JigsawFeelin
Student
- May 31, 2020
- 132
Does anyone else feel like they ... could.
I've got everything together now,
But I'm a bit worried as I drink every night for my anxiety, combining it with Valium so I don't slash myself up.
I'm frightened if I don't have my usual bottle I'll freak the fuck out and end up hurting myself/calling someone.
I *know* we're told not to drink, but is there an account in which SN failed because of drink, or is it just good sense?
I just don't feel I'd vomit
Every time I've attempted- whether it's been overdose or hanging- it's been in a drunken haze and I've felt incredible..
Also, I'd really like someone to record my attempt, watch me undergo it and perhaps talk me through it. The 20 minute mark where some members who've been watched have reported that it seemed the person attempting SN was expressing discomfort, would probably be minutes I'd like someone to say 'this is normal, Jigsaw, just a bit longer' etc through.
Found out the hard way the partners thread is a dating site, but still want the accountability. I'm planning to go before I'm 25 (August 18th) but have stuff to arrange with my kitten and I want to make sure my housemates aren't left with my mess to sort through.
I've got everything together now,
But I'm a bit worried as I drink every night for my anxiety, combining it with Valium so I don't slash myself up.
I'm frightened if I don't have my usual bottle I'll freak the fuck out and end up hurting myself/calling someone.
I *know* we're told not to drink, but is there an account in which SN failed because of drink, or is it just good sense?
I just don't feel I'd vomit
Every time I've attempted- whether it's been overdose or hanging- it's been in a drunken haze and I've felt incredible..
Also, I'd really like someone to record my attempt, watch me undergo it and perhaps talk me through it. The 20 minute mark where some members who've been watched have reported that it seemed the person attempting SN was expressing discomfort, would probably be minutes I'd like someone to say 'this is normal, Jigsaw, just a bit longer' etc through.
Found out the hard way the partners thread is a dating site, but still want the accountability. I'm planning to go before I'm 25 (August 18th) but have stuff to arrange with my kitten and I want to make sure my housemates aren't left with my mess to sort through.
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