EternalHunger
tired of everything
- Sep 3, 2025
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I been having a similar nightmare that has been haunting me for years, as long as I can physically remember it's always been there and I can't figure out what it means...
First, I'd like to state that I'm not scared of general 'giant' things, like Megalophobia hardly describes what I generally am scared of and I feel nothing towards most things that point to that. But my dreams would feel hyper-realistic in terms of senses, I would feel the air breeze through my skin or the ground underneath and usually be from a window or me going by my day to day; then I notice something so unimaginably big and looming that I feel as though I shouldn't be alive witnessing it, a peak beyond the skies and the unknown, nowhere on earth can I escape and there is utterly no hope left. It has been so many things in my dreams, sky-covering eye looking straight at me; a nearby planet everso close to earth; a cosmic godlike hand reaching towards us. It is horror in its purest, most unrelenting form, an annihilation not of the body but of the psyche, a dread that endures even in my waking thought. The oldest memory I have of it was when I was 5, the first dream was of a butterfly, an extremely beautiful yet terrifying butterfly destroying the world around me, though usually my nightmares are not destructive but more like having a bit of divine undertones, just patiently watching or looming over all.
Imagine something so infinitely larger than the world you walk on slowly looming over the planet? Like a world-ending scenario involving beings beyond human comprehension observing/looming over the planet, so infinitely massive it completely destroys the human psyche and reasoning, cause what can you really do against something that you can't even fathom?
I genuinely feel utter despair each time, like I'm just stuck with no hope of escaping with all my senses scream that this IS reality so even when I wake up in cold sweat I spent my entire life in 'hiding' or closer to anticipating I guess, I never had anyone to tell this to so I was just forced to keep it to myself for years just in utter terror and fear of being watched; even now that I'm far more used to them it's less that I don't get scared of it anymore and more that I don't care if the world does get destroyed at this point, I just want it to stop.
Not even the years of child abuse, bullying and homeless compares to the amount of genuine terror I feel in these nightmare no matter how long I been experiencing them; and it's likely a huge contributor to why I have an aversion towards religion or the idea of a 'God' overall despite being raised in a Christian "household".
This is the only image that genuinely gave me a similar feeling, though much less intense and more like apprehensive to look at:
First, I'd like to state that I'm not scared of general 'giant' things, like Megalophobia hardly describes what I generally am scared of and I feel nothing towards most things that point to that. But my dreams would feel hyper-realistic in terms of senses, I would feel the air breeze through my skin or the ground underneath and usually be from a window or me going by my day to day; then I notice something so unimaginably big and looming that I feel as though I shouldn't be alive witnessing it, a peak beyond the skies and the unknown, nowhere on earth can I escape and there is utterly no hope left. It has been so many things in my dreams, sky-covering eye looking straight at me; a nearby planet everso close to earth; a cosmic godlike hand reaching towards us. It is horror in its purest, most unrelenting form, an annihilation not of the body but of the psyche, a dread that endures even in my waking thought. The oldest memory I have of it was when I was 5, the first dream was of a butterfly, an extremely beautiful yet terrifying butterfly destroying the world around me, though usually my nightmares are not destructive but more like having a bit of divine undertones, just patiently watching or looming over all.
Imagine something so infinitely larger than the world you walk on slowly looming over the planet? Like a world-ending scenario involving beings beyond human comprehension observing/looming over the planet, so infinitely massive it completely destroys the human psyche and reasoning, cause what can you really do against something that you can't even fathom?
I genuinely feel utter despair each time, like I'm just stuck with no hope of escaping with all my senses scream that this IS reality so even when I wake up in cold sweat I spent my entire life in 'hiding' or closer to anticipating I guess, I never had anyone to tell this to so I was just forced to keep it to myself for years just in utter terror and fear of being watched; even now that I'm far more used to them it's less that I don't get scared of it anymore and more that I don't care if the world does get destroyed at this point, I just want it to stop.
Not even the years of child abuse, bullying and homeless compares to the amount of genuine terror I feel in these nightmare no matter how long I been experiencing them; and it's likely a huge contributor to why I have an aversion towards religion or the idea of a 'God' overall despite being raised in a Christian "household".
This is the only image that genuinely gave me a similar feeling, though much less intense and more like apprehensive to look at:
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