Dimension369963
Member
- May 27, 2020
- 17
I know that sounds rude, I'm not judging anyone else or saying that their not in a ton of pain right now but this is the first time I found a site like this and I have had many severe attempts and should not be here statistically speaking, I beat powerball odds x 3.
I am on here every day, anyone who is serious would be too, trying to talk to the people they are considering the the +1. Instead people you talk with privately disappear for days. I'm not knew enough to see if this is the norm but I want to talk to the person every day, I want to be here every day looking for the best possible match, to know the person I am sharing the most personal details of my existence in this form with in the last moments of my life, my spirituality will condemn me to a lower life form if I leave this world in fear, sadness, or anger. I know this now for a fact. I have to leave at peace and since falling is all I can do now because it's the only thing I know won't fail from 4,000 ft high above solid granite stone, I know if I find the right match we can hug during the decent. It will be 28-34 seconds long, during this time I must meditate pure love to the person I'm holding, ending one's life is not forbidden in Buddhism but the negative energy it brings with it is enormous and sets you back many lifetimes. Dying knowing that I love the person, in meditation of that love for this person substantially takes away much of that negative energy.
I have spent much of my life building good karma helping others, not because I had to but because I wanted to, it was who I was, I came to accept Buddhism as the most fair spiritual tradition in mankind over 13 years ago.
So those of you who know this site and the people who come and go, do most people back out even after you have taken the time to work hard to find the person who matches you so you can bring eachother joy and peace toward the end? And are most people in the section designed for this really their to go through with it or are there enough truly sick people on here that get off on using suicide for attention and using truly suicidal members who are in far more pain than any normal person could thankfully ever comprehend, as partners whom they then back out of after they do what most of us would do?
Give ourselves and our chosen partner and partner who also chose us a few days together before the great unknown, perhaps fulfill 1 or 2 things on our bucket lists and bring joy to ourselves and each other even if they cost what we've saved precisely for this?
I'm terrified of running into a match that turns out to have no intention to go through this and uses the final days as a vacation taking advantage of the person who has 100% genuine intentions and feelings and has spend so much energy to cross that line once again and mentally prepare, only to get that match. I'd lose my mind, completely break down, probably be unable to move from the spot I found out I was betrayed and end up dehydrating betrayed again and I would still end up doing it except I'd go out in pain and agony, I'd be a bug 10 lifetimes before I was human again and got the chance to advance to the higher dimensions 4,5,6, all the way to 12 where we reach eternal peace.
So I don't understand why people don't respond as often as possible to people they are considering as their partner, are they not afraid of who they might meet? Do they not want to know because they have no intention of doing anything but getting a rush off your pain?
How many people believe what % of the people in the mega thread are genuinely trying to find a partner to enter the great unknown and what % are evil manipulative disturbed people getting enjoyment out of watching the suffering of others and increasing that suffering knowing they have control over a match and if they don't have any intention of going through with it, they are causing some of the most immense pain to their matches who are 100% going through with it and needed their partner, trusted them, that both would be their for each other. It would be an ultimate betrayal of which 3 were enough to make me lose total faith in mankind.
Thank you to whoever reads through this and answers honestly.
I am on here every day, anyone who is serious would be too, trying to talk to the people they are considering the the +1. Instead people you talk with privately disappear for days. I'm not knew enough to see if this is the norm but I want to talk to the person every day, I want to be here every day looking for the best possible match, to know the person I am sharing the most personal details of my existence in this form with in the last moments of my life, my spirituality will condemn me to a lower life form if I leave this world in fear, sadness, or anger. I know this now for a fact. I have to leave at peace and since falling is all I can do now because it's the only thing I know won't fail from 4,000 ft high above solid granite stone, I know if I find the right match we can hug during the decent. It will be 28-34 seconds long, during this time I must meditate pure love to the person I'm holding, ending one's life is not forbidden in Buddhism but the negative energy it brings with it is enormous and sets you back many lifetimes. Dying knowing that I love the person, in meditation of that love for this person substantially takes away much of that negative energy.
I have spent much of my life building good karma helping others, not because I had to but because I wanted to, it was who I was, I came to accept Buddhism as the most fair spiritual tradition in mankind over 13 years ago.
So those of you who know this site and the people who come and go, do most people back out even after you have taken the time to work hard to find the person who matches you so you can bring eachother joy and peace toward the end? And are most people in the section designed for this really their to go through with it or are there enough truly sick people on here that get off on using suicide for attention and using truly suicidal members who are in far more pain than any normal person could thankfully ever comprehend, as partners whom they then back out of after they do what most of us would do?
Give ourselves and our chosen partner and partner who also chose us a few days together before the great unknown, perhaps fulfill 1 or 2 things on our bucket lists and bring joy to ourselves and each other even if they cost what we've saved precisely for this?
I'm terrified of running into a match that turns out to have no intention to go through this and uses the final days as a vacation taking advantage of the person who has 100% genuine intentions and feelings and has spend so much energy to cross that line once again and mentally prepare, only to get that match. I'd lose my mind, completely break down, probably be unable to move from the spot I found out I was betrayed and end up dehydrating betrayed again and I would still end up doing it except I'd go out in pain and agony, I'd be a bug 10 lifetimes before I was human again and got the chance to advance to the higher dimensions 4,5,6, all the way to 12 where we reach eternal peace.
So I don't understand why people don't respond as often as possible to people they are considering as their partner, are they not afraid of who they might meet? Do they not want to know because they have no intention of doing anything but getting a rush off your pain?
How many people believe what % of the people in the mega thread are genuinely trying to find a partner to enter the great unknown and what % are evil manipulative disturbed people getting enjoyment out of watching the suffering of others and increasing that suffering knowing they have control over a match and if they don't have any intention of going through with it, they are causing some of the most immense pain to their matches who are 100% going through with it and needed their partner, trusted them, that both would be their for each other. It would be an ultimate betrayal of which 3 were enough to make me lose total faith in mankind.
Thank you to whoever reads through this and answers honestly.