tabby

tabby

experiencing the horrors
Aug 16, 2023
35
If so, what is it?
 
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AbsurdCapybara

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Jul 16, 2023
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My dog. He's sweet and gentle and I love watching him enjoy the little things in life like closing his eyes and sniffing a soft breeze or rolling around in the grass on a sunny day or walking up to different flowers to sniff. He's innocent, he's cute, he's beautiful, he's smart, he's the solid evidence to me that life can be worth living.
 
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ApparentlyNot

ApparentlyNot

Thanks for all the cats.
Jul 8, 2023
145
Most days, no, but very occasionally I gain the ability to feel things (I think it's just arbitrarily related to hormonal changes) and my cats make me happy, my hobbies make me happy (video games, reading, activities in nature, art, gardening/plants), and my loved ones make me happy. But most days those things either outright annoy and stress me out or simply don't evoke any form of positive emotion...
 
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mind3de

Member
Jun 28, 2022
42
Taking drugs makes me temporarily 'happy'.
 
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XenoPyo

XenoPyo

눈을 감자
Aug 16, 2023
47
Taking drugs or I like to call them enhancers. I also like to experience Autumn. Probably because bugs dying by the truckload.
 
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020x

020x

Suffering will end when the existence does.
Jul 6, 2023
249
Drugs, gaming, porn and social media (sometimes).
 
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front of me

front of me

Experienced
Aug 3, 2023
289
If the answer is no the Doctors will say you are mentally ill
 
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Dmoore3232

Student
Jun 20, 2023
195
Most days, no, but very occasionally I gain the ability to feel things (I think it's just arbitrarily related to hormonal changes) and my cats make me happy, my hobbies make me happy (video games, reading, activities in nature, art, gardening/plants), and my loved ones make me happy. But most days those things either outright annoy and stress me out or simply don't evoke any form of positive emotion...
Nice avatar. I was just writing about that today. https://twitter.com/Thekeksociety/status/1691566943134740840
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,945
No, happiness doesn't even exist to me, existing fills me with dread, there's nothing desirable about existence, it just causes harm and having the ability to exist was never a positive thing, it was always a terrible, futile burden, only death could ever bring me relief.
 
rosenrot

rosenrot

Member
Jun 13, 2023
34
animals. nature, and polite strangers
 
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mob

mob

Student
Jul 19, 2023
136
My cats make me happy. Nicotine. Social Media?
 
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Aloneisbestforme

Aloneisbestforme

Terminally online
Aug 17, 2023
94
Mainly music and daydreaming a life that is better to live.

And some other small things like animals, games, taking baths and stuff.
even with this I am still not 100% happy but it does the job atleast and i'm grateful for that
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,874
I wouldn't say that I'm happy per se, but just still coping while readying for my ultimate demise which will come someday soon, perhaps a triggering event and/or series of catalysts would do it, after proper preparations and such. The world is becoming more and more paternalistic and prohibitive each passing day, week, month, and year.
 
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tabby

tabby

experiencing the horrors
Aug 16, 2023
35
My dog. He's sweet and gentle and I love watching him enjoy the little things in life like closing his eyes and sniffing a soft breeze or rolling around in the grass on a sunny day or walking up to different flowers to sniff. He's innocent, he's cute, he's beautiful, he's smart, he's the solid evidence to me that life can be worth living.
That is so beautiful. What's his name? Stick around for him.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
I like heavy music - I think that the voices of the lead singers of Unleashed and Orbit Culture bands are very brutal - I find this aesthetic perfection. I'm a little happy when I feed my stray cat - it's strange because I'm a psychopath, but even psychopaths love cats - cats are very cute animals)) but in general I'm probably even more depressed than FuneralCry)) I envy people who can enjoy some kind of simple things like delicious food, sunny days or something like this.
 
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tabby

experiencing the horrors
Aug 16, 2023
35
I wouldn't say that I'm happy per se, but just still coping while readying for my ultimate demise which will come someday soon, perhaps a triggering event and/or series of catalysts would do it, after proper preparations and such. The world is becoming more and more paternalistic and prohibitive each passing day, week, month, and year.
That makes sense. I've actually found that in the past I've found myself feeling fairly content and almost happy when I'm planning to CTB and know the date I've set is soon. I obviously failed but that feeling of satisfaction stuck.
I like heavy music - I think that the voices of the lead singers of Unleashed and Orbit Culture bands are very brutal - I find this aesthetic perfection. I'm a little happy when I feed my stray cat - it's strange because I'm a psychopath, but even psychopaths love cats - cats are very cute animals)) but in general I'm probably even more depressed than FuneralCry)) I envy people who can enjoy some kind of simple things like delicious food, sunny days or something like this.
I love feeding little creatures around my house. I always have to remind myself that just because I hate myself doesn't mean I have to hate everything around me.
 
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watchdog

watch-dog
Mar 24, 2023
87
Drugs and my dog.
I would say porn, but now I realize I don't even enjoy it, it's just a habit.
 
