Drowning

[MyChoiceAlone]

i've always felt strength near water. i don't even know why.

 

[Epsilon Lyrae]

Since we have a bit of time, I just wondered have you told anyone about your plans? Have you said goodbye? Or do you prefer to leave silently? Just wanted to hear your opinion on this

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

maybe some big fish will eat ya. don't do it if you don't want. did you pick the lake? river?

 

[SadCookie]

maybe some big fish will eat ya. don't do it if you don't want. did you pick the lake? river?

Lake

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

i'll be here. have insomnia.

 

[SadCookie]

Since we have a bit of time, I just wondered have you told anyone about your plans? Have you said goodbye? Or do you prefer to leave silently? Just wanted to hear your opinion on this

I did not. I kept it as secret as I did almost everything in life alone. I didnt want to make my goodbye thread because I would really get emotional and then I wouldnt proceed with this.
Long story short I have been bullied when I was a kid, my parents divorced when I was in 7th grade in elementary school. My mother is best . Never had support from father he was cheating on my mum and that was reason they got divorced.

I never felt accepted in this society and was always aside.
I spent nost of my time listening to music, watching movies, tv shoes, sometimes just walking.. didnt go out because I didnt like the music here and nobody would accept me if i didnt drink alchocol.

Soon it will be morning its 4 30 am here. I have like 30 minutes left then I have to go to get it done...
Tv shows*

Also there id one sad thing that I got into thats mostly why I am doing this + depression. I never took drug in my life, never smoked a cig and didnt like alcohol very much

 

[Epsilon Lyrae]

I'm sorry for what you have been through. I've been bullied in elementary school and probably because of that I never had friends in school or university. I understand perfectly, how it feels to be separated from society. But just know that none of what happened to you is your fault. You didn't deserve that, no one did. I wish that your suffering is over, and peace finally found

yeah it's almost morning, but we are here for you.

Also there id one sad thing that I got into thats mostly why I am doing this + depression. I never took drug in my life, never smoked a cig and didnt like alcohol very much

The more I talk to you the more I found we have in common.

 

[SadCookie]

Water is freezing.
Love you all bye

 

[Epsilon Lyrae]

goodbye, wish you well. See you soon

 

[deepocean]

Actually that's what I'm planning if I don't have any other way. I don't even care about people.