Drinking N is as hard as jumping or hanging.

[dandan]

Could it be that drinking N is as hard as jumping or hanging?
I just realized I'm considering ctb some time soon and im shocked, I cant believe I have reached this point, what a shame, what a wasted life...
what stupids mistakes that leads me here... what stupid human being am I ...

I cant believe I'm really considering it... I mean I have made a big effort to find N, but at the moment that I think on drinking it,
I can sure imagine , drinking it could be as hard as hanging oneself, or jumping from a tall bridge... its a simple action that involves so much...
im sure drinking N is as hard as jumping from 200ft altitude... damm

 

[GeorgeJL]

You speak for yourself. Personally I don't have any fear of drinking N because I know I am going to wait until I can't go anymore. But I suppose some people would have strong SI if they have doubts.

 

[dandan]

You speak for yourself. Personally I don't have any fear of drinking N because I know I am going to wait until I can't go anymore. But I suppose some people would have strong SI if they have doubts.

Personally, I think you have not been any close to the decision to actually drink it.
you'll see what I mean in the future, when your times comes... like if you didnt had a SI ... .LOL... your's is probably bigger and hidden...

oooh ofcourse.... you are waiting until you can do anything anymore.... sure.... thats so easy.... cheers for you

 

[GeorgeJL]

Personally, I think you have not been any close to the decision to actually drink it.
you'll see what I mean in the future, when your times comes... like if you didnt had a SI ... .LOL... your's is probably bigger and hidden...

oooh ofcourse.... you are waiting until you can do anything anymore.... sure.... thats so easy.... cheers for you

Yeah maybe your right. Well see. I'll be back here 40 years later. "So I'm about to take N but can't remember where I put it." LOL

 

[RedSalvation15]

I guess that a method for a "peaceful death" is easier to do than a method that invols pain or that leave a mess / horrorfying pictures (like jumping or gun-suicide).
Some time ago, when I went with pills and alcohol, it was pretty easy to swallow it down. At this point I also was sure that I never could jump from a high place or drown myself. But pills and alc seemed like not to be any problem.
Just didn't work because I had do throw up, but had a good nap for 2 days.

 

[dandan]

when I was feeling like dying NOW , I tried the exit bag, nitrogen, but screwed it up...
alcohol and pills? really? that almost never works.... glad you didnt make it, I read like you are better now, thats great

 

[Deleted member 94]

Could it be that drinking N is as hard as jumping or hanging?
I just realized I'm considering ctb some time soon and im shocked, I cant believe I have reached this point, what a shame, what a wasted life...
what stupids mistakes that leads me here... what stupid human being am I ...

I cant believe I'm really considering it... I mean I have made a big effort to find N, but at the moment that I think on drinking it,
I can sure imagine , drinking it could be as hard as hanging oneself, or jumping from a tall bridge... its a simple action that involves so much...
im sure drinking N is as hard as jumping from 200ft altitude... damm

Hi Dandan

Do you have the N now.
I have mine also and the only part that concerns me is the taste, if only I know of a substance that tastes like N I will condition my body by drinking it daily and getting used to it before I take N.

Shame there is no powder form, there would be less of it to drink, one girl put it into mouthwash and drank it from a very old topix forum which was shut down in 2012.

 

[RedSalvation15]

Yes, I have to admit that pills and alcohol don't seem to be reliable for a ctb-method for me. But I read that it could work with xanax, so I wanted to give it a try.
I didn't know that when I tried it back then (I was sure it would work), so I also thought that this would be my last action and swallowed all of it together. I was nervous while drinking and finally taking the pills, but I was more afraid of being alive any longer - I guess that was what took my fear of doing it.

 

[Lady black]

Yes it could be as hard as every method. At least the survival instinctis there at any method you will use.