fatalucia
Member
- Jul 9, 2023
- 24
i hate it. my parents always made me conscious of how we were low income growing up, so i was always aware of saving money and never asked for any. now i'm an adult, and instead of worrying about theoretical money, i'm working to get actual money and it feels like mere coins and change after all the bills roll out. i know it's just a part of growing up, but everyday i wonder if i could go on a spending spree or put all that money on a deposit then i'd just ctb. nobody needs me more than i need them. the stress from worrying makes me so dead inside. my life means nothing in a cruel world where financial insecurity is one of the most common burdens on people's minds before they kill themselves. i feel like such a speck of nothing.