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Venting Each night i cry myself to sleep begging the so called "god" to kill me.

lunar02102009

lunar02102009

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Apr 12, 2025
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Each night i miss her , why am too much for everyone and then for others im too less everythings wrong with me i wanna let my tears drown me. I beg the "god" who im not sure even exists to kill me if theres hell and heaven i dont care take me to hell tourture me in boiling oil or beat me with leashes or whatever the fuck happenes but please not this take me away please not this just not this not this incomplete fucking human who everyone hates not this person who everyone excludes and no one likes please....i cant anymore i really cant i miss her too much.
 
MyShadow

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lunar02102009 said:
Each night i miss her , why am too much for everyone and then for others im too less everythings wrong with me i wanna let my tears drown me. I beg the "god" who im not sure even exists to kill me if theres hell and heaven i dont care take me to hell tourture me in boiling oil or beat me with leashes or whatever the fuck happenes but please not this take me away please not this just not this not this incomplete fucking human who everyone hates not this person who everyone excludes and no one likes please....i cant anymore i really cant i miss her too much.
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We're all broken here so this is the perfect place to unload these feelings. Since I don't have any background or context of your situation, I can only wish you peace as you sort through these overwhelming feelings.

You are not alone and you matter.
 
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