Help Does your SI numb down the more the attempts?

[Claymore7274]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

 

[bitterToad]

This is gonna sound weird, but I'm hoping that with practice I can numb myself enough to go the way auto-erotic people go accidentally - there must be some amount of adapting to it, if it is possible to lose track of it and go accidentally.

 

[Exhausted546]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

People still fail after passing out?! I had the same issue as you today. My heart started pumping so hard I thought it'd burst out of my chest essentially, my heart and head hurt for 7ish hours after

 

[Terrible_Life]

I really could not wait for tomorrow night to kill myself, so i attempted tonight, i got to the closest i've ever been to passing out with partial, my setup is as perfect as it can get. So i have never ever passed out in my life, and the feeling of it scares me so much i spring up, it doesn't give the explodey head feeling anymore, though i just can't go beyond the tingleness and trembling of my limbs.

Would i ever get used to it? I've read some posts about them failing the attempt after passing out so that's gonna be fun.

Should i cut the crap and fully suspend myself?

I'd recommend to do full hanging if its possible because thats a much safer method.
I also wanna die by hanging but full hanging and whenever I build my set up or I practiced by strangulating myself and then I got nearly unconscious I felt lots of anxiety about this whole hanging process do you also get this huge anxiety whenever you practice or just think about your suicide?
How do you feel about those few seconds while you're conscious and will feel the pain on the neck? I think that + the unknown after we die and maybe the fact I'll leave my little brother are the biggest factors why I am so afraid of it but I have to ctb i have no other option it just must happen otherwise all will get much worse