earth isn't a place for dreamers.

[wandergirl]

hello, I'm new here but I've looked through forums before. first off, wanna say thanks to everyone on this site. secondly, what is this trash world we live in? my boyfriend and I work Instacart every single day. our bodies are literally starting to break down. on top of that, throw in my schizophrenia, major depression, si, the fact that I just turned 22 yesterday and still have no stable living, no job, no car; just my feet that carry me and my boyfriend who loves me. that should be enough to keep me going right? I mean I did just get a semi colon tattoo for my mom (who died 2 years ago from suicide) and I do want to live and laugh and love but not in this world. not on earth. it's not a place for dreamers like us.

 

[Obliviate]

First, Welcome. Second, you're right, earth is not a place for pure souls. It will only just eat you alive no matter how much hope one has. At the end of the day it's all based on luck and your privilege/money

 

[coyotestark]

Welcome, you seem to be a very sweet, thoughtful and caring person. Do not let this world stain your soul.

 

[FuneralCry]

I view life as just being a cruel mistake, I could never want to exist in a world like this no matter what. The thing that I have a problem with is life itself, I simply dislike the concept of life and how humans have to suffer and struggle with no relief from what they are going through with the chance of things getting worse always being there. To me it can never be beneficial choosing to bring humans into a world like this. Your feelings are understandable.

 

[Julgran]

hello, I'm new here but I've looked through forums before. first off, wanna say thanks to everyone on this site. secondly, what is this trash world we live in? my boyfriend and I work Instacart every single day. our bodies are literally starting to break down. on top of that, throw in my schizophrenia, major depression, si, the fact that I just turned 22 yesterday and still have no stable living, no job, no car; just my feet that carry me and my boyfriend who loves me. that should be enough to keep me going right? I mean I did just get a semi colon tattoo for my mom (who died 2 years ago from suicide) and I do want to live and laugh and love but not in this world. not on earth. it's not a place for dreamers like us.

Did you talk to your boyfriend about your outlook on life...? I understand that it can be hard, but I'm inferring that you both were somewhat happy about your life together until recently. What has changed...?

 

[wandergirl]

First, Welcome. Second, you're right, earth is not a place for pure souls. It will only just eat you alive no matter how much hope one has. At the end of the day it's all based on luck and your privilege/money

that's very very true; how it's based off of money/privilege/luck. & thank you, im happy to be here

 

[Hollowillow]

hello, I'm new here but I've looked through forums before. first off, wanna say thanks to everyone on this site. secondly, what is this trash world we live in? my boyfriend and I work Instacart every single day. our bodies are literally starting to break down. on top of that, throw in my schizophrenia, major depression, si, the fact that I just turned 22 yesterday and still have no stable living, no job, no car; just my feet that carry me and my boyfriend who loves me. that should be enough to keep me going right? I mean I did just get a semi colon tattoo for my mom (who died 2 years ago from suicide) and I do want to live and laugh and love but not in this world. not on earth. it's not a place for dreamers like us.

Welcome! And happy birthday!

Sounds heavy and brutal, but delivery deals with less customers than a cashier? That was hard on me. I think we both had burn outs. Exhaustion & nutritional deficiencies can cause mental symptoms. Psychiatry just wants control, they don't care about basic needs. Skizo would be B vitamins, reactive hypoglycemia... Also googled and magnesium, C, D helps too.

C & B are the most important.

Same for depression.

How do you deliver groceries without a car? With the gas price, better take the bus & rent for travels? I can't ever drive a car... Can't ride bike after a car hit me...

Milestones are overvrated.

I'm sorry that your mom died of suicide. It increases the risk to suicide when we grieve, even more when it ended this way...

I think the world needs more people like us... It's the greedy narcissists control freak pedo psychiatrist... So many people that I'd return to the earth... Sadly the people who want to off themselves, I'd keep most of them.

Enjoy your stay.
What is your avatar about? My eyes are glitchy. Brain too. Everything.

 

[wandergirl]

Did you talk to your boyfriend about your outlook on life...? I understand that it can be hard, but I'm inferring that you both were somewhat happy about your life together until recently. What has changed...?

yes, we talk all the time about struggles and things of that nature but lately, with our mental health, it's harder to do things, obviously you know that... and without stable housing it's even harder. we commute between 2 states and in one, I have an apartment that I can't pay for and in the other state, we live at his parents. so just the struggles of life and adulthood thrown at us is what's shaking us up.

 

[Hollowillow]

Welcome, you seem to be a very sweet, thoughtful and caring person. Do not let this world stain your soul.

You are too
My soul is stained though. I kinda like it

 

[wandergirl]

Welcome! And happy birthday!

Sounds heavy and brutal, but delivery deals with less customers than a cashier? That was hard on me. I think we both had burn outs. Exhaustion & nutritional deficiencies can cause mental symptoms. Psychiatry just wants control, they don't care about basic needs. Skizo would be B vitamins, reactive hypoglycemia... Also googled and magnesium, C, D helps too.

C & B are the most important.

Same for depression.

How do you deliver groceries without a car? With the gas price, better take the bus & rent for travels? I can't ever drive a car... Can't ride bike after a car hit me...

