Does It get harder to CTB as you get older?

[Doll Steak]

Sometimes Ill see people wishing they'd CTB at a younger age but then that makes me wonder, what's so different now? What is preventing you that hadn't in the past when you were younger? unless maybe your physically unable to somehow due to a disability. I don't know.

 

[Fall_Apart]

No, it's the opposite. It's easier as you get older. When you're young, you try to convince yourself there's still a chance, but as you get older, you realize life isn't worth living anymore because you have more suffering to face than happiness. This is logical suicide.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

It's usually not so much a logistical challenge as wishing that they hadn't suffered through all those extra years. Nothing they had experienced had been worth it, so if they had killed themselves at a younger age, they would've spared themselves a lot of pain.

 

[LastDayOnEarth]

Im only 24 and I wish I had killed myself 10 years ago

 

[Doll Steak]

It's usually not so much a logistical challenge as wishing that they hadn't suffered through all those extra years. Nothing they had experienced had been worth it, so if they had killed themselves at a younger age, they would've spared themselves a lot of pain.

yup, that's also what I was thinking.

 

[kopebaldy]

Life already sucks, I don't want to live until 50 just to find out it's really not worth it.

Heck, I'm 30 and the last 3 decades already not worth it, damn me if I have to do this shit for another 3 decades.

 

[Apathy79]

I think as you get older, you become wiser with experience. As a teenager or even young adult, it's hard to be certain things won't change for the better, especially when most people seem to be doing fine. Over time, you can really try out the various potential solutions and give them a genuine crack. If they continue to not work, at some point you start feeling assured that recovery isn't realistic. Then you feel like I should have just done it back then and saved myself the trouble. Which might be true as it turned out, but is only really knowable with hindsight. On this site you don't hear the stories of people who recovered as much so it can seem like that's the normal outcome when in reality for the majority it plays out differently (90% of people who survive their first suicide attempt don't ultimately die by suicide). So there's a good reason to stick it out early on for most people, although for some it does just mean prolonging the pain to increase the certainty that the initial hunch was correct (edited to add: a very disproportionate subset of which end up on this site).

 

[AreWeWinning]

Sometimes Ill see people wishing they'd CTB at a younger age but then that makes me wonder, what's so different now? What is preventing you that hadn't in the past when you were younger? unless maybe your physically unable to somehow due to a disability. I don't know.

I don't wish I had CTB'ed when I was younger. I'm in my 40s... When I was younger, I still had hope and motivation. Of course, now I know it wasn't worth it, but I didn't know it at the time. When I decided to keep going (or I shall say felt like I should), I made that decision based on the information I had.

And the answer to your question is that nothing's preventing me now that hadn't in the past. In fact, it's the opposite: nothing's preventing me now that did in the past. No hope left, and now I'm quite certain that I have experienced all that life has to offer. There's nothing left worth staying for. So, it's easier as you get older, and I believe I will do it. It's also statistically shown that the ratio of successful attempts increases with age.

When you're older, you're wiser, and you see things for what they are. You realise there's no magic and no fairy tales.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

If we would not age and would live forever unless we kill ourselves, suicide would change a lot. But we age and the older we are the less lifetime we miss when we kill ourselves. So suicide should be easier when you are old.