nobeertonight
Don't listen to me, I am drunk
- Mar 30, 2025
- 52
I'm really into Jung and dream interpretation; I tend to look for meaning in symbols I see throughout my day, stuff I do that feels weird, dreams, random thoughts and so on.
Lately I've developed a weird paranoia for cockroaches, yes they disgust me but I can deal with it if I find one, it's more of a hassle to get them out of the house than anything, maybe it's just the summer approaching but I also had a dream about it. I was in a very old a ruined building, like a brutalist place the kind you find in Eastern Europe, and the people there were sort of thugs, like very menacing guys, wearing tank tops, shave heads and so on. I was there with a distant friend and I had a pack of cigarettes (Blue Chesterfield, the brand I usually get) which I got from a vending machine in very bad condition, the pack itself looked shabby, like it didn't have the plastic wrap and was kind of deformed, I get a cigarette and I smoke it but it looks like there's less than twenty, I think there were rats and some cockroaches at this point of the dream already. anyway we get into an elevator and when it opens it's full of thugs who get out and let only the two us into the elevator, we go in and I open the pack for another cigarette (I had one before) and I see half the pack is empty and instead of cigarettes there's a cockroach who promptly jumps out and runs away in a vent (are there vents in elevator? I think the roach went after a rat or at least there was a rat in the vent too, I'm not sure), anyway I wake up shortly after.
I'm pretty sure the elevator is a symbol of the body as this seems to be a staple in dream symbolism, (horses used to be symbols of the body, and cars, carriages work too), although maybe it's a symbol of the soul, because it goes towards the sky instead of moving on the earth, like an ethereal body, and it was very ruined like the building, which at that point could be a symbol of me, or at least the container of my soul and shit. Thugs? I don't know, I hold some very extreme political views but it's kind of a joke between me and my friends that since I started working in a factory I became less left-leaning and started smoking, gambling and saying a little bit of extreme things (as a joke but I am convinced a lot of leftist propaganda is crap), and I also became a lot more bitter and resentful which I acknowledge is a prevalent feelings in radicalized right leaning people so maybe the thugs are that part of me, that I keep in.
I really wonder what the roaches mean and what the cigarettes and the vending machine. As for rats, I have this nickname that means "rat" and it's my gaming username usually and also a joke among a few friends, but I don't remember rats vividly enough in my dream.
Roaches are dark and real shitty creatures, like they eat each others' dead body and they slide into anything. I don't know why I'm posting it, but looking for meaning in stuff like this is fun to me, and maybe there's a psychiatrist out there that can help me figure it out
Lately I've developed a weird paranoia for cockroaches, yes they disgust me but I can deal with it if I find one, it's more of a hassle to get them out of the house than anything, maybe it's just the summer approaching but I also had a dream about it. I was in a very old a ruined building, like a brutalist place the kind you find in Eastern Europe, and the people there were sort of thugs, like very menacing guys, wearing tank tops, shave heads and so on. I was there with a distant friend and I had a pack of cigarettes (Blue Chesterfield, the brand I usually get) which I got from a vending machine in very bad condition, the pack itself looked shabby, like it didn't have the plastic wrap and was kind of deformed, I get a cigarette and I smoke it but it looks like there's less than twenty, I think there were rats and some cockroaches at this point of the dream already. anyway we get into an elevator and when it opens it's full of thugs who get out and let only the two us into the elevator, we go in and I open the pack for another cigarette (I had one before) and I see half the pack is empty and instead of cigarettes there's a cockroach who promptly jumps out and runs away in a vent (are there vents in elevator? I think the roach went after a rat or at least there was a rat in the vent too, I'm not sure), anyway I wake up shortly after.
I'm pretty sure the elevator is a symbol of the body as this seems to be a staple in dream symbolism, (horses used to be symbols of the body, and cars, carriages work too), although maybe it's a symbol of the soul, because it goes towards the sky instead of moving on the earth, like an ethereal body, and it was very ruined like the building, which at that point could be a symbol of me, or at least the container of my soul and shit. Thugs? I don't know, I hold some very extreme political views but it's kind of a joke between me and my friends that since I started working in a factory I became less left-leaning and started smoking, gambling and saying a little bit of extreme things (as a joke but I am convinced a lot of leftist propaganda is crap), and I also became a lot more bitter and resentful which I acknowledge is a prevalent feelings in radicalized right leaning people so maybe the thugs are that part of me, that I keep in.
I really wonder what the roaches mean and what the cigarettes and the vending machine. As for rats, I have this nickname that means "rat" and it's my gaming username usually and also a joke among a few friends, but I don't remember rats vividly enough in my dream.
Roaches are dark and real shitty creatures, like they eat each others' dead body and they slide into anything. I don't know why I'm posting it, but looking for meaning in stuff like this is fun to me, and maybe there's a psychiatrist out there that can help me figure it out
