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TimeToBiteTheDust
Visionary
- Nov 7, 2019
- 2,322
Almost 1 hour looking at the ceiling in the dark only thinking about ctb and nothing else. Thinking "I'm so done with life". Then I had images of my family crying because of my dead. I had to get up. I went to the kitchen to make a cup of tea and my mind told me that I was a coward who doesn't want to fight for living: "what kind of man are you". Now here trying to relax a bit. I don't know what to do I'm stuck. There's a part of me that wants to do the some things to improve but I don't have the energy anymore. There's an intense battle inside my head. I'm not in the pshysical conditions to go on with life. I'm more prone to ctb idea than to keep on living.