Dyhdration

[lonelyloner1999]

Trying dehydration. One day in. Not so bad so far.
Has anyone else tried? Your experience? How many days in did you go?
Has anyone else tried? Your experience? How many days in did you go?

 

[lonelyloner1999]

Day 2.

Found some things to dehydrate the body faster.
Apparently Salty snacks and alcohol does the trick.
So it seems to has successfully done.

Drank the rest of the vodka I had sitting in my fridge.
Cried uncontrollably. Tears held back in my system from a toddler. Going through all your life on cusp of tears but withholding them day in and day out really takes a mental strain on you.
Brought a whole bunch of spicy salty potato snacks yesterday ate them all at once.

Woke up this morning tongue feels a whole lot drier. Bout to urinate. Hoping to see my urine darker which indicates a reduction of fluids in my body.

Been also pondering on what happens when the brain goes out. Gone through life thinking there is nothing. Not 100% sure about the existence of a God. I observed early in life the world we live in is so full of deceit and the best approach is to believe definitively what I see. When I see dead animals I feel the pain and anxiety they felt right before death and its like their essence is just not present anymore. It physically also mentally hurts me when I see one.

I'm hoping death is just a perpetual dream. Hopefully a sweet one to end this nightmarish existence I've bared through.

 

[NonEssential]

Sounds like a very slow and uncomfortable method. Best of luck to you though.

 

[lonelyloner1999]

Sounds like a very slow and uncomfortable method. Best of luck to you though.

Pondered many options. Discovered this site back in 2020 when I was looking for a quick and painless option. Found out about SN but couldn't find a supplier where I'm from. I hope it's not too painful. Slow enough to give me time to think it through thoroughly.

 

[maniac116]

You're playing with a world of pain my friend!
And in the long term you'll just be torturing yourself.
You could wind up with kidney failure which is awful.
Even if you are "successful", once you go unconscious you will receive emergency treatment to save you.
Personally for me, torture isn't the way to go out

 

[lonelyloner1999]

I just want to say I do believe life is precious. I believe in the sanctity of life. You should explore all other possible options available to you if you are young and lurking on this forum. A bit hypocritical coming from me. You may be going through a rough patch in your life but what goes down comes back up.

People will tell you think about your friends and family. Thats silly advice imo. Think about yourself. You are the one going through the pain not the people around you. Find something or things to keep you going even if it's something that might seem insignificant. The insignificant thing(s) could turn significant in your life.

Made a pact to myself when I was about 10 that if I dont reach what I found to be significant to me that kept me going by 21 I would end it. I was ready to at 21. I'm 25 now and kept going past 21. Kept pushing a while longer but I feel like I've reached my limit now. I hope whoever is reading this does not reach their limit. Try and keep going young or old. For me it's a very last resort to end my suffering once and for all.

I will be doing daily updates on here. Talking about the pain what I've done to try and expedite the situation etc.. I might even change my mind again but this time I really don't think I will.
If anyone has any questions about anything or need any support ask I'm here while I am.

You're playing with a world of pain my friend!
And in the long term you'll just be torturing yourself.
You could wind up with kidney failure which is awful.
Even if you are "successful", once you go unconscious you will receive emergency treatment to save you.
Personally for me, torture isn't the way to go out

I've been living a world of pain nothing new to me.

 

[maniac116]

I just want to say I do believe life is precious. I believe in the sanctity of life. You should explore all other possible options available to you if you are young and lurking on this forum. A bit hypocritical coming from me. You may be going through a rough patch in your life but what goes down comes back up.

People will tell you think about your friends and family. Thats silly advice imo. Think about yourself. You are the one going through the pain not the people around you. Find something or things to keep you going even if it's something that might seem insignificant. The insignificant thing(s) could turn significant in your life.

Made a pact to myself when I was about 10 that if I dont reach what I found to be significant to me that kept me going by 21 I would end it. I was ready to at 21. I'm 25 now and kept going past 21. Kept pushing a while longer but I feel like I've reached my limit now. I hope whoever is reading this does not reach their limit. Try and keep going young or old. For me it's a very last resort to end my suffering once and for all.

I will be doing daily updates on here. Talking about the pain what I've done to try and expedite the situation etc.. I might even change my mind again but this time I really don't think I will.
If anyone has any questions about anything or need any support ask I'm here while I am.

I've been living a world of pain nothing new to me.

 

[lonelyloner1999]

Well my mind has changed again. Two days in. See taking time to really think about it can help. Along with alcohol. My dog keeps me going tbh. I would say get a pet.