Sleep hasn't helped in a long time. We don't sleep well and haven't for a very long time thanks to constant physical pain, so our sleep is really messed up. For us, going to sleep is dreaded every night. Every time we dream, it is a nightmare completely centered around one of the many things that have broken us. We are even suicidal in our dreams. Just recently, we almost impulsively CTB right after waking up from one such nightmare. No conscious decision behind it, and certainly would have been a method we do not wish to use for many reasons. We just woke up, and only came to when we realized what we were about to do. Nothing about our environment processed correctly, and even though we were up, we were mentally stuck in the nightmare. Somehow, our dreams are even worse than our reality and we often cannot tell them apart until being up for a while, sometimes not even then like today.