drugs that gets you depressed

[Oblivion]

i am not feeling as shitty as i should and my survival extinct is super high as i've noticed the last time i tried to drink SN and could't.
I have an extremely terrible life and i still feel good as if everything is okay, i know i should kill myself, i feel it but i'm unable to feel bad no matter what i do.
are there any drugs that would make me feel terrible and more suicidal? i've heard of antidepressants having that effect,can anyone suggest something?

 

[Squiddy]

Lexapro made me feel extremely suicidal.

 

[Oblivion]

anyone else..

 

[Donk]

wait i dont get it. if you feel good then why do you want to ctb?

 

[Oblivion]

cause there's no reason to feel good, everything's fucked up and i have no reason to live, im broke unemployed with no friends and nothing to live for, i should be devastated, i have SN and everything i need but i cant fucking do it and i need to feel terrible

 

[Rockman]

Isotretynoin. It is the strongest drug for acne. Strongly depressive. Took them 2 years. BBC made documental film about this 'Dying for the clear skin'.

 

[Oblivion]

Isotretynoin. It is the strongest drug for acne. Strongly depressive. Took them 2 years. BBC made documental film about this 'Dying for the clear skin'.

Isotretinoin - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

it says rare

 

[NothingElseMatters]

I feel terrible when I stop taking my medications. You look like me when I'm on meds, I feel good even tho I know I shouldn't be that way

 

[Oblivion]

so im guessing no drug is guarantied to fuck your brain into depression

 

[mesohappy]

If your not "devastated and depressed enough",enjoy it.Try to make the best of it.Make a game out of it,apply for jobs and talk to managers "just for kicks".

Who knows? You may fix your problem that way...Or the rejections will make you "devastated and depressed enough".

Or they may build confidence,and learn to laugh at yourself.Or cultivate some momentum,anger and drive.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

i am not feeling as shitty as i should and my survival extinct is super high as i've noticed the last time i tried to drink SN and could't.


i know i should kill myself

You've used the word should twice here. I get why you say you don't feel shitty in comparison to shitty circumstances, but it's troubling that you say "I know I should kill myself."

Asking for recommendations for drugs to push you to perform an extreme act that you think you "should" do is imo asking for encouragement.

It feels off to me. It's like you're trying to rope others into engaging in your suicide. I get a sense that you're standing near, but not quite at, the edge of a cliff, and you're asking others nearby to give you just a little push to give you momentum.

 

[Walilamdzi]

I feel like antipsychotics have permanently altered my energy levels.. no energy at the minute.

 

[Donk]

so im guessing no drug is guarantied to fuck your brain into depression

depression isnt something you want. trust me. ive dealt with it my whole life. if you ask me you sound like you are already depress which is understandable given what you are going through.
maybe its a good idea to go seek help. try talking to a therapist or make an appointment with a psychiatrist.

 

[oldgregg187]

Alcohol. Coming off steroids can make you very depressed too. Looking in the mirror makes me feel pretty low

 

[Intelligent Ape]

Mephedrone. But you can try other stimulators. For example kamikadze pilots were given methamphetamine) One serious remark - stimulators raise heart rate, what no good with SN.

 

[Maxximilian]

When i drink alcohol it depresses me more than i already was this happend when i drink alone at nights

 

[oneess]

Haven't touched drugs for a long long time, but I remember alcohol made my suicidal tendencies go from 90 to 9000.

If we're talking about meds, I think most antipsychotics I took made me feel bad, I remember seraquell(or whatever it's called)
It was like "okay I'm drowsy and physically relaxed but I want to kill myself right on the spot"

 

[Alyatl]

Haven't touched drugs for a long long time, but I remember alcohol made my suicidal tendencies go from 90 to 9000.

If we're talking about meds, I think most antipsychotics I took made me feel bad, I remember seraquell(or whatever it's called)
It was like "okay I'm drowsy and physically relaxed but I want to kill myself right on the spot"

Yesss I'm on seroquel right now, legitimately a chemical sledgehammer to the brain. It just sedates you to the point of being physically unable to harm yourself but you just sit there paralyzed forced to dwell on every thought you could possibly have.

 

[Sensei]

OP, I'd happily switch places with you. The circumstances are irrelevant. What's important is how you feel. If I could learn to cope and stop suffering, the problems in my life wouldn't be problems.

 

[Oblivion]

Mephedrone. But you can try other stimulators. For example kamikadze pilots were given methamphetamine) One serious remark - stimulators raise heart rate, what no good with SN.

methamphetamine is retalin, right? i have that

When i drink alcohol it depresses me more than i already was this happend when i drink alone at nights

Haven't touched drugs for a long long time, but I remember alcohol made my suicidal tendencies go from 90 to 9000.

If we're talking about meds, I think most antipsychotics I took made me feel bad, I remember seraquell(or whatever it's called)
It was like "okay I'm drowsy and physically relaxed but I want to kill myself right on the spot"

Alcohol makes me happy, alone or with others, always heightens my mood

OP, I'd happily switch places with you. The circumstances are irrelevant. What's important is how you feel. If I could learn to cope and stop suffering, the problems in my life wouldn't be problems.

living like a leech for all my life on my brothers back and living just for eating and sleeping is not irrelevant, this is not a life

You've used the word should twice here. I get why you say you don't feel shitty in comparison to shitty circumstances, but it's troubling that you say "I know I should kill myself."

