My beloved dog died 2 days ago. She was a 14 yr old collie, the lassie kind, she had stomach cancer and stopped eating, there was nothing I can do.
No one gets it. She wasn't just a dog like they all tell me. She was my best friend, my companion, my strength, she filled a massive void created through a lifetime of loss, rejection, abuse and sadness. She had a big job to do and she did it wonderfully well.
She brought me joy and always comforted me. She stopped me from getting angry and calmed me down. She should not have been my everything, but i had no choice, I have nothing else. I am lost without her.
Pain and sorrow im all too familiar with, but 'm too old to build another life now, no one would give me a second chance at my age, with my ugly looks, wrinlkly skin and flabby body. I couldnt even build a life for myself when i was younger, God knows i tried! I have nothing to give my abusive family and so called friends who just want, who take but never give. While she demanded nothing, just food and cuddles....lots of cuddles.
I can never afford another dog, I'm facing homelessness and financial hardships . To be honest i don't really want to die, I just want a life that resembles some kind of normality, a home, roof over my head, a garden to tend to and a puppy to nuture. I'd be content and grateful and try to give back as best i can. But is it too much to ask ?. For me it definitely is and always will be
My only hope now is that my SN is still effective past its use by date.
No one gets it. She wasn't just a dog like they all tell me. She was my best friend, my companion, my strength, she filled a massive void created through a lifetime of loss, rejection, abuse and sadness. She had a big job to do and she did it wonderfully well.
She brought me joy and always comforted me. She stopped me from getting angry and calmed me down. She should not have been my everything, but i had no choice, I have nothing else. I am lost without her.
Pain and sorrow im all too familiar with, but 'm too old to build another life now, no one would give me a second chance at my age, with my ugly looks, wrinlkly skin and flabby body. I couldnt even build a life for myself when i was younger, God knows i tried! I have nothing to give my abusive family and so called friends who just want, who take but never give. While she demanded nothing, just food and cuddles....lots of cuddles.
I can never afford another dog, I'm facing homelessness and financial hardships . To be honest i don't really want to die, I just want a life that resembles some kind of normality, a home, roof over my head, a garden to tend to and a puppy to nuture. I'd be content and grateful and try to give back as best i can. But is it too much to ask ?. For me it definitely is and always will be
My only hope now is that my SN is still effective past its use by date.
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humans can be so heartless. i've known dogs that have been more loving than some humans.
