Dying in the Arms of a Loved One

[KafkaF]

I know it's a dream that can't happen but I think about it sometimes. I wish I could die in the arms of my previous girlfriend. Talking to her, seeing her smile, kissing her one last time and then slowly fading out while I hold her.

To me that would be the perfect ending.

Unfortunately I'm guessing that's not possible... Even if she was somehow okay with me ending things, we're not together anymore. So I don't think she'd be willing to do it.

I really wish she would though. That would make my last moments so much more bearable.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

If you truly love someone, why would you want them to suffer?

 

[NeedAnEscape]

While it is a comfort to me, I know it would bring a loved one an extreme amount of pain. While they might do their best to comfort me, I would recognize the hurt in their eyes. I wouldn't wish to live my last moments, while they are suffering. Even if I have no care for my own life, I know that others care about me, and I wouldn't want them to suffer in my dying moments.

 

[KafkaF]

While it is a comfort to me, I know it would bring a loved one an extreme amount of pain. While they might do their best to comfort me, I would recognize the hurt in their eyes. I wouldn't wish to live my last moments, while they are suffering. Even if I have no care for my own life, I know that others care about me, and I wouldn't want them to suffer in my dying moments.

I just disagree with this mindset fundamentally.

In a hypothetical scenario where me and her were still together and I still decided to CTB it would still hurt her if I ended things without her being there and she found out afterwards. I suspect that it would actually be way easier for her if she understood, came to terms with and was able to say goodbye in my final moments.

Not that it matters because we're not together anymore so I can't have this. And if we WERE still together I probably wouldn't be ending it anyway. So it's really just a fantasy.

 

[NeedAnEscape]

I just disagree with this mindset fundamentally.

In a hypothetical scenario where me and her were still together and I still decided to CTB it would still hurt her if I ended things without her being there and she found out afterwards. I suspect that it would actually be way easier for her if she understood, came to terms with and was able to say goodbye in my final moments.

Not that it matters because we're not together anymore so I can't have this. And if we WERE still together I probably wouldn't be ending it anyway. So it's really just a fantasy.

Ah. Perhaps, your loved one might be able to come to terms with your decision. At least, for my loved ones, I know that they would never understand the way I feel, no matter how comprehensively I explained my reasons. There is a tendency for loved ones to want to save us from CTB, and I know my loved ones would feel like they are 'failing,' if they watched me endure my last moments with a death caused by my own hand. But, to each their own.

 

[リンさん]

I understand having this desire perfectly.

I'm so so lucky to have a person, very dear to me, who has agreed (volunteered, even) to be there for me when I decide to leave this world. She said that no matter what happens, she wants to be the one to stay with me in my final moments. Doesn't matter how, but I know I at least won't be all alone when I die.

We both have an out-of-the-ordinary view on death, so it was very nice to discuss it so openly with her. Of course, in an ideal world, I'd fly her to my place and we'd spend some time together before my departure (it's still possible but very difficult to pull off), but even if we just chat before I take my SN, I'll die happy.

 

[dreamingofrest]

I understand having this desire perfectly.

I'm so so lucky to have a person, very dear to me, who has agreed (volunteered, even) to be there for me when I decide to leave this world. She said that no matter what happens, she wants to be the one to stay with me in my final moments. Doesn't matter how, but I know I at least won't be all alone when I die.

We both have an out-of-the-ordinary view on death, so it was very nice to discuss it so openly with her. Of course, in an ideal world, I'd fly her to my place and we'd spend some time together before my departure (it's still possible but very difficult to pull off), but even if we just chat before I take my SN, I'll die happy.

Wow, I wish I had someone like that. You really are lucky!

 

[Yaffle]

I understand having this desire perfectly.

I'm so so lucky to have a person, very dear to me, who has agreed (volunteered, even) to be there for me when I decide to leave this world. She said that no matter what happens, she wants to be the one to stay with me in my final moments. Doesn't matter how, but I know I at least won't be all alone when I die.

We both have an out-of-the-ordinary view on death, so it was very nice to discuss it so openly with her. Of course, in an ideal world, I'd fly her to my place and we'd spend some time together before my departure (it's still possible but very difficult to pull off), but even if we just chat before I take my SN, I'll die happy.

You are so lucky to have this friend.

If she is with you in person you have an alternative option to SN.

If you use a nitrogen exit bag she could remove the hood and cylinder and your death would be undetectable as suicide. I don't know whether you intend to leave notes or would like the idea of family and friends thinking you died a natural death. Of course you'd also be subjecting yourself to a post mortem with a "natural death".

Off topic, May I ask how we should pronounce your forum name?

 

[リンさん]

You are so lucky to have this friend.

If she is with you in person you have an alternative option to SN.

If you use a nitrogen exit bag she could remove the hood and cylinder and your death would be undetectable as suicide. I don't know whether you intend to leave notes or would like the idea of family and friends thinking you died a natural death. Of course you'd also be subjecting yourself to a post mortem with a "natural death".

Off topic, May I ask how we should pronounce your forum name?

Nitrogen is definitely a great way to go and is something we can consider. Thank you! I am truly lucky to be in this position.

My name is Rina — I have it written in latin alphabet in my custom title!