Drugs would be a life saver for me

[akafuka1999]

Venting and off my chest: no point really........

I dont understand why is it possible to go to prison for posession or import of drugs. Just give financial punishment! It is a restriction of human freedom and so is painless death! Look at the statistics. As if suicide wasnt enough. It must be painful and risky. WHY the hell doesnt government do something.

How do I even find a dealer I live in social isolation for years. All I need as a medication for non suffering life is light drugs. Rx opiods, benzo, Amphetamine instead of unhealthy nicotine. Etc.
So I must be considering sniffing toluen or something else.
I dont like alcohol it makes me fatigued, depressed and very nauoseus.
I take Kratom. Luckily here in Czech republic is legal even 7OH extract.

Drugs would help me so much. I wouldnt be suicidal.
I cant enjoy doing anything. Even videogames are boring because of my anhedonia. But when I am a little high I enjoy living.

It is so unfair and unfortunate. And this is important: NO psychiatric drugs ever helped me except benzo. And my psychiatrist prescribes me not enough for my severe anxiety.

Legalize drugs please. A real life saver. Definitely better than suicide.

 

[copioushopelessness]

Have you tried 7OH? I've tried kratom, I'm curious about 7OH

 

[akafuka1999]

Have you tried 7OH? I've tried kratom, I'm curious about 7OH

It is obviously stronger. I would call it a real opioid.

 

[copioushopelessness]

It is obviously stronger. I would call it a real opioid.

Considering ordering some

 

[akafuka1999]

Considering ordering some

But I dont know how quickly builds up tolerance. Had it only few times. Hope it does not stop working.

 

[copioushopelessness]

But I dont know how quickly builds up tolerance. Had it only few times. Hope it does not stop working.

Does it feel good? Similar to opiates? Having a hard time finding opiates.

 

[akafuka1999]

Does it feel good? Similar to opiates? Having a hard time finding opiates.

To me yes. And I cannot compare it to opiates.

 

[Lightkeeper]

Venting and off my chest: no point really........

I dont understand why is it possible to go to prison for posession or import of drugs. Just give financial punishment! It is a restriction of human freedom and so is painless death! Look at the statistics. As if suicide wasnt enough. It must be painful and risky. WHY the hell doesnt government do something.

How do I even find a dealer I live in social isolation for years. All I need as a medication for non suffering life is light drugs. Rx opiods, benzo, Amphetamine instead of unhealthy nicotine. Etc.
So I must be considering sniffing toluen or something else.
I dont like alcohol it makes me fatigued, depressed and very nauoseus.
I take Kratom. Luckily here in Czech republic is legal even 7OH extract.

Drugs would help me so much. I wouldnt be suicidal.
I cant enjoy doing anything. Even videogames are boring because of my anhedonia. But when I am a little high I enjoy living.

It is so unfair and unfortunate. And this is important: NO psychiatric drugs ever helped me except benzo. And my psychiatrist prescribes me not enough for my severe anxiety.

Legalize drugs please. A real life saver. Definitely better than suicide.

Ahoj! Glad to see another Czech bro here. I'm in similar position, also wanted to try some drugs, but I'm in almost complete social isolation so I have no idea how would I ever find a dealer. You can however order prodrugs online, which are basically drugs with have different chemical structure, so they produce similar effects but since they have different chemical structure they are not illegal; Im not sure if it's allowed to advertise specific websites here so I'm not going to, but if you google for example "1Bz-LSD", some shops should pop up (there's tons of different kinds, I recommend doing your own research).

However I should warn you about the "Drugs would help me so much. I wouldnt be suicidal.", I don't think they're the magical pills to make the life worthwhile again, at least not for everyone - I tried specifically the 1Bz-LSD (standard 120mcg dose), had a bad trip, didn't make me feel any less suicidal, but I guess it's better to give everything a shot before you decide to CTB. I also tried microdose a few times (10-20mcg), I think those worked for me a little better, there were a few moments where I felt like I got this "whiff of life" (that kind of feeling we had when we were young). I'm now kinda too tired to keep trying, but may it help you somewhat, you can DM me if you need any more info

 

[akafuka1999]

Ahoj! Glad to see another Czech bro here. I'm in similar position, also wanted to try some drugs, but I'm in almost complete social isolation so I have no idea how would I ever find a dealer. You can however order prodrugs online, which are basically drugs with have different chemical structure, so they produce similar effects but since they have different chemical structure they are not illegal; Im not sure if it's allowed to advertise specific websites here so I'm not going to, but if you google for example "1Bz-LSD", some shops should pop up (there's tons of different kinds, I recommend doing your own research).

However I should warn you about the "Drugs would help me so much. I wouldnt be suicidal.", I don't think they're the magical pills to make the life worthwhile again, at least not for everyone - I tried specifically the 1Bz-LSD (standard 120mcg dose), had a bad trip, didn't make me feel any less suicidal, but I guess it's better to give everything a shot before you decide to CTB. I also tried microdose a few times (10-20mcg), I think those worked for me a little better, there were a few moments where I felt like I got this "whiff of life" (that kind of feeling we had when we were young). I'm now kinda too tired to keep trying, but may it help you somewhat, you can DM me if you need any more info

Hello. Be careful with importing research chemicals from abroad. I asked in pravniporadna. xx and they said it is usual imprisonment 1-5 years. I acually ordered once from one netherland site and had luck. Never risking it again. Have you tried kratom?

And as it comes to ctb I am considering CO poisoning. I hope my situation gets better. I think I am not capable of killing myself. Only if life forces me more. And then there is the risk of vegetative state from failed attempt. I really wish I was never born. No man no problem. We were dead already before birth. Such unnecessary suffering of being born for me.