Asking for recommendations for drugs to push you to perform an extreme act that you think you "should" do is imo asking for encouragement.

It feels off to me. It's like you're trying to rope others into engaging in your suicide. I get a sense that you're standing near, but not quite at, the edge of a cliff, and you're asking others nearby to give you just a little push to give you momentum.

I don't need encouragement, i need to decrease my survival extinct which is preventing me from ending my miserable worthless needless life, stop it with this pro life shit philosophy, not all lives are worth living.

depression isnt something you want. trust me. ive dealt with it my whole life. if you ask me you sound like you are already depress which is understandable given what you are going through.
maybe its a good idea to go seek help. try talking to a therapist or make an appointment with a psychiatrist.

fuck help, make me feel better about a shitty life? what the fuck for?????

 

[Sensei]

living like a leech for all my life on my brothers back and living just for eating and sleeping is not irrelevant, this is not a life

But if you're not deeply depressed it's easier to change your life circumstances as you have more energy and motivation. However, I suspect that you're talking about some kind of chronic and severe illness. An honest question: Do you think that your brother sees you as a leech?

 

[autumnal]

You've used the word should twice here. I get why you say you don't feel shitty in comparison to shitty circumstances, but it's troubling that you say "I know I should kill myself."

THIS.​

And also what everyone else has said. It sounds as if you know on some level that things aren't bad enough for you to kill yourself. Which is a good state of affairs to be in. Pointing this fact out doesn't make us 'pro-life'. It's not survival instinct you are battling, it's an incongruity between how suicidal you (for some reason) think you should be and how suicidal you actually are.

 

[Oblivion]

But if you're not deeply depressed it's easier to change your life circumstances as you have more energy and motivation. However, I suspect that you're talking about some kind of chronic and severe illness. An honest question: Do you think that your brother sees you as a leech?

im a refugee, i face racism and discrimnation and i dont get job offers, and i have extremely bad memory and lack of focus so i always fail in jobs, nothing helped me overcome that shit.
i don't know if he sees me as a leech or not, the truth is that i am and i can't keep depending on him all of my life.

THIS.​

And also what everyone else has said. It sounds as if you know on some level that things aren't bad enough for you to kill yourself. Which is a good state of affairs to be in. Pointing this fact out doesn't make us 'pro-life'. It's not survival instinct you are battling, it's an incongruity between how suicidal you (for some reason) think you should be and how suicidal you actually are.

Trust me, things ARE more than bad enough to kill myself, i have no reason to live for and i can't keep day dreaming about having a basic life that i can never have, that is tormenting for me, life is about its quality, not just for living it for the sake of living it

 

[Sensei]

im a refugee, i face racism and discrimnation and i dont get job offers, and i have extremely bad memory and lack of focus so i always fail in jobs, nothing helped me overcome that shit.

I won't deny that's a difficult situation. Could it be that you haven't found the right kind of job yet, though?

i don't know if he sees me as a leech or not, the truth is that i am and i can't keep depending on him all of my life.

For most people, it's simply natural to help their family members when they're in trouble because they love them.

 

[IrRegularjoe]

i am not feeling as shitty as i should and my survival extinct is super high as i've noticed the last time i tried to drink SN and could't.
I have an extremely terrible life and i still feel good as if everything is okay, i know i should kill myself, i feel it but i'm unable to feel bad no matter what i do.
are there any drugs that would make me feel terrible and more suicidal? i've heard of antidepressants having that effect,can anyone suggest something?

I would say all of them. As I've tried so many and doctors who have never taken them can't shut up about their knowledge of how I should be feeling. Psychiatrist are fucking stupid.

 

[lofistos345]

Isotretynoin. It is the strongest drug for acne. Strongly depressive. Took them 2 years. BBC made documental film about this 'Dying for the clear skin'.

Did you skin got better?

 

[Oblivion]

I won't deny that's a difficult situation. Could it be that you haven't found the right kind of job yet, though?



For most people, it's simply natural to help their family members when they're in trouble because they love them.

what right job? i can work low level jobs with very long hours and very bad salary that wont be enough for personal allowance, that work includes weekends and holidays and night shifts, no thank you, i'd rather be dead, its the same

 

[Sensei]

what right job? i can work low level jobs with very long hours and very bad salary that wont be enough for personal allowance, that work includes weekends and holidays and night shifts, no thank you, i'd rather be dead, its the same

You said that you have extremely bad memory and lack of focus so that you always fail in jobs. Now you also tell me that you don't want a wage slave job, and I certainly understand that. Maybe there's some non-wage slave job which doesn't require sharp memory or focus. Maybe there's no such job, but it doesn't hurt thinking about it. Even if you're preparing for your death, you can still ponder upon it. What do you have to loose?

 

[oldgregg187]

Try steroids, it helps with cognition beyond anything I've ever tried, what's to lose

 

[Painpleasure]

Alcohol is a depressant (drug) as well