Dont give people second changes (or a 1000 like me)

[lonesomedrifter]

I thought it would get better now that I'm pregnant. He said he will do anything.
Today me and my partner got into a fight, he beat me until I was unconscious and started puking. My whole face is red and swollen. He wouldn't let me leave, but at the same time he wanted me gone. I ran away. I am mentally ill beyond comprehension. Why do I let myself get abused like this. I didnt deserve this. But my brain and body says I have to turn back and that I love him. But I don't. I wish I never met him. I want to return to my parents, but it's done for me. I am too weak.

This will be my last post. I will hang myself in the morning, as soon as he leaves for work. Full suspension, I have no will to live, not even an a bit. My SI is gone. I'll wander through the city this night. Its peaceful, I'm listening to songs my mom used to sing me. I cant wait to wake up from this nightmare.

 

[BlackEyedDog]

Hello again, I remember your story. Your partner is not a partner, he is a monster you need to get away from. Did you ever share your story with your physician? There are social services in your country that will help you. But you must take that difficult step to leave for your safety and your unborn child. As soon as it is safe to do so, please go to your doctor, hospital or even police. I know you feel like all is lost but you have to be brave and seek help. Don't give up.

 

[Hvergelmir]

I thought it would get better now that I'm pregnant. He said he will do anything.
Today me and my partner got into a fight, he beat me until I was unconscious and started puking. My whole face is red and swollen. He wouldn't let me leave, but at the same time he wanted me gone. I ran away. I am mentally ill beyond comprehension. Why do I let myself get abused like this. I didnt deserve this. But my brain and body says I have to turn back and that I love him. But I don't. I wish I never met him. I want to return to my parents, but it's done for me. I am too weak.

This will be my last post. I will hang myself in the morning, as soon as he leaves for work. Full suspension, I have no will to live, not even an a bit. My SI is gone. I'll wander through the city this night. Its peaceful, I'm listening to songs my mom used to sing me. I cant wait to wake up from this nightmare.

Not to diminish what you've been through, but the stated reason for your suicide is quite easily neutralized.

As an outsider it's bloody obvious, that he ought to be locked up, and that you ought to move on. There's no reason for your future to entwined with this person.
If possible, talk to your parents. If not, talk to friends, or go straight to authorities.

Suicide is an important right when there's no way out, but I don't see how you are forced to stay in that situation.
I wish I could do more, but stating the obvious is the best I can do here. I wish you a speedy recovery, both physically and mentally.
Let us know if we can do anything. I don't think anyone want to see you dead, while he moves on the next victim.

 

[whywere]

For heaven's sake, call the cops and have his ass arrested.

PLEASE do NOT ctb with another human inside of you PLEASE!

1) Get his ass in jail

2) get a restraining order against him

3) If the living arrangements are such, then go to a friend's place, call your local women's shelter(s) groups

4) But PLEASE do NOT harm another soul that depends on YOU right now

%) I know it is easy to say, can be hard to do, BUT you will be a mom in x months and the joy of the little one might be immense, and the male jerk could be out of your life, except for visitation rights, if he wants them under court order, against him.

One of the times I will say this: I am 68 and have seen this through my life, called "life experience" a few times and I have the lady and her child, later on, and I can remember just how wonderful the child was, smiling and just so cheerful.

GET HIS ASS ARRESSTED and get a court order for him to stay the heck away.

Lots of HUGE hugs, love and the knowledge that you are NOT alone.

Walter

 

[AuroraB]

Please call your parents, tell them the truth, and have them come get you right away. Once you are safe with your parents, report Matt to the police and never let him anywhere near you ever again.

 

[whywere]

Please call your parents, tell them the truth, and have them come get you right away. Once you are safe with your parents, report Matt to the police and never let him anywhere near you ever again.

100% agree with everything you said.

Walter