fatalucia

fatalucia

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Jul 9, 2023
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i hate it. my parents always made me conscious of how we were low income growing up, so i was always aware of saving money and never asked for any. now i'm an adult, and instead of worrying about theoretical money, i'm working to get actual money and it feels like mere coins and change after all the bills roll out. i know it's just a part of growing up, but everyday i wonder if i could go on a spending spree or put all that money on a deposit then i'd just ctb. nobody needs me more than i need them. the stress from worrying makes me so dead inside. my life means nothing in a cruel world where financial insecurity is one of the most common burdens on people's minds before they kill themselves. i feel like such a speck of nothing.
 
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TimetoGo!

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i hate it. my parents always made me conscious of how we were low income growing up, so i was always aware of saving money and never asked for any. now i'm an adult, and instead of worrying about theoretical money, i'm working to get actual money and it feels like mere coins and change after all the bills roll out. i know it's just a part of growing up, but everyday i wonder if i could go on a spending spree or put all that money on a deposit then i'd just ctb. nobody needs me more than i need them. the stress from worrying makes me so dead inside. my life means nothing in a cruel world where financial insecurity is one of the most common burdens on people's minds before they kill themselves. i feel like such a speck of nothing.
fully agree and finance is the main reason behind all my recent troubles.........I want to die because of it
 
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fatalucia

fatalucia

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fully agree and finance is the main reason behind all my recent troubles.........I want to die because of it
sorry friend. trying and wishing for a raise or more money is also hard. because it can go away in a blink again. money shouldn't be a resource to live or feel happy, us humans deserve much better than this.
 
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manta

manta

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Mar 26, 2023
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I'm around 25k in student loan debt with no degree. This debt will follow me around until its paid off or I die and its definitely one of the reasons I have planned to CTB in the past
 
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May 29, 2023
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i hate it. my parents always made me conscious of how we were low income growing up, so i was always aware of saving money and never asked for any. now i'm an adult, and instead of worrying about theoretical money, i'm working to get actual money and it feels like mere coins and change after all the bills roll out. i know it's just a part of growing up, but everyday i wonder if i could go on a spending spree or put all that money on a deposit then i'd just ctb. nobody needs me more than i need them. the stress from worrying makes me so dead inside. my life means nothing in a cruel world where financial insecurity is one of the most common burdens on people's minds before they kill themselves. i feel like such a speck of nothing.
Yes
 
Livingvsdying25

Livingvsdying25

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Dec 8, 2019
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Yes it's a huge aspect. Having money is the difference between being alone when bed ridden and having access to support & food when I can't walk. This world is sick.
 
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nomennescio

nomennescio

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Jun 25, 2023
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Of course it contributes and i believe its a trigger for a lot of a people. Money issues give people huge amount of stress, which affects pretty much every aspect of ones life.
From my own perspective i can say i had both sides. And always thought that if my debt was gone and i was financially stable things would change. Unfortunately it hasnt changed my mental state very much.

If your depression/suffering is really coming from this idk it might give enough rest to work on other stuff. Take the stress off. Debt really is a heay load to carry and money problems definitely contribute to people not wanting this life anymore.
Myself, I have grown up in poverty, some weeks we wouldnt even have food. When i turned 18 i already had major debts thanks to my "parents". The stress that this caused made me desperate.
Then in my late twenties, i drive my dream car,have no debt and have a relatively okay amount of savings in the bank. Ive never felt any worse. Which makes me feel terrible about myself as this was all ive ever wished for. And I know how people would give everything to have this that i have. Idk maybe sometimes its also easy to point to that as to where your trouble is coming from, other people it gives them motivation or some kind of survival thing. Back when i had to struggle to have enough money i wouldnt think about other shit. Idk everything in life is just so unfair.

Its interesting anyways. Money sure doesnt buy happiness but not having money will surely make you unhappy.
 
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bedhead_baby

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Jul 16, 2023
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Yes it's a huge aspect. Having money is the difference between being alone when bed ridden and having access to support & food when I can't walk. This world is sick.
This. I had a 6 hour hospital visit a while ago and they charged over 1/3 my yearly income, and that didn't even include meds I needed afterwards. Luckily, I was approved for financial assistance, but they were trying to send it to collections saying it wasn't paid even though they'd covered it for me. I showed the letter they sent for proof and they cleared it, but it's ridiculous.

I won't ever go to a hospital again.
 
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Mtilla

Mtilla

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Oct 29, 2021
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fully agree and finance is the main reason behind all my recent troubles.........I want to die because of it
I have a stable job and financial issues are the only thing that won't make me kill myself. It's so weird and insightful realising what other ppl need I kind of got and what they don't think of as special of having is wanting me to kill myself for lacking.
 
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