Doing it today.

[bravotess]

And I'm posting this because if I don't, I'll back out.

Plan is to check into the hotel around 11 (it's 9:30). I'll take the Tagamet and mix up 3 cups of SN. Then I'll lay in bed, put on some Nine Inch Nails, and 30 minutes after the Tagamet, I'll take the first drink. I've haven't eaten since last night and I don't have a weak stomach so I don't think I'll throw up. But I will have a trashcan and the other two drinks next to me in bed in case I do.

No meto. No benzos. Just some cbd gummies and cbd vape juice. I'm 100% confident it will work. There is no chance I'll be found early. I will measure carefully. I've fasted. Besides the meto, I'm doing everything by the book. At least I think I am. If I missing something let me know.

 

[mr.smileysad]

I hope you leave peacefully and painlessly don't feel pressured if you really wanted to ctb then you wouldn't need to post

 

[timetofly]

It's your choice but if you aren't 100% sure it's better to postpone, we'll always be here for you when you're ready, there's no need to rush.

I define "100% sure" as a general feeling of calmness and even peace or when you just can't take it anymore.

 

[rt1989526]

Wish you peace whatever you decide to do

 

[MrBlue]

Good luck, I hope you have a peaceful exit. As the others on here have said, I hope you don't feel pressured to ctb. If you want to talk/need support the community will be here no matter your decision

 

[Joey]

Dang I wish I would've talked to you more. You seemed cool.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I can confirm that you haven't forgotten anything. Except for the SNS, you don't need anything to be successful.
The additional medications are only to be taken for personal comfort and anxiety. Fear of failure. The .
But you don't have to have it.

You sound very determined and wrote here at very short notice. Unfortunately, we don't have much time left to say goodbye.

But we are guaranteed to be with you in our thoughts and support you in every decision, whatever it will look like.

 

[mem12]

Whatever you choose, peace be with you

 

[Wishfulthought]

All the best in whatever you decide X

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[miguel6565]

i wish you can find peace

 

[aligatorek]

Have a safe journey.

 

[bravotess]

thanks for all the well wishes.
I checked in to the hotel. I know some people are hesitant about a hotel because they wonder if they will be questioned. So let me just give you a quick overview of my experience. I came to a hotel five minutes from my house. When I walked in the door the guy asked me "what brings you to town" I said "I actually live down the street but I'm having baby daddy drama so I figured it would be good to spend the night alone". He said "oh I'm sorry to hear that" asked me if my "safety was in danger." I said no. LOL. He gave me my room key and wished me a good day. He's going to be in for quite the surprise tomorrow at checkout time.
The room is really nice. I think I'm going to spend a few minutes finalizing my letters then I'll start the process.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I first attempted suicide by drug overdose. After taking the pills I realised I didn't want to die, but by then it was too late.
Fortunately I survived, but you don't know how you really feel until it's too late.

 

[Cherrypea]

Wishing you peace

 

[Harleyyy]

No one should have that much pain to kill their own selves but here we all are. I am sorry this was your only option left. Here's wishing you peace and happiness dearie

 

[bravotess]

Taking the Tagamet now. SN at 12:30.
I've always thought that it was a little suspect that people would get their names crossed off if they said they were going to CTB and just didn't login for a while. Would it be acceptable to send my actual name and location to a MOD and they could check the obituaries in a few days?

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I am happy that you arrived at your last place without any stress.

ctb is your last act in this ugly world. With calm and serenity, with a clear mind, you will be able to make your final decision with conviction.

We'll see each other again soon, so I wish you a pleasant and short journey, may the bus not be delayed

Goodbye My friend

Taking the Tagamet now. SN at 12:30.
I've always thought that it was a little suspect that people would get their names crossed off if they said they were going to CTB and just didn't login for a while. Would it be acceptable to send my actual name and location to a MOD and they could check the obituaries in a few days?

You can send a PM to a mod yourself that it will block you if you do not post in the next 48 hours.

@Hasssssuùuu

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i hope you found peace.

 

[MKWRFKLV]

Farewell.

And congratulations!

 

[bravotess]

Ok. I drank the first drink. It's gross. Don't feel like throwing up. Peace out ya'll

 

[timetofly]

Don't feel like throwing up.

that's encouraging.

Good luck and peace!

 

[sadworld]

good bye friend i hope you find peace

 

[Deleted member 18655]

@bravotess, how are you doing? I hope you're in peace and not struggling.

 

[Ghost2211]

I hope you found peace

 

[mem12]

Peace

 

[rt1989526]

Hope she's out like a light at this point and it's over.

Off topic question: why do certain users have 'Last Seen' info and some don't?

 

[Cry]

I wish you luck, that you find peace in your decision

 

[pillowbrat]

i hope you find peace on your journey to the afterlife. blessed be <3

 

[AlreadyGone]

I hope you find peace