Unfortunately suicide just isn't that easy in this world, if there was a very straightforward, accessible, reliable and peaceful way to finally escape from this horrible existence then it would be such a relief but sadly we exist in this anti-suicide society where there's a lack of acceptance towards the right to die. Suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult and that's just the reality, for me personally the methods are either risky, inaccessible or just horrible/incredibly difficult to go through with, I think the inaccessability of a reliable suicide keeps many people trapped here.