I was in a therapy cult for years. It was a mix between’ritual’, trance, neo-tantra, gestalt. It cost me £1000s. I felt better for the days on their retreats and terrible the rest of the year. From crying all day every day to feeling fine back to crying all day every day. It did give me hope and kept me alive and a community, though now I see it exploited me without referring me to psychiatry. Though I guess psychiatry is also a cult, but cheaper 😉
So I don’t know if any of what it was could be bottled. Maybe the dancing part. If you can go dancing. I’m personally not that into it, but five rhythms dancing helps some people. It can also give you a community without religion or alongside religion depending on whether you like religion or not.
I tried rTMS, cost £7k, helped me for three days. According to their website it helps 70 per cent of people with TRD. I don’t believe that, they just got lucky with the research. Also, what is the maintenance/time to relapse.
I have tried pretty much every drug: ayahuasca, kambo, lsd, shrooms, weed. Whatever the drugs tell you, take it with a pinch of salt. I got some ridiculous ideas on drugs and believed in them for years, but if you keep your rational mind in the picture after the trip this can hopefully be avoided. 5 MEO DMT is nice. I’ve read it helps some people, did nothing for me. I did also try mescaline. Ayahuasca did help me somewhat as did lsd. But handle with care/a therapist/a loved one. Ayahuasca definitely needs an experienced trustworthy guide.
I’m currently maybe day 15 on wellbrutin and it’s helping my energy levels and functioning. Mood not great.
If I could access it, I would try nardil and/or parnate. Effective medications that are now nearly impossible to source while we remain tortured.
I’ve read somd people feel better on tricyclics like amitryptiline.So if you haven’t tried those, that would be part of trying everything.
ECT is much better these days. If I was offered it I would personally be a big yes.