Does this make sense to anyone..

[WhathaveIdone]

This is isn't easy to explain and only seems to make sense in my own head but here goes. Afew months back I was working night shifts and unable to sleep in the day. I sleep in an attic room and have never had anything covering the window. I then covered the window and slept fine all day which instantly triggered in my head self blame for never sleeping in the day after sleepless nights and bad life decisions due to no sleep etc I could go deeper but would cause confusion if not already. Sorry if this makes no sense

 

[Thereisnothing]

So what you are saying is, you couldn't sleep until covered the window.........now you feel bad for not doing it sooner cos its effected decisions you've made?
It makes sense..............try not beat yourself up over it though, not your fault you didn't think to cover window before............life is all about learning and seeking..............what is troubling you.............the fact you wasted so much time not sleeping and the bad decisions it led to? Again alot of things which occur are beyond our control and to worry about them is futile............its hard to see, but hope I am making sense now

 

[pole]

i definitely suggest using a sleep mask to sleep. i have windows on the roof of my room, so light shines in all day, especially in the early morning and absolutely ruins my sleep. a sleeping mask has helped me a ton.

i understand how much sleep affects you're day. a bad sleep literally ruins you're entire day and influences so much things that go on in you're life. but it isn't late either. perhaps take onus upon yourself and now use this new way of sleeping whether it's in the attic with no light source or with a sleeping mask as a way of potentially bettering yourself from here on out. hope everything works out.

take care.

 

[WhathaveIdone]

Yeah basically I'd of slept in the day after nights out drinking etc .. if it was a short period of time id be able to deal with it. But I've stayed in the room almost 8 years. Ive tried to get it out of my head but I can't it's my first and last thought every day. I've been to the doctors about it and they've said it's depression but I don't believe it is. It's my own fuck up which I don't feel I can live with. I've tried getting therapy but the waiting list is long I can't afford private as its cost me my job. Yeah the bad decisions and going over a day without sleep at the time thinking it was normal because I'd been out drinking but now realising it's because I was getting into a day lit room. I just forgive myself or think of anything else. I find myself looking up to windows as I walk down the street and see no uncovered windows. I know it sounds mad but it's like no one else has gone through it. Thanks for replying and you made perfect sense

 

[calendulo]

I do not know, I have understood something like covering the attic room window and sleeping in a peaceful darkness you have got an improve about your quality of life and you see into the future on an optimistic way.
Then everybody takes a bad decision any day.

I guess it, I could be wrong, but in all cases I am glad for your "sense".

If it is better, it is good. Do not mind any sense.