Emily_Numb
Wizard
- Jan 14, 2020
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Does anyone else get fucked up and at the end of the night, want to kill themselves?
Come on you know better than this, ive seen you give out so much really sensible advice on here, maybe sleep on it? XxI'm thinking of getting in the car and driving to the big bridge near me (UK)
I just want to die
I'm so depressed today. Self harmed last night. Wrists are cut up pretty bad. Still haven't seen my husband today as I'm hiding out in a separate bedroom. I am dreading having to explain it to him. (Again) FMLHi Emily, sounds like you're feeling really down today. I was like that yesterday - after drinking, which I'm pissed off about. I'd quit and then had a beer on my birthday and that was it. Off drinking again.
I'm torn at the minute between trying to carry on or just give up. Can't make up my mind.
Take care.
Hanging out of my ass. How about you love?Yeah slightly concerned I'm gonna try partial or something when out of it. The start and middle of a drunk are so much fun though! Coming here helps.
How are ya today?
He doesn't understand. He wants to but how can you even reason with this?Does he not understand? Or have any problems himself with feelings?
Impossible. That's why it's better if I leave this planet. Making others around me suffer while I'm still here is unbearable.,Must be difficult for you both.
I'm just so tired. I worry about how my kids will be affected, and my family, it's why I want it to look accidental / natural, e.g. CO in tent and/or hypothermia.Impossible. That's why it's better if I leave this planet. Making others around me suffer while I'm still here is unbearable.,
I'm a binge alcoholic. I know when I do drink, it's waayyyyyy too much.Emily... you can answer this or tell me to mind my own... but how much are you drinking? It's a depressant and it won't help. My ex is an alcoholic and is at his lowest during and after his binges. It fucks up his thinking
You know bingeing is worse.... the recovery even harder. Do your suicidal thoughts get worse during and after?I'm a binge alcoholic. I know when I do drink, it's waayyyyyy too much.
During. I know binging is worse. I was sober for 3 years until last September.You know bingeing is worse.... the recovery even harder. Do your suicidal thoughts get worse during and after?
Alright I was actually gonna get drunk last night but realised I wanted junk food more and actually chose the food.Hanging out of my ass. How about you love?
I want junk food now! Bring me a maccys please? LolAlright I was actually gonna get drunk last night but realised I wanted junk food more and actually chose the food.
I've not heard of 2M2B before and had to look it up. Very interesting. Not seen this method for CTB before. Yes, I need to be careful this next few days and not act impulsively. Thankfully I get a refill of my Diazapam today.My suicidal urges increase dramatically for a day or so after heavy drinking. I have 2M2B, so alcohol may end up being my method as well.
Theres been a few threads on it here before. From the research I've done on it I think it's more peaceful than SN. The downside being that if you're found/rescued you're going to have irreversible damage.I've not head of 2M2B before and had to look it up. Very interesting. Not seen this method for CTB before. Yes, I need to be careful this next few days and not act impulsively. Thankfully I get a refill of my Diazapam today.