Does NO one else not see the beauty in the world anymore?

[Journeytoletgo]

My lens is really destroyed after so many traumatic events I can't see the beauty here any longer

 

[Chiisai]

My lens is really destroyed after so many traumatic events I can't see the beauty here any longer

Im trying to see the beauty mate. Trying real hard and to me, there's still beauty like advancement of technology however, I cannot fathom how it can compensate the negatives such as the downward spiral of our society.

 

[Callie Arcale]

I know there's a world full of wonders out there but after having spent the past year bedbound, in almost complete silence and semi-darkness, I don't think about it anymore. When I try to think about it, it feels like a strange dream.

The four walls of my bedroom are closing in on me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I can still see there's plenty of beauty in the world, most of it is just completely inaccessible to me though and what little I can find joy in is also just contributing to my NEEThood.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I do see beauty, but it seems so tiny compared to the ugliness. It's definitely there, and it's lovely, but...the bad stuff just seems to overwhelm it and it's not really close.

 

[sad_gurl_thoughts]

I see beauty in the world, but I feel so far away from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not see any beauty in this world, only pain and misery. Nothing brings me any comfort and there is nothing that I enjoy. It is all so sad. I am incapable of enjoying life. I simply do not want to exist in a world where so much suffering exists. I just want non existence.

 

[Buddha.e.c]

Its almost like seeing black and grey with no color in sight. No happiness :(

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Its almost like seeing black and grey with no color in sight. No happiness :(

Yes it's HORRIBLE I am sorry you're in pain I wish you peace though no matter your choice . I have to get out of here I damaged myself and somethings are out of my control so that's that

 

[Somber]

There are plenty of beautiful things in this world. Just too bad we are destroying most of them. ️

But so far there is enough beauty left for some to lead happy lives. Just not for me.

 

[forgotten15]

I can't seem to see any beauty in this world anymore. Humans have destroyed everything. I am in pain thinking about all the horrible things that take place and how people have damaged this planet. It's heartbreaking.

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

I can see it but the reason to CTB is because beauty fades

However that's my narrow perspective because I feel like I've had a balanced life with at least some good in it. The reason I want to CTB is because the passage of time will surely turn this place into a f'in mess

 

[someonelse]

I still see beauty in art, music, design, culture, technology, nature. I hope that always exists. The problem is it's not enough to keep me alive anymore. I of course also see ugliness in the world. Lately the ugliness and cruelty of the world are outweighing everything else. It's a sad feeling. It's maybe an individual thing. I envy those who mostly see beauty.

 

[demuic]

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. There is no inherent beauty to anything.

 

[Lostkitten1]

Hindsight might be 20:20, but it wears rose tinted glasses.

Translation: there probably wasn't as much beauty as you think you remember.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I still see beauty in the world, but I'm in too much pain to enjoy it.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I know there's a world full of wonders out there but after having spent the past year bedbound, in almost complete silence and semi-darkness, I don't think about it anymore. When I try to think about it, it feels like a strange dream.

The four walls of my bedroom are closing in on me.

I really REALLY relate to this. I'm so sorry your life has become that way...it's awful. Love to you.

I recognize intellectually there is still beauty in this world, and VERY rarely I will get a fleeting glimpse of it or a 'feeling'/remembrance of the beauty I used to be able to see and appreciate, but like others in this thread are in similar circumstances as I and have already stated: the years and years of chronic pain and illness, and my aging and deteriorating body, the decades of isolation and inability to go places and do things and be the person I wanted to be, plus the worsening of society in general and the situation of the world...all of that has drained all color from everything. The world is an ugly, dirty, horrifying place for me now. And those glimpses of beauty I might catch every once in a great and rare while - all they do is leave me feeling more depressed, more detached, more angry at how my life turned out, and feeling very empty. Seeing any hint of beauty now feels like either a cruel tease by the universe, or only a mirage.

 

[Foresight]

Hindsight might be 20:20, but it wears rose tinted glasses.

Translation: there probably wasn't as much beauty as you think you remember.

 

[Pluto]

As young children we tend to not only superficially see beauty, but feel it in ways too rich in magic and wonderment to ever verbalise. This natural joy tends to get beaten out of us as we pass through the slaughterhouse of school to be broken down and then reformed into servants of the political/financial/cultural system. Add a dose of depression and somehow the same physical objects (the moon, birds, sunsets...) possess only the smallest fraction of their original beauty, viewed through the subjective lens of a shattered mind.

 

[whatevs]

As young children we tend to not only superficially see beauty, but feel it in ways too rich in magic and wonderment to ever verbalise. This natural joy tends to get beaten out of us as we pass through the slaughterhouse of school to be broken down and then reformed into servants of the political/financial/cultural system. Add a dose of depression and somehow the same physical objects (the moon, birds, sunsets...) possess only the smallest fraction of their original beauty, viewed through the subjective lens of a shattered mind.

A shattered mind? Kids haven't seen corpses, wounds, sex. Adults diligently shield them from these realities as long as they can. They don't understand death. The slightest inconvenience can make children cry, because they aren't aware of how ubiquitous suffering is and is felt as a shock.

Are these the clairvoyant witnesses of the beauty in the world? Is the mind of an adult polluted and inferior at comprehending reality? I'd wagger that children are joyful BECAUSE they are ignorant. The longer you stay alive the more opportunities arise for seeing that all that childhood wonderment was a byproduct of being a newcomer with very limited cognition and perfect/blossoming health. The beauty in the world is clearly overshadowed by the price of being alive.

