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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,028
Is it weird that I want to die alone? Forget getting caught or anything just... In general.... No matter how I go... I want to be alone. Circumstances don't matter.... I just can't see anyone else being there.
 
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iftheworldwasending

iftheworldwasending

My prayer is that when I die, all of hell rejoice.
Sep 26, 2020
133
i feel this same way. for a while i thought maybe i wanted to find a partner for it, but i'm better off alone forever anyways.
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
Jul 1, 2020
7,028
i feel this same way. for a while i thought maybe i wanted to find a partner for it, but i'm better off alone forever anyways.
It's not even that. Just in a general sense I want to be alone....its not exactly suicide related, even if I was in like a hospital bed or dying naturally in my sleep or something.....i want to be alone
 
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waterstrider

waterstrider

cold
Nov 29, 2020
400
for my methods solitude is very much needed. So I can understand you. I wish everyone had the right to act accordingly to their "last" wishes whether it'd be being alone or surrounded by loved ones. The secrecy about ctb and dying in general is so inexplicably hard.
Hopefully you'll find a way, Op :heart:
 
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botanormal

botanormal

Mage
Nov 9, 2020
565
I see where you're coming from. Death is a very personal experience, I don't know how I'd feel if somebody else were there to watch it happen, it might feel like an intrusion in some ways. But to each their own, whatever makes you feel most comfortable. Hopefully you'll be able to get what you want!
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,561
I can't really see anyone being with me too but that just might be because I don't have any close relations to anyone. I do feel you tho, I can't say I'm not gonna feel lonely or scared but I think having someone with me there would be even more painful.
 
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Lilium

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May 2, 2020
57
I feel the same way too, I'd rather not have anyone see me dying or dead i think it would help people forget.
 
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