tabby
experiencing the horrors
- Aug 16, 2023
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Nice avatar. I was just writing about that today. https://twitter.com/Thekeksociety/status/1691566943134740840Most days, no, but very occasionally I gain the ability to feel things (I think it's just arbitrarily related to hormonal changes) and my cats make me happy, my hobbies make me happy (video games, reading, activities in nature, art, gardening/plants), and my loved ones make me happy. But most days those things either outright annoy and stress me out or simply don't evoke any form of positive emotion...
That is so beautiful. What's his name? Stick around for him.My dog. He's sweet and gentle and I love watching him enjoy the little things in life like closing his eyes and sniffing a soft breeze or rolling around in the grass on a sunny day or walking up to different flowers to sniff. He's innocent, he's cute, he's beautiful, he's smart, he's the solid evidence to me that life can be worth living.
That makes sense. I've actually found that in the past I've found myself feeling fairly content and almost happy when I'm planning to CTB and know the date I've set is soon. I obviously failed but that feeling of satisfaction stuck.I wouldn't say that I'm happy per se, but just still coping while readying for my ultimate demise which will come someday soon, perhaps a triggering event and/or series of catalysts would do it, after proper preparations and such. The world is becoming more and more paternalistic and prohibitive each passing day, week, month, and year.
I love feeding little creatures around my house. I always have to remind myself that just because I hate myself doesn't mean I have to hate everything around me.I like heavy music - I think that the voices of the lead singers of Unleashed and Orbit Culture bands are very brutal - I find this aesthetic perfection. I'm a little happy when I feed my stray cat - it's strange because I'm a psychopath, but even psychopaths love cats - cats are very cute animals)) but in general I'm probably even more depressed than FuneralCry)) I envy people who can enjoy some kind of simple things like delicious food, sunny days or something like this.
I'm glad you have that. I'm also a huge daydreamer.Mainly music and daydreaming a life that is better to live.
And some other small things like animals, games, taking baths and stuff.
even with this I am still not 100% happy but it does the job atleast and i'm grateful for that
First time I've ever heard social media! Most of the time people say it contributes to their misery. I'd like to hear your side!My cats make me happy. Nicotine. Social Media?
computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.If so, what is it?
Cats are amazing creatures - they are like vicious angels - they seem to be small predators, but at the same time they are so cute and charming that even their cruel games with live prey look cute))My cats make me happy. Nicotine. Social Media?
That is very interesting! I'm glad you have a community to lean back on!computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.
I used to be so insanely autistic about cooooooding. I picked it up when I was 16 or so. Making stuff was pure satisfaction.computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.
Thats good! Try to stick around for them.My cat and my friends make me happy most of the times
imo cute is subjective well for me anyway . but the pain, terror and suffering the mouse is suffering while being tortured by the cat is not subjective.Cats are amazing creatures - they are like vicious angels - they seem to be small predators, but at the same time they are so cute and charming that even their cruel games with live prey look cute))
Do you tend to think like a victim - do you prefer to see the world in this parallax, from the point of view of the victim? I am a psychopath and it is difficult for me to understand what empathy, sympathy, compassion are - I calmly observe that someone, by the right of force, acts cruelly with someone weaker. I see a certain beauty in this. Of course, I would not like to be in the place of the victim)) but it must be so delightful to feel like a predator who has power and sadistically enjoys itimo cute is subjective well for me anyway . but the pain, terror and suffering the mouse is suffering while being tortured by the cat is not subjective.
Just another hell created by DNA evolution and life. Most animals do get tortured to death being eaten alive by other animals, parasites , bacteria , diseases , old age .
Life is constantly glorified. But life has tortured trillions of animals, humans and other sentient beings and tortured most of them to death. Even humans with all the technology still end up in nursing homes in pain dying of painful diseases like dementia, cancer , alsheimers with arthritis immobile.
To answer the OP . To me not many things are objective truth , including happiness. Some things that are objective are extreme pain extreme suffering and I want to avoid those.
Death is a truth of course as every human will die anyway. But to me Death is not bad but non-existence forever which means no pain , no suffering no problems ever.