This post's probably won't make any sense but I feel like I have to get it off my chest or I'll explode. I think I'm in hell. And sometimes I think I'm crazy but everyone around me is so miserable I think that they're in hell too. Funny part is I'm not even religious. Like I think it's possible but I believe in science. Funny, right? There's no way life is this bad naturally. I just want to be free.
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Krokodile
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- Nov 18, 2023
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I've sometimes had the same thought. Probably did something bad in my real life to end up with this one. Other times I feel like I missed the moment I was supposed to die on, and have been some weird undead zombie since. Strange thoughts while drunk.
Hey this post was from a year ago even though it feels like weeks. I still feel like I'm in hell or purgatory, but I hope one day we both find heaven or at least earth, I hope you the best - my drunk thoughts <3
I can absolutely understand why you would feel this. It's horrible how so many people suffer.
I suppose we have this hope that life on earth should be fair and nice. Maybe because of things like: religion, law and social etiquette. This idea that- so long as we follow the rules, we ought to be treated fairly and rewarded. What if they're just human concepts made up to keep us in line though?
Is nature itself conscious? Is gravity conscious? Gravity can be good or bad depending on whether you want fruit to fall to the ground when you shake the tree or, if you're falling off a ladder. Gravity doesn't likely give a shit though- whether it helped you collect the fruit or, broke your collarbone. It just kind of 'is'. It's just how this world works. Similarly, animals have evolved to predate and exploit other animals and plants. It's not exactly malicious. They've just evolved to survive best when they do that.
I actually feel we can only properly term things 'good' or 'bad' if there was intention to make them that way. Which I feel ultimately would have to have come from God. Hence why I really hope there isn't one! Because I do agree with you- for some, this is hell on earth- sadly.
I suppose we have this hope that life on earth should be fair and nice. Maybe because of things like: religion, law and social etiquette. This idea that- so long as we follow the rules, we ought to be treated fairly and rewarded. What if they're just human concepts made up to keep us in line though?
Is nature itself conscious? Is gravity conscious? Gravity can be good or bad depending on whether you want fruit to fall to the ground when you shake the tree or, if you're falling off a ladder. Gravity doesn't likely give a shit though- whether it helped you collect the fruit or, broke your collarbone. It just kind of 'is'. It's just how this world works. Similarly, animals have evolved to predate and exploit other animals and plants. It's not exactly malicious. They've just evolved to survive best when they do that.
I actually feel we can only properly term things 'good' or 'bad' if there was intention to make them that way. Which I feel ultimately would have to have come from God. Hence why I really hope there isn't one! Because I do agree with you- for some, this is hell on earth- sadly.
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