doesn't it look beautiful my set up

[Terrible_Life_99]

Hey everyone I wanted to share a beautiful picture of my set up. I know that the knot for the noose is wrong, it's because the picture is older but all in all this is how my set up looks likes just with the difference that I'd use the poachers knot instead of hangman's.
I have suffered so much. My life was a tragic existence. I had no beautiful full filled moments in life because outside circumstances destroyed my life and made me suffer so much. I have every reason to free myself. There will be no angel etc that'll change my terrible current situation. I'm totally isolated and rotting. I have the possibility to end all of this and I will. Whenever I look at this picture it calms me down. The fact that I can end this hell.
I wished so much my life could've been different but no I was born in a terrible family and they damaged me for life. Why should I stay here contaminated with so many mental illnesses which makes it impossible for me to have a normal functioning life with work, friends and a relationship? Why should I suffer till the end because of stupid mistakes made by my family? I tried it all but I failed every time until I realized that the contamination they brought to me is way too advanced in me. I never had real friends or a relationship I was always struggling with all the handicaps my family gifted me with with their stupid education which made me a peace of shit than can't survive in this world. If I don't do it now, I'll probably never going to end this and I know 100% that my life will get much worse. I'll be in my 30s and still here living with parents and being dependent on them. I'd live a miserable and disgusting life if I don't do the full hanging. I have to neutralize this disgusting contaminated senseless existence. I don't have any reason for existence.

 

[Kalista]

leave well

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

leave well

I will

 

[tormentedhusk]

Best wishes, and may your soul find peace.

 

[Nothing Left]

Interesting contraption - looks like its inside the wall? Likely not, but just the perspective.

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly.

You and I have pretty much had similar experiences and I can relate to the feelings of being trapped/fucked for life mentally.

 

[Sergeant45]

Find peace, whichever way you will go in the end.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

Really sorry for what you've been through. I hope you find the peace you are seeking for

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

The part that hurts the most is the fact that I will never have lived, that I will never have known the good side of life. It's tragic because I was born healthy and I struggled with all of my disabilities, hoping to make it somehow, but all of the disabilities that my family inherited were always like a giant shadow. Imagine life is a boxing match and your opponent is this difficult world and he can attack you with both fists but you can only defend yourself with two fingers. How are you supposed to win a fight like that? Without my family and their fatally flawed upbringing, I would have had a fair chance too, then I would have hit back with both fists until I won, but unfortunately I was contaminated by a terrible upbringing that made me unfit for life. It's almost a miracle that I managed to endure this miserable, pointless and painful existence for almost 26 years.

Interesting contraption - looks like its inside the wall? Likely not, but just the perspective.

I'm sorry you're suffering so badly.

You and I have pretty much had similar experiences and I can relate to the feelings of being trapped/fucked for life mentally.

Its a very strong wood beam. the left side is walled in and the right side is firmly attached to another beam and is also supported

 

[Signal]

I sincerely wish that you find in death the peace that you couldn't find in life.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

I sincerely wish that you find in death the peace that you couldn't find in life.

I really hope so but I don't think there'll be any justice after we die. I can't prove it which gives me hope but I just can't believe that there is something after dead like in a science fiction movie etc.
But what we definitely know is that its impossible to bring back a corpse into this terrible place

 

[Signal]

I really hope so but I don't think there'll be any justice after we die. I can't prove it which gives me hope but I just can't believe that there is something after dead like in a science fiction movie etc.
But what we definitely know is that its impossible to bring back a corpse into this terrible place

Yeah, i don't really believe in heaven or hell either, but sometimes i find myself wishing that such a thing really existed, still, even if that doesn't exist i like to image death as being sleep forever, and that is a really comforting thought, at least for me

 

[Worndown]

Well, there is no way the rope will slip off the anchor!

 

[Wolf Girl]

I'm so sorry that you never got to experience the things you wanted in life. I also missed out on all of my adolescence and 20s. It hurts and there's no going back. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

I'm so sorry that you never got to experience the things you wanted in life. I also missed out on all of my adolescence and 20s. It hurts and there's no going back. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

Its just so tragic because just little things needed to be different and right now I'd have a existence worth living. Unfortunately there is no Time Machine if there would be I'd make sure to be adopted or if that wouldn't be possible I would have hanged myself way earlier. In that case I would have avoided so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it sounds like you've suffered so much, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[Forveleth]

What kind of knot is that? It looks like a hangman's knot which is not what you want for (I'm guessing) full suspension.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

It looks deadly and somehow inviting, you could use it as it is, the hangmans knot will work as good as any other knot. Too sad that you can only see beauty in this deadly instrument. If you dicover unexpected beauty in the preparation of your death, think how much undicovered beauty you will probably miss. Im am not pro-life but much older than you.

 

[Lemuell]

Hey everyone I wanted to share a beautiful picture of my set up. I know that the knot for the noose is wrong, it's because the picture is older but all in all this is how my set up looks likes just with the difference that I'd use the poachers knot instead of hangman's.
I have suffered so much. My life was a tragic existence. I had no beautiful full filled moments in life because outside circumstances destroyed my life and made me suffer so much. I have every reason to free myself. There will be no angel etc that'll change my terrible current situation. I'm totally isolated and rotting. I have the possibility to end all of this and I will. Whenever I look at this picture it calms me down. The fact that I can end this hell.
I wished so much my life could've been different but no I was born in a terrible family and they damaged me for life. Why should I stay here contaminated with so many mental illnesses which makes it impossible for me to have a normal functioning life with work, friends and a relationship? Why should I suffer till the end because of stupid mistakes made by my family? I tried it all but I failed every time until I realized that the contamination they brought to me is way too advanced in me. I never had real friends or a relationship I was always struggling with all the handicaps my family gifted me with with their stupid education which made me a peace of shit than can't survive in this world. If I don't do it now, I'll probably never going to end this and I know 100% that my life will get much worse. I'll be in my 30s and still here living with parents and being dependent on them. I'd live a miserable and disgusting life if I don't do the full hanging. I have to neutralize this disgusting contaminated senseless existence. I don't have any reason for existence.View attachment 173146

looks very beautiful

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

No matter what I can't help but see the pain with this but that just makes me know the tormented agony you must be in constantly only reflects to your ctb method,,,there's always someone dying in any givin moment,, but I don't think most people realize how many of those lives are taken by one's self,,it's not worth much but may this be exactly what you need and what for yourself,,and may you find peace beyond this fuckin cruel world,, is say I'm sending warmth your way but, I won't lie and say things that I can't physically do, remember your decision never has to be final,, I support you with whatever you do,, may peace find you in death or in life,, either way, I hope you get your peace.

 

[Terrible_Life_99]

It looks deadly and somehow inviting, you could use it as it is, the hangmans knot will work as good as any other knot. Too sad that you can only see beauty in this deadly instrument. If you dicover unexpected beauty in the preparation of your death, think how much undicovered beauty you will probably miss. Im am not pro-life but much older than you.

Hey Gustav, I tried it many times to find beauty in life but as I mentioned before my huge handicaps I have because of my family were always omnipresent. I failed every time. It was always this circle: i somehow motivate myself, I try, after a short time I miserably fail and because this happened again and again in my life + all the mental illnesses, I gave up the last I tried in 2023. I said to myself: no this can't be. I don't want this circle to continue, I don't want to always fail and stay there totally empty and then I reflected my whole life and realized that I have to end this senseless existence because it has nothing and it will never have anything.