Does anyone spend all their time ruminating?

[meetapple]

I obsess over whether what I am doing is done in enough of a conformist manner. I also think about whether I am too non conformist in nature too ever exist in the society we are in. I am so unproductive that I am ashamed of myself.

 

[Pure]

Ask me what I've been doing the past week.

 

[VicMackey]

I obsess over whether what I am doing is done in enough of a conformist manner. I also think about whether I am too non conformist in nature too ever exist in the society we are in. I am so unproductive that I am ashamed of myself.

Yes

 

[Bullit]

Yep! I ruminate endlessly on what I should've done in the past so as to avoid the miserable life I have now. I am so smart when it comes to figuring out what I should have done! Goddamn it life is so fuckin hopeless. Who to blame. Who else,the same dumb fuck who always screws up my and the people I love lives. That little old winemaker...me.

 

[unworthy_]

Ruminate, brood, contemplate...
I am wasting my time doing all the above. Coupled with anxiety.

I lie on bed almost all day browsing forums and nothing else. I have been demotivated for a very long time and I cant see the incentive of improving my life.

Just few days ago I was checking my future retirement savings that sent me into panic attack (im in my mid 30s with low paying job). My savings obviously not enough to cover me if I have a long life. I have to force myself to work harder and be frugal for the rest of my life just to live longer !? Whats the point of living if I have to be forced to do that? Not everyone is born privileged ! Not everyone is as smart as Bill Gates.

 

[Originaldon]

Yep, traumatic life event(breakup with a psycho) has set my rumination off. It is 24 hours a day and takes over my life. I can't do or care about anything else because the thoughts are priority in my head.

The rumination is my reason for my suicide as it has also come with severe depression and anxiety.

 

[VicMackey]

Yep, traumatic life event(breakup with a psycho) has set my rumination off. It is 24 hours a day and takes over my life. I can't do or care about anything else because the thoughts are priority in my head.

The rumination is my reason for my suicide as it has also come with severe depression and anxiety.

I can totally relate

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes me. I cant help but regurgitate everything that ever happened negative or even positive to feel bad about it somehow. For me i think it is a mental issue exacerbated by bad diet (high carb, high fiber, low protein and low animal fat). Whenever i switch to a ketogenic diet or purely red meat i feel so much better but I have hard time limiting myself to only foods that dont hurt me. I will try again hopefully this time i will stick to it!

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I spend most of my time overthinking everything. I feel trapped with my own thoughts. Our thoughts can really torture us. Sometimes it even keeps me up at night.

 

[VicMackey]

Yes, I spend most of my time overthinking everything. I feel trapped with my own thoughts. Our thoughts can really torture us. Sometimes it even keeps me up at night.

I hear that

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Not much to think about for me. Only achievable (?) goal in life: suicide. Money, girlfriend, fun, pleasure, importance, purpose, power, status, adventure, knowledge and the future; that stuff is for other people. People with a different set of genes and environments.

 

[motel rooms]

Flashbacks aren't really thoughts

 

[Originaldon]

Flashbacks aren't really thoughts

Nobody has mentioned flashbacks. We're talking about severe mental scarring and trauma.

 

[motel rooms]

Nobody has mentioned flashbacks. We're talking about severe mental scarring and trauma.

I'm just talking about myself, it wasn't my intention to correct anyone. I'm familiar with the definition of rumination.
Btw, flashbacks are also something that severely mentally scarred/traumatized people suffer from.