Don't want to feel hurt anymore

[feder]

Everything always just repeats itself, I'm trying to change and make things better but it seems like every decision I make only leads to worse things. I really don't understand this world or how to be "normal" and function. It feels like suicide will always be the only right thing I am going to do in my life. Went to a party yesterday and everyone was enjoying themselves, I was too, at least on the surface. Deep down It was the same as always, fear, panic, confusion nothing more. All I want right now is for everyone to forget about me so I can ctb in peace. After that i want people to act as if I never existed, just go on with their lives like nothing happened. All the sources I've found for SN don't work or are out of stock, I can't even die properly, God damn it.

 

[CTB Dream]

V sry life awful cncpt hurt make sfr ya thsi wrld norm awfl no undrstd, v sry no mthod cruel life

 

[saddestbunny]

i feel you completely, this world is a struggle and it feels hopeless a lot of the time

i'm not sure which is worse having no one care about you so u feel even more alone and want to ctb or having ppl that would miss you

i hope you can find peace

 

[feder]

V sry life awful cncpt hurt make sfr ya thsi wrld norm awfl no undrstd, v sry no mthod cruel life

Thank you, it's really mentally draining when you want to die and you don't have the opportunity.

i feel you completely, this world is a struggle and it feels hopeless a lot of the time

i'm not sure which is worse having no one care about you so u feel even more alone and want to ctb or having ppl that would miss you

i hope you can find peace

A part of me wants someone to care about me but another part thinks that it would be better if no one does, it's conflicting.
I also wish you to find the peace you are seeking.

 

[Namensjemand]

I don't have your mental troubles (anymore) but I totally feel the "want to be forgotten" sentiment. My life is so shameful I want every trace eradicated. I want all to know how sorry I am for my existence, but I can't. What I do not want is to be remembered. I hate what I am. Nothing good about it whatsoever. It does not deserve to be mourned.

Sorry for your mental hardships.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me it's really understandable wishing to finally escape from all the suffering, it must be tiring feeling trapped in that situation. But anyway best wishes, completely being forgotten about also sounds ideal to me as well.