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lookingforward

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Like probably most, I have no one in real life I can speak openly to about my 50/50 (why can't I just fucking make a move? I choose life, I get suicidal, I choose death, I get scared) chance of ctb. One person I told, it nearly jeapordized what little stability I have- which I need in order to act in one way or another, as opposed to others acting on my behalf. Will not make that same mistake.

I am near NYC. I am certain there are pro-choice people near me who I could speak openly to IRL but it's not like there are things on meetup for this. Offline connections are important to me. Has anyone here ever met in person? Know anyone who has? Would be willing to? Has thoughts on that idea?

I don't know. I guess I just want to be able to tell to someone's face everything, with no judgement or guilting me into living as opposed to moving on to death, discuss methods, final arrangements and being open to questioning the value of life...real life connections that can exist independently of what I choose to do with my life (of course that's a two way street).

ETA: I for some reason accidentally wrote pro-life, meant pro-choice, obviously.
 
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GeorgeJL

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Mar 7, 2019
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Like probably most, I have no one in real life I can speak openly to about my 50/50 (why can't I just fucking make a move? I choose life, I get suicidal, I choose death, I get scared) chance of ctb. One person I told, it nearly jeapordized what little stability I have- which I need in order to act in one way or another, as opposed to others acting on my behalf. Will not make that same mistake.

I am near NYC. I am certain there are pro-life people near me who I could speak openly to IRL but it's not like there are things on meetup for this. Offline connections are important to me. Has anyone here ever met in person? Know anyone who has? Would be willing to? Has thoughts on that idea?

I don't know. I guess I just want to be able to tell to someone's face everything, with no judgement or guilting me into living as opposed to moving on to death, discuss methods, final arrangements and being open to questioning the value of life...real life connections that can exist independently of what I choose to do with my life (of course that's a two way street).
I offered to meet someone in WI from here. He didn't reply. Probably has social anxiety.
 
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Cookiedough8956

Wowzers
Feb 24, 2019
636
Nah didnt meet anyone here.
Ita cool there ur near the city. Upstate? LI?
Im in the city...which is double hell for me since i have severe anxiety.
Fun shit
 
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sweet17sour29

turning teeth
Feb 22, 2019
35
I'd be keen for meeting anyone in my city in New Zealand, but mainly because I have drinking issues and love talking all night and know noone like this in real life.
 
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KadathianStr1d3r

KadathianStