Does anyone miss their suicidal thoughts?

[Leiot]

I've noticed that I have suicidal thoughts so often that they seem part of me. So when I move into a better place mentally it's like something's missing. You all ever run into that?

 

[LXR515]

I somewhat relate. I think there's a sense of ironic comfort in those suicidal feelings, like if I know I'm gonna die soon then life seems way less scary. But when I want to live I know I need to manage my life and take it seriously