TheFool
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- Oct 19, 2018
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I love psychedelics. If I could only use one drug for the rest of my life, it'd be acid. Specifically, I use the "research chemical" 1P-LSD, which is a chemical analog of LSD. In many places it is legal even where genuine LSD is illegal. (I live in the US, and I just found out now that it's actually arguably illegal under the Federal Analogue Act, but it only counts if the substance is intended for human consumption, which is why sellers use the term "research chemical" and specifically say it's not for human consumption.)
So why is it my favorite? Well, tripping can raise your consciousness and give you an entirely new perspective on many things (though that can be a bad thing if you're ill-prepared, which is why I don't recommend it), it can be used in smaller doses as an enjoyable and mild party drug that doesn't cloud your mind like weed or alcohol, and you can use it as a sort of mental booster by microdosing. I've even microdosed many times in place of a stimulant like caffeine or adderall in order to remain alert and focused with little to no sleep, and in my experience the stimulant effect it gives tends to be just as effective (or in the case of caffeine even more effective) and it's a much more pleasant feeling overall: no heart pounding or sweating or anxiety, and no crash, just a mild body high.
I don't really take it for depression, however. At best it doesn't really affect it much, and at worst it just intensifies it, especially in higher doses. I feel like it has helped me to understand my depression, and my mental struggles generally, which has been good in some ways. But it's a double-edged sword: the added understanding often comes in the form of rationalization. So, I'll understand why I'm so sad, which is good because it validates my emotions and gives me some comfort, but it also makes it easier for me to wallow in self-pity and make excuses that seem logically sound, but ultimately just perpetuate or even worsen my current outlook on life. Or something like that.
I'm actually on Adderall right now though, which is why I'm giving what is likely way too much information. Lol. I used to take it regularly as I was diagnosed with ADD a long time ago (the first in a long line of misdiagnoses), but I usually only use Adderall now when I want to accomplish something specific that requires prolonged focus and effort. It gets me past that wall of inaction almost without fail; however, the nature of my attention problems are such that I often get distracted from the task at hand anyway, and instead get hyperfocused on wasting my time on anything but what I wanted to do initially. This post is a perfect example. I am currently in the middle of cleaning my apartment (or at least I was, but I'm trying to be optimistic), which is cluttered and absolutely fucking disgusting, but I only got as far as bagging most of the trash and emptying everything out of the bathroom so I could clean the surfaces.
Weed is good too, probably my second favorite drug, but I'm kind of a lightweight and prone to paranoia, so I usually prefer indica strains. I have a bit of a problem with weed actually. I can be ok without it obviously, and I'm pretty sure I function better when I'm not smoking in general (as I assume is true of most people who don't have certain conditions), but ever since I first started smoking about 4 years ago, I don't think I've been without it for longer than 2 months, and I've easily smoked more days than not. I don't know if it has been overall good or bad for me, but I believe it replaced my habit of self-harm, so there's that.
I like alcohol, but not that much. It's probably my least favorite drug that I nonetheless use regularly. It's difficult to get enough down to really feel a strong effect, it makes me do stupid and embarrassing things if I've had too much, and hangovers suck. I really only use it socially or when I can't smoke weed and feel the need to not be sober.
So why is it my favorite? Well, tripping can raise your consciousness and give you an entirely new perspective on many things (though that can be a bad thing if you're ill-prepared, which is why I don't recommend it), it can be used in smaller doses as an enjoyable and mild party drug that doesn't cloud your mind like weed or alcohol, and you can use it as a sort of mental booster by microdosing. I've even microdosed many times in place of a stimulant like caffeine or adderall in order to remain alert and focused with little to no sleep, and in my experience the stimulant effect it gives tends to be just as effective (or in the case of caffeine even more effective) and it's a much more pleasant feeling overall: no heart pounding or sweating or anxiety, and no crash, just a mild body high.
I don't really take it for depression, however. At best it doesn't really affect it much, and at worst it just intensifies it, especially in higher doses. I feel like it has helped me to understand my depression, and my mental struggles generally, which has been good in some ways. But it's a double-edged sword: the added understanding often comes in the form of rationalization. So, I'll understand why I'm so sad, which is good because it validates my emotions and gives me some comfort, but it also makes it easier for me to wallow in self-pity and make excuses that seem logically sound, but ultimately just perpetuate or even worsen my current outlook on life. Or something like that.
I'm actually on Adderall right now though, which is why I'm giving what is likely way too much information. Lol. I used to take it regularly as I was diagnosed with ADD a long time ago (the first in a long line of misdiagnoses), but I usually only use Adderall now when I want to accomplish something specific that requires prolonged focus and effort. It gets me past that wall of inaction almost without fail; however, the nature of my attention problems are such that I often get distracted from the task at hand anyway, and instead get hyperfocused on wasting my time on anything but what I wanted to do initially. This post is a perfect example. I am currently in the middle of cleaning my apartment (or at least I was, but I'm trying to be optimistic), which is cluttered and absolutely fucking disgusting, but I only got as far as bagging most of the trash and emptying everything out of the bathroom so I could clean the surfaces.
Weed is good too, probably my second favorite drug, but I'm kind of a lightweight and prone to paranoia, so I usually prefer indica strains. I have a bit of a problem with weed actually. I can be ok without it obviously, and I'm pretty sure I function better when I'm not smoking in general (as I assume is true of most people who don't have certain conditions), but ever since I first started smoking about 4 years ago, I don't think I've been without it for longer than 2 months, and I've easily smoked more days than not. I don't know if it has been overall good or bad for me, but I believe it replaced my habit of self-harm, so there's that.
I like alcohol, but not that much. It's probably my least favorite drug that I nonetheless use regularly. It's difficult to get enough down to really feel a strong effect, it makes me do stupid and embarrassing things if I've had too much, and hangovers suck. I really only use it socially or when I can't smoke weed and feel the need to not be sober.
