Mircea
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- Apr 15, 2019
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After months of thinking about my plan to escape this world, I have a full scenario planned. I've not yet decided if and when I will have to carry it out but am now prepared for it. I would like to share it here for feedback and to hear other peoples thoughts on it. Note that, in order to avoid giving too many hints about my identity in case someone could recognize me, I will be deliberately inaccurate with some less relevant details and terms.
Sometime this year, our class will be taking a trip to the ocean and staying at a hotel for a couple of days. Before we return, I plan on going out to drown myself in the ocean late at night, using alcohol to numb my body so I may black out in the water and drown painlessly. My step by step plan is as follows:
First of all, I will skip sleeping the night before the day in which it's going to happen later that night, in order to sleep deprive and tire myself which should further numb me. I also won't be eating or drinking anything 12 to 24 hours before doing it, which should further weaken my body and also reduce the chances of throwing up due to the alcohol. In the meantime, I will be purchasing roughly 500ml of 40% concentrated alcoholic drinks, which based on previous experiences with getting drunk is the amount I suspect should be enough to make me black out without making me throw up. I will be most likely using Vodka as most of my experiences have been with this drink, though for increased efficiency I might mix it with another type.
Around 12:00 AM, I'll be sneaking out and going for a walk to the shore, obviously to a place where I know no one else should come at that hour. I'll consume the first bottle (200ml) before entering the water, which is the amount I've taken to get drunk in the past and only enough to make me dizzy. A few minutes after that I'll step into shallow water, no deeper than around my pelvis area: This is to make sure that if I black out at any point from here on I fall in deep enough water. Here I will attempt to consume the remaining 400ml of drinks... stopping either once I finish them, or if I feel I might throw up whereas my current intoxication seems like enough to shut down my body effectively. The moment I've decided I drank enough, I'm throwing the bottles away and swimming into the ocean, going further and further for as long as I can keep swimming... obviously past where I can still reach the ground while standing.
This is when I imagine the magic happens: As the rest of the alcohol makes its effect while I tire of swimming, I'm suspecting it will be 5 to 15 minutes until I become both unable to keep swimming but also unaware of anything at all. At this level of intoxication, mixed with a missed night's sleep and not eating or drinking for half a day, I should be unable to feel any fear nor anywhere near as much pain as I sink; Suffocating might feel stressful for a few seconds, but the peaceful stage will likely come soon after.
As I seek a method that has no risk of severe permanent damage in case of failure, is acceptably painless, as well as not being gory in any way, this seems like my only solution. I've already researched the differences between drowning in sweet water versus salt water, and people who have nearly drowned confirm it's comparatively much more comfortable in salt water. I love the open water very much, making this my second most preferred way of dying... don't ask what the first one is, I cannot offer that detail here.
What are your opinions? Do you see anything that can go wrong or how it might not succeed? Do you believe drowning should be painless at that level of intoxication? For the purpose of debating the amount of alcohol needed, I'm a male of average height and weight in my mid 20's who does very little exercise.
Sometime this year, our class will be taking a trip to the ocean and staying at a hotel for a couple of days. Before we return, I plan on going out to drown myself in the ocean late at night, using alcohol to numb my body so I may black out in the water and drown painlessly. My step by step plan is as follows:
First of all, I will skip sleeping the night before the day in which it's going to happen later that night, in order to sleep deprive and tire myself which should further numb me. I also won't be eating or drinking anything 12 to 24 hours before doing it, which should further weaken my body and also reduce the chances of throwing up due to the alcohol. In the meantime, I will be purchasing roughly 500ml of 40% concentrated alcoholic drinks, which based on previous experiences with getting drunk is the amount I suspect should be enough to make me black out without making me throw up. I will be most likely using Vodka as most of my experiences have been with this drink, though for increased efficiency I might mix it with another type.
Around 12:00 AM, I'll be sneaking out and going for a walk to the shore, obviously to a place where I know no one else should come at that hour. I'll consume the first bottle (200ml) before entering the water, which is the amount I've taken to get drunk in the past and only enough to make me dizzy. A few minutes after that I'll step into shallow water, no deeper than around my pelvis area: This is to make sure that if I black out at any point from here on I fall in deep enough water. Here I will attempt to consume the remaining 400ml of drinks... stopping either once I finish them, or if I feel I might throw up whereas my current intoxication seems like enough to shut down my body effectively. The moment I've decided I drank enough, I'm throwing the bottles away and swimming into the ocean, going further and further for as long as I can keep swimming... obviously past where I can still reach the ground while standing.
This is when I imagine the magic happens: As the rest of the alcohol makes its effect while I tire of swimming, I'm suspecting it will be 5 to 15 minutes until I become both unable to keep swimming but also unaware of anything at all. At this level of intoxication, mixed with a missed night's sleep and not eating or drinking for half a day, I should be unable to feel any fear nor anywhere near as much pain as I sink; Suffocating might feel stressful for a few seconds, but the peaceful stage will likely come soon after.
As I seek a method that has no risk of severe permanent damage in case of failure, is acceptably painless, as well as not being gory in any way, this seems like my only solution. I've already researched the differences between drowning in sweet water versus salt water, and people who have nearly drowned confirm it's comparatively much more comfortable in salt water. I love the open water very much, making this my second most preferred way of dying... don't ask what the first one is, I cannot offer that detail here.
What are your opinions? Do you see anything that can go wrong or how it might not succeed? Do you believe drowning should be painless at that level of intoxication? For the purpose of debating the amount of alcohol needed, I'm a male of average height and weight in my mid 20's who does very little exercise.
