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- May 25, 2023
- 12
I hate having an eating disorder. It's actively consuming my life, making me isolate myself to exercise, to diet and plan meals, and for what? I'm not even fat, it's just something I've had for years and has never been taken seriously. I feel like men with eating disorders will never be taken seriously, so I just feel weak and pathetic.
My self-harm issues on the other hand have made me feel unlovable. I feel no one will ever look at me without disgust when seeing my scars.
I'm so tired and drained. I sometimes just think that I'll starve until I reach a point that I have to be hospitalized and people finally care about me as I'll look actively sick.
I'm also considering committing after I reach a certain weight because I feel like this eating disorder will leave me with nothing else.
My self-harm issues on the other hand have made me feel unlovable. I feel no one will ever look at me without disgust when seeing my scars.
I'm so tired and drained. I sometimes just think that I'll starve until I reach a point that I have to be hospitalized and people finally care about me as I'll look actively sick.
I'm also considering committing after I reach a certain weight because I feel like this eating disorder will leave me with nothing else.