 

[Pluto]

childhood wonderment was a byproduct of being a newcomer with very limited cognition

It is a stretch to argue with any authority that a deeply-felt appreciation of beauty is a mistake caused by youthful ignorance.

The dark aspects of life do exist, and children who are exposed to them prematurely can be traumatised and scarred for life. And yet the children who have positive childhoods would be unlikely to be on this website to offer a contrarian viewpoint, thus leaving us with a selection bias. I can only speculate that if a child were cared for to a very high standard, they would later be capable of functioning in the adult world whilst retaining a healthy 'inner child'.

 

[S like Siren]

I can see the beauty and i know what are all the beautiful things that make life a gift worth living...it's just i was born in unlucky conditions and without any hope to change my position or do something about it.All this beauty has been foreclosed on me and it hurts a lot to know I'm the unfortunate one but I have accepted it now ... I have accepted my pain and my death

 

[whatevs]

It is a stretch to argue with any authority that a deeply-felt appreciation of beauty is a mistake caused by youthful ignorance.

Why though? I'm offering a logical explanation as why children "deeply-feel" that appreciation. They lack an integral or complete picture of reality (compared with adults, which certainly only scratch the surface of reality).

They have better health than anybody, and that accounts for part of their joy, and that's great, I would like to have health myself. But then, you are being dishonest if you don't admit that they both can't (intellectually) see the whole picture and we also try to construct an initiatory world for them in which they are only exposed to tragedy incrementally.

 

[Darkover]

what beauty if your talking about human being there all disgusting creatures, i see no beauty just a load of trees and greenary this isn't beauty at all its a dark cold wet dead world.

 

[Pluto]

Why though?

There are definitely situations where this applies. I had happy moments as a child because, in part, I was buying into the idea that my family loved me and assuming that I had much to look forward to (And yes, taking for granted relatively good health). There was a dramatic correction later in life that caused a plunge into a blackness wherein even normal pleasure is inaccessible. Presumably both extremes reflect a distorted viewpoint, just for different reasons. As for reality, it is as it is.

Having had involvement in the arts, there are plenty of people there for whom appreciation of beauty - including music, for example - is the only thing keeping them functional. So nuggets of it can survive the transition to adulthood.

 

[downndone2]

Severe depression, anxiety, agorophobia has kept me away from the world. I havent seen a sunset in months and months. I see no beauty in anything anymore

 

[avoid_slow_death]

There's plenty of amazing experiences out there. Unfortunately for myself, I take little pleasure in any of it anymore. Not because there isn't any, as mentioned in my first sentence, but because I just am too deep in despair and loss to appreciate anything g anymore. But I refuse to try and influence anyone else to see it that way. That is cruel and unfair.

 

[mandyjohnuk]

I'm sure there is but when it's your time and you know it then there's no going back.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Severe depression, anxiety, agorophobia has kept me away from the world. I havent seen a sunset in months and months. I see no beauty in anything anymore

I have all those conditions myself. They all drain joy and the ability to see beauty in the world, but man that agoraphobia really takes it up 10 notches, imo. I remember at the worst of my agoraphobia about 7 or years ago not leaving my apartment in sometimes 6 mos at a stretch (unless having to go to the ER) and missing things like sunsets, the breeze on my neck in the summer, wading in the lake, walking outside in the grass in the evening...or going to the movies or a restaurant. Just simple pleasures. When you are separated from those things, plus the depression and anxiety remove so much more ability to enjoy ANYTHING, it is such a hellish life. I'll never understand why some are allowed such privilege (i.e health, mental and physical) while others are denied the ability to enjoy the basic human pleasures and must suffer alone, isolated, not feeling human anymore or like they belong in this world. I am so sorry you're going through what you are and I hope for you that somehow, someday soon, you'll get to see a sunset again. Sending you a hug and all my support, friend.

 

[downndone2]

I have all those conditions myself. They all drain joy and the ability to see beauty in the world, but man that agoraphobia really takes it up 10 notches, imo. I remember at the worst of my agoraphobia about 7 or years ago not leaving my apartment in sometimes 6 mos at a stretch (unless having to go to the ER) and missing things like sunsets, the breeze on my neck in the summer, wading in the lake, walking outside in the grass in the evening...or going to the movies or a restaurant. Just simple pleasures. When you are separated from those things, plus the depression and anxiety remove so much more ability to enjoy ANYTHING, it is such a hellish life. I'll never understand why some are allowed such privilege (i.e health, mental and physical) while others are denied the ability to enjoy the basic human pleasures and must suffer alone, isolated, not feeling human anymore or like they belong in this world. I am so sorry you're going through what you are and I hope for you that somehow, someday soon, you'll get to see a sunset again. Sending you a hug and all my support, friend.

Thanks, I've suffered with this since late 2019 when I literally ruined my life. Getting out to fo anything is rare. I feel I've put myself in my own prison. I arely even go out in my own backyard anymore. I hate who I've become. Just the thought if going out for anything causes anxiety. Everything is a fucking trigger. If it weren't for having a roommate I wouldnt get any fact to face human interaction. I have held on for my frien kids and dogs. Thanks god I can get almost anything I need delivered.