articulate the fucked up thoughts in me head. Sorry guys, lol. I guess its hard to be motivated to do things in life when you are not happy. That just my hypothesis I guess. There's just no motivation for it.