Milestones are overvrated.

I'm sorry that your mom died of suicide. It increases the risk to suicide when we grieve, even more when it ended this way...

I think the world needs more people like us... It's the greedy narcissists control freak pedo psychiatrist... So many people that I'd return to the earth... Sadly the people who want to off themselves, I'd keep most of them.

Enjoy your stay.
What is your avatar about? My eyes are glitchy. Brain too. Everything.

i wanted to just come on here and say, thank you for your words & im a bit busy right now, but in a few I will respond more in detail and respond to everything you said, but know that this is appreciated & I will not forget to get back to you. have a great day as well.

 

[Hollowillow]

I view life as just being a cruel mistake, I could never want to exist in a world like this no matter what. The thing that I have a problem with is life itself, I simply dislike the concept of life and how humans have to suffer and struggle with no relief from what they are going through with the chance of things getting worse always being there. To me it can never be beneficial choosing to bring humans into a world like this. Your feelings are understandable.

All reasons to ctb are valid but I think you have the best one. I hope you will manage to enjoy some beauty

yes, we talk all the time about struggles and things of that nature but lately, with our mental health, it's harder to do things, obviously you know that... and without stable housing it's even harder. we commute between 2 states and in one, I have an apartment that I can't pay for and in the other state, we live at his parents. so just the struggles of life and adulthood thrown at us is what's shaking us up.

I'm sorry to hear that but happy that you have each other & the support of loving parents. You're richer than many. If you could find a way to be less exhausted...

i wanted to just come on here and say, thank you for your words & im a bit busy right now, but in a few I will respond more in detail and respond to everything you said, but know that this is appreciated & I will not forget to get back to you. have a great day as well.

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

i wanted to just come on here and say, thank you for your words & im a bit busy right now, but in a few I will respond more in detail and respond to everything you said, but know that this is appreciated & I will not forget to get back to you. have a great day as well.

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

 

[theboy]

I am also 22 and I have a semicolon tattoo.
I hope you feel better soon

 

[lifeisadream]

hello, I'm new here but I've looked through forums before. first off, wanna say thanks to everyone on this site. secondly, what is this trash world we live in? my boyfriend and I work Instacart every single day. our bodies are literally starting to break down. on top of that, throw in my schizophrenia, major depression, si, the fact that I just turned 22 yesterday and still have no stable living, no job, no car; just my feet that carry me and my boyfriend who loves me. that should be enough to keep me going right? I mean I did just get a semi colon tattoo for my mom (who died 2 years ago from suicide) and I do want to live and laugh and love but not in this world. not on earth. it's not a place for dreamers like us.

Hello & welcome to the site. Sorry to hear about your mum too. You're right, it is a trash world & everyday can be a struggle. This probably will sound like a cliche but take it each day at a time. If you're having a bad day come chat on this site, it's full of fellow dreamers who'll listen.

 

[Obliviate]

I am also 22 and I have a semicolon tattoo.
I hope you feel better soon

Tell me why I wanted to get a semicolon tattoo back in highschool and now I'm like LMAOOOOO yeah fuck that That ain't do shit. I'm so glad I didn't get it. Now I just want a big ole period .

 

[wandergirl]

All reasons to ctb are valid but I think you have the best one. I hope you will manage to enjoy some beauty

I'm sorry to hear that but happy that you have each other & the support of loving parents. You're richer than many. If you could find a way to be less exhausted...

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

All reasons to ctb are valid but I think you have the best one. I hope you will manage to enjoy some beauty

I'm sorry to hear that but happy that you have each other & the support of loving parents. You're richer than many. If you could find a way to be less exhausted...

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

Thank you! *Gasps!* Suns! *Stares* I didn't know we had sun smileys. Sunflowers follow it

thank you for all your suggestions, i will definitely look into everything you've mentioned above in your first reply. threads on here are super tricky so im not sure who's talking to me and who's just vibing, but anywho, you're absolutely right too about the psychiatrics, the Drs, just everything. you sound very intelligent and haha yes sun smileys they're so cute and so are sun flowers :) also, morning... or night... or afternoon... wherever u may be.

Welcome! And happy birthday!

Sounds heavy and brutal, but delivery deals with less customers than a cashier? That was hard on me. I think we both had burn outs. Exhaustion & nutritional deficiencies can cause mental symptoms. Psychiatry just wants control, they don't care about basic needs. Skizo would be B vitamins, reactive hypoglycemia... Also googled and magnesium, C, D helps too.

C & B are the most important.

Same for depression.

How do you deliver groceries without a car? With the gas price, better take the bus & rent for travels? I can't ever drive a car... Can't ride bike after a car hit me...

Milestones are overvrated.

I'm sorry that your mom died of suicide. It increases the risk to suicide when we grieve, even more when it ended this way...

I think the world needs more people like us... It's the greedy narcissists control freak pedo psychiatrist... So many people that I'd return to the earth... Sadly the people who want to off themselves, I'd keep most of them.

Enjoy your stay.
What is your avatar about? My eyes are glitchy. Brain too. Everything.

also, sorry... my avatar is me in a ski mask and I'm just pulling at itto distort and hide my face haha.