The permanent condition as Buddhists would say is life is suffering. There is no avoiding this fact about reality. My experience with psychiatrists and being labeled bipolar is that these doctors say a lot of stuff but the entire field of psychiatry is a poorly executed guessing game for diagnosises and then pushing ineffective meds to "fix" or "treat" what they think is going on.
I was labeled bipolar because it was the typical thing for this hospital to do to most of the patients. I was there for alcohol detox and that's where I first received a psych diagnosis as an adult and walked out of there on like 5 or 6 psych meds. They convinced me that I just had to find the right psych drug cocktail and that my personal issues would disappear. That I was "broken" with a "chemical imbalance" and could not function well without them.
That was 12 years ago and since then discovered that the diagnosis and the meds were neither going to make me better. I have spent a lot of time researching manic depression and all the other diagnosises. I don't get manic or hypo manic unless I am on a strong stimulant and while I've had depression at varying degrees my entire life I don't rapidly cycle between highs and lows as described for BP. I stopped calling myself bipolar a couple of years ago.
Besides the scam that the DSM (psychiatrist diagnosis book) is psych meds are even a bigger one. I've been on a bunch of different cocktails over the years so I understand what their effects are. I honestly believe that for most who gain any "benefit" it's a placebo effect that's doing it. Sure the various meds certainly have some psychological effects but for the vast majority it's the act of going to a doctor and then taking a drug for their "illness" that helps them not the actual meds themselves.
If you look at studies on most psych meds they either have non-existant efficiency like all SSRIs/SNRIs or like with anti-psychotics they work because they dope the person enough that they can't engage in their troublesome behavior. All psych drugs have awful side effects. I've accepted that I'm "mentally ill" as our sick society defines it but I would be concerned if I was declared well by the same system. I no longer feel compelled to take harmful medications with terrible side effects.
My experiences with psychiatry weren't satisfactory. And in retrospect it wasn't unexpected. Psychiatrists aren't gods, and I personally feel there were a lot of things escaping their notice or outside their areas of expertise about what life of a person could be like as well.
That life itself is a permanent problem isn't a "negative statement". Just like a problem of all the maths and sciences that requires a lot of knowledge, thoughts and acts from different perspectives in order to be solved.
Psychotherapy in this case, no matter how fancy that would sound like, is only a method that enables us to look at things from one of many angles.
I do see many a person preoccupied with all therapies and meds. Most of which either put very high expectations upon the treatments or overthink about particular technique like rTMX or music therapy.
Yet to me, psychotherapy is only one of many things to do, and I always felt a psychiatrist was more than what I needed.
It's unwise to chase one's thought down the rabbit hole of the therapy, or the mental condition, and forget how to live.
Trust me that life is complex and has many dimensions. Nothing, including psychotherapy can make it better just on its own. One vector cannot span R5, and there's no such thing that alone works as simple solution to life.
P.S. Research is always a thing to do. Just that as far as I'm concerned, doing so under the idea of self - salvation isn't a good idea. For a long time I'be been doing phil and psych while I felt it no more than a task to be done. It never became my academic interest.
Until once I came across some philosophy readings. I thought I found the right way to configure my motivation of doing such research:
Not omniscient as we are, still hate the feelings of not knowing things, right?
My experiences with psychiatry weren't satisfactory. And in retrospect it wasn't unexpected. Psychiatrists aren't gods, and I personally feel there were a lot of things escaping their notice or outside their areas of expertise about what life of a person could be like as well.
That life itself is a permanent problem isn't a "negative statement". Just like a problem of all the maths and sciences that requires a lot of knowledge, thoughts and acts from different perspectives in order to be solved.
Psychotherapy in this case, no matter how fancy that would sound like, is only a method that enables us to look at things from one of many angles.
I do see many a person preoccupied with all therapies and meds. Most of which either put very high expectations upon the treatments or overthink about particular technique like rTMX or music therapy.
Yet to me, psychotherapy is only one of many things to do, and I always felt a psychiatrist was more than what I needed.
It's unwise to chase one's thought down the rabbit hole of the therapy, or the mental condition, and forget how to live.
Trust me that life is complex and has many dimensions. Nothing, including psychotherapy can make it better just on its own. One vector cannot span R5, and there's no such thing that alone works as simple solution to life.
P.S. Research is always a thing to do. Just that as far as I'm concerned, doing so under the idea of self - salvation isn't a good idea. For a long time I'be been doing phil and psych while I felt it no more than a task to be done. It never became my academic interest.
Until once I came across some philosophy readings. I thought I found the right way to configure my motivation of doing such research:
Not omniscient as we are, still hate the feelings of not knowing things, right?
Plus... as a personal opinion, ctb kills you, but doesn't really kill the life-problem along with you.
Should you run into a difficult maths problem, simply trashing the piece of paper on which the problem is written doesn't destroy the problem.
Similarly your body and existence serves only as a means through which the grand problem reveals itself. With the miserability still being there, ctb doesn't make a difference. Those who refuses to die are still possessed with the "problem" and continue to suffer.
Ctb to me is of no more meaning than that. I do acknowledge that my mentality has been to a point where there's no returning to normal life. Yet before I dispatch myself, I decided to work on the problem as much as I could so that when it passes to others who refuses to die, they may work it out, hopefully with the basis of work I've done.
