Discussion Does anyone know you are going to ctb?

[ForestLove]

For me, no one knows I'm going to CTB.

How about you?

 

[Jane Doe]

For me, no one knows I'm going to CTB.

How about you?

Nope not a soul and I plan on keeping it that way

 

[Roph]

My family and providers know that I've been inpatient multiple times. I strongly doubt my death will be a shock to anybody.

 

[Tara2018]

No one knows but I don't think my death will be a surprise to anyone.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Only you guys.

 

[Lra888]

No. I know I must plan and act in isolation.

 

[Lra888]

Only you guys.

Exactly. My posts on SS are more real than any communication with my "close family and "friends"".

 

[Throwaway563078]

For me, no one knows I'm going to CTB.

How about you?

No one but on here. They won't be surprised anyways. I'm pretty unhappy and it shows

 

[TAW122]

No one IRL knows and I plan to carry it to my grave. They do however, know that I have emotional problems and some mental anguish (shows through everyday life) so I have to be discreet and always have an alibi/backup in case suspicions come up. Also, I don't think they will care (except pretend care - which is virtue signaling to make themselves feel good about themselves) when I actually go through with it.

 

[invisiblycrippled]

Yes, my mother, my father, my former best friend, and a good friend. But I have to be very selective, of course.
I just had to try to soften the blow and explain it over the years.

 

[Deafsn0w]

no

 

[lady_godiva]

No. Given my history though I doubt anyone will be surprised. My dad has actually told me before that he's surprised I haven't.

 

[faex42]

I have mentioned it at critical times in my life to old friends and family. I am not sure anyone would be surprised but I think they would prefer at this point in time to regard my suicidal ideation as part of my severe depression episodes. They become uncomfortable hearing the word "suicide" so I have learned to refer to as infrequently as possible. When I feel very helpless it seems natural to me to also mention suicide but it really serves no purpose so I try not to.

 

[wanttodie]

no one knows I'm going to end my life

 

[okyeah]

I think about it a lot and look forward to it so I wish I could tell people about it but I know that I have to keep my mouth shut or they'll put me in a ward.

Plus it isn't fair to my psychologist to force him to take action on me. Him and I both know that will make my life 100x worse.

 

[Radaghest]

Yes. Im honest to a fault. Ive told everyone Im ctb. Ive laid out my final wishes, and who is to get what things. Just waiting on the money for N. No one seems to give a fuck.

 

[Radaghest]

Yes. Im honest to a fault. Ive told everyone Im ctb. Ive laid out my final wishes, and who is to get what things. Just waiting on the money for N. No one seems to give a fuck.

Also, being hospitalized isnt that bad.
Its like a vacation, honestly.
Im honest with my Drs as well.
They prescribe more meds, but the look on their faces says they know its useless.

 

[Voldmort]

three friends. in fact, two of them always knew, the last one I had to tell during the suicide attempt, but since I found this forum and I can interact about ctb with you, I do not need to talk to them about suicide anymore, so I think they think I will not do it .
i dont know if i will send a note again

 

[sadak_the_wanderer]

This is espionage. I'm a saboteur in my own life, and nobody must know of my plans until everything comes crashing down.

 

[Sick Boy]

Nope,not even my cats