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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
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Saying it as a mantra helps me stress less about ctb. This life never mattered. It was always just a dream
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,441
Personally no- I don't see life as an illusion or dream. I'm not really sold on that particular conspiracy. However- I do think we're tiny flecks of dust. Our lives for most of us are pretty inconsequencial. That's not to say we don't have rights that need to be protected/ respected. But, even people who make a huge impact on this world- for better or worse can be struck down suddenly before their prime. It's the nature of being mortal- we're transient. So- personally speaking- beyond a tiny circle of people who knew me, the fabric of the universe will remain the same- whether I'm part of it or not.

It's easier for me though- I've had those thoughts from childhood. Lots of family deaths early on made me aware of just how vulnerable and expendable we are. I get the impression you're struggling a lot more with- I don't know- notions of intrinsic worth or missed potential if you leave now?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I view existence as being a nightmare which ends in death, the existence of life was such a cruel, horrific mistake and it's truly something so dreadful having the ability to exist here so of course the only relief lies in death. I do find it comforting how this meaningless existence is impermanent and will eventually be forgotten about, I very strongly believe that we just cease existing after this, the existence of life was a tragedy disturbing the ideal state of non-existence that we are destined to return to.
 
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Ambivalent1

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Apr 17, 2023
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Personally no- I don't see life as an illusion or dream. I'm not really sold on that particular conspiracy. However- I do think we're tiny flecks of dust. Our lives for most of us are pretty inconsequencial. That's not to say we don't have rights that need to be protected/ respected. But, even people who make a huge impact on this world- for better or worse can be struck down suddenly before their prime. It's the nature of being mortal- we're transient. So- personally speaking- beyond a tiny circle of people who knew me, the fabric of the universe will remain the same- whether I'm part of it or not.

It's easier for me though- I've had those thoughts from childhood. Lots of family deaths early on made me aware of just how vulnerable and expendable we are. I get the impression you're struggling a lot more with- I don't know- notions of intrinsic worth or missed potential if you leave now?
Our lives are the equivalent of a dream. I wasn't being literal
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,209
I never intended to dream my life or to experience my life as a dream. I wanted to LIVE my dream and that obviously failed. From this point of view seeing life as a dream doesn't help me at all.
 
woh6

woh6

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May 13, 2023
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I agree that life doesn't matter, we don't matter, and we will all be forgotten eventually. However, I don't view life as just a dream. It insinuates that you'd wake up to another (horrible) life again. I want it to end when it ends.
 
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Ambivalent1

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Apr 17, 2023
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I agree that life doesn't matter, we don't matter, and we will all be forgotten eventually. However, I don't view life as just a dream. It insinuates that you'd wake up to another (horrible) life again. I want it to end when it ends.
I want another life. I couldve had a good one if things were just a little different
 
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MeltingBrain

MeltingBrain

Wizard
May 29, 2023
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Saying it as a mantra helps me stress less about ctb. This life never mattered. It was always just a dream
Interesting framework but life is not a dream, it's all real so viewing it as such is denying the obvious and hence cannot be viewed as such .
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

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Apr 17, 2023
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Interesting framework but life is not a dream, it's all real so viewing it as such is denying the obvious and hence cannot be viewed as such .
Well, I "suffer" from derealization. it's always felt very much like a dream to me, which is probably why I've been able to endure so much. Feel free to view life as "all so real." You're just hurting yourself. Ctb is harder for people with your framework.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
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I view life not exactly as a dream but rather as a simulation. Life can be likened to a video game, we're all playing a game of survival and competition. We were all brought into this game of life against our will...
 
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