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tabby

tabby

experiencing the horrors
Aug 16, 2023
35
Mainly music and daydreaming a life that is better to live.

And some other small things like animals, games, taking baths and stuff.
even with this I am still not 100% happy but it does the job atleast and i'm grateful for that
I'm glad you have that. I'm also a huge daydreamer.
My cats make me happy. Nicotine. Social Media?
First time I've ever heard social media! Most of the time people say it contributes to their misery. I'd like to hear your side!
 
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underscore_nine

underscore_nine

the sweet release
Feb 17, 2023
149
If so, what is it?
computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.
 
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Klophy

Lost...
Jun 28, 2022
197
Daydreaming of a better life.
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
My cats make me happy. Nicotine. Social Media?
Cats are amazing creatures - they are like vicious angels - they seem to be small predators, but at the same time they are so cute and charming that even their cruel games with live prey look cute))
 
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tabby

tabby

experiencing the horrors
Aug 16, 2023
35
computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.
That is very interesting! I'm glad you have a community to lean back on!
 
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lethargic

Member
Jul 14, 2023
90
computer science and god, always loved comp sci since the day I discovered it, probably spent over 15,000 hours reading/writing code, one of my good reasons for staying in this world. My faith for god is my other love, I love church and I do my best to be the best person I can, I'm by no means super involved in the details of Catholicism or follow all the traditional views to a tee (especially in regards to suicide being a sin, I think god forgives those who were in torment on earth.) My parents are both atheists, which is odd for me to have independently adopted religion, especially as a transgender individual, but alas that is me.
I used to be so insanely autistic about cooooooding. I picked it up when I was 16 or so. Making stuff was pure satisfaction.

I think my anhedonia has actually gotten so bad that it's started to define me though. I can only do things that make me feel a little less bad. Usually it's alcohol.
 
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SpaceBoyEvangef

SpaceBoyEvangef

"Gonna get you like a space boy!"
Aug 16, 2023
83
Being part of a roblox myth sparks a bit of joy in me, I used to watch roblox myth content all the time, being part of one makes me feel a whole lot better to an extent.
 
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RainLover

RainLover

Just another one
Aug 9, 2023
53
My cat and my friends make me happy most of the times
 
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LonelyKitten

LonelyKitten

Seeking one final escape
Aug 13, 2023
284
A "few more" moments of pretending my life didn't go down the drain, and daydreaming how things could've turned out.
Sufficiently tired sleep in a comfy bed, stuffing myself with nice food, old favorite music, "one final" call with old friends can each give a proper illusion, however fleeting.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,749
Cats are amazing creatures - they are like vicious angels - they seem to be small predators, but at the same time they are so cute and charming that even their cruel games with live prey look cute))
imo cute is subjective well for me anyway . but the pain, terror and suffering the mouse is suffering while being tortured by the cat is not subjective.

Just another hell created by DNA evolution and life. Most animals do get tortured to death being eaten alive by other animals, parasites , bacteria , diseases , old age .

Life is constantly glorified. But life has tortured trillions of animals, humans and other sentient beings and tortured most of them to death. Even humans with all the technology still end up in nursing homes in pain dying of painful diseases like dementia, cancer , alsheimers with arthritis immobile.

29 million suicide attempts per year worldwide. 1 million suicides per year last 5 years .

To answer the OP . To me not many things are objective truth , including happiness. Some things that are objective are extreme pain extreme suffering and I want to avoid those.

Death is a truth of course as every human will die anyway. But to me Death is not bad but non-existence forever which means no pain , no suffering no problems ever.
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,028
The thought s of moving from a 4-season climate with an extremely cold and long winter to a tropical location. Should have it done and moved, hopefully by next year.

Walter
 
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Orbitc

Orbitc

Sorry for my English
Jul 2, 2023
277
imo cute is subjective well for me anyway . but the pain, terror and suffering the mouse is suffering while being tortured by the cat is not subjective.

Just another hell created by DNA evolution and life. Most animals do get tortured to death being eaten alive by other animals, parasites , bacteria , diseases , old age .

Life is constantly glorified. But life has tortured trillions of animals, humans and other sentient beings and tortured most of them to death. Even humans with all the technology still end up in nursing homes in pain dying of painful diseases like dementia, cancer , alsheimers with arthritis immobile.

To answer the OP . To me not many things are objective truth , including happiness. Some things that are objective are extreme pain extreme suffering and I want to avoid those.

Death is a truth of course as every human will die anyway. But to me Death is not bad but non-existence forever which means no pain , no suffering no problems ever.
Do you tend to think like a victim - do you prefer to see the world in this parallax, from the point of view of the victim? I am a psychopath and it is difficult for me to understand what empathy, sympathy, compassion are - I calmly observe that someone, by the right of force, acts cruelly with someone weaker. I see a certain beauty in this. Of course, I would not like to be in the place of the victim)) but it must be so delightful to feel like a predator who has power and sadistically enjoys it
 
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