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itsallover

Arcanist
Jun 29, 2018
478
I feel like this is a sign that I am at the end of my road since I have basically exhausted all of my options in terms of how to heal myself physically and just wanted to know if anyone is going through something similar and can give me some insight. Thank you.
 
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MicropBaldCurrycel

Specialist
Dec 29, 2021
314
yes, i have nightmares of how my mom died since i witnessed it and sometimes i dream that shes still around and we are living a happy family again then i wake up and realize shes not then feel sad .
 
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BrokenHopes

BrokenHopes

What doesn't kill you, f*cks you up.
Nov 27, 2019
162
Yes I do. Im dreaming I relapsed and am about to end my life and thats exactly where Im at.
 
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OpheliasFlowers

OpheliasFlowers

Specialist
Apr 2, 2019
348
I do. : ( I often have nightmares and anxiety dreams about certain symptoms caused by my physical illnesses and conditions, and I'll wake up from them in a panic (heart racing/palpitations, sweating, nausea, shaking/jittery, this weird 'tingling' sensation all over my body. it's horrible). First I try to calm myself down by breathing, or distracting myself or something, but lots of times those strategies don't work so great so I might take some Valium. I've been living this way for literally decades but it's gotten much worse in the last 15 years and doctors don't seem to take it too seriously but it's destroyed my quality of life to zero (the physical problems AND the nightmares/anxiety/panic). So I feel for you. I wish I could tell you something helpful to stop this kind of life because I know how shit it is to deal with. Waking up from a nightmare only to face, in reality, what your nightmare was about is a special kind of hell. I hope you will have other comments to this thread more helpful than mine, and I hope things get better for you. I just wanted you to know you aren't alone in what you're going through. :heart:
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
In my dreams I'm ok. The nightmare is when I wake up.
 
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idkanymore21

Member
Mar 29, 2022
58
yes i do and then just make myself go back to sleep because i dont want to deal w my reality
 
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JU.

Member
Aug 1, 2021
44
it happens to me every time I fall asleep even for a few minutes: when I wake up I have tremors, pain in my jaw, panic. I'd rather be dead
 
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chocolatebar

chocolatebar

Paragon
Jul 11, 2021
974
I have problems with nightmares for a long time. Sometimes, they're as you describe and they're one of the worst ones. When I'm facing things like monsters, torture or similar situations, it's all gone when I wake up, but when I face my life...

So far, nothing has helped me with nightmares
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,292
Nightmares really can be awful, there is no peace even in sleep. I know that I have nightmares and then I wake up feeling so horrible. I hope for an eternal dreamless sleep, for me true peace only exists in death.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,850
As bad as my dreams are each night, the real nightmare is waking up to my own awful reality
 
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SubZero

Member
Feb 8, 2022
98
Sometimes my dreams are the only place where I again live a normal, decent and happy life. Once I wake up, the real nightmare starts.

Sometimes I do dream about my diseases. They got so bad that I think for suicide from the moment I wake up. I fought like a warrior but I have been beaten. I am fighting a bigger evil that is not letting me go. Each week I have a new symptom/disease that either keeps me tortured for a long time or there is no cure for.

My N is waiting for me. I suppose the suffering will dull my SI soon and I can finally do it. God is a witness I tried more than my best, it is just way too much.
 
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wellherewego

wellherewego

Wanderer
Apr 30, 2022
55
no nightmare can be as bad as my reality
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
1,270
Sleep is typically my only peace. I wake up to my revolving daily nightmare
 
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Liferunner

Liferunner

Waiting to exit...
May 1, 2022
19
Yes last week every night was full of terrors. Just can't escape the feelings regardless of whether I am awake or asleep.

Depression is a just so insane!

It follows you no matter where you are...
 
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onlyanimalsaregood

onlyanimalsaregood

Unlovable 💔 Rest in peace CommitSudoku 🤍
Mar 11, 2022
1,329
I do unfortunately
 
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starryeyedgemini

starryeyedgemini

It's where my demons hide
Jun 5, 2022
64
Ive started having nightmares/ weird dreams recently. One nightmare i planned to run away and a very old friend who i havent seen for years morphed into a evil/demonic entity and kept screaming at me that i had destroyed my ex and he was broken. Then in another dream im being led into a dark unknown forest by a faceless prescence. I also keep seeing the number 66 as well. Prehaps its a sign that a high being is trying to tell me something or prehaps my depression has manifested into a psychological breakdown. Either way i want to be at peace
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,850
Dreamt about my late girlfriend twice in the last two weeks, it just makes things worse of course
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,008
Has anyone had dreams so bad that, within the dream, you are thinking "Please let this be a dream! Please wake up now!" I have.
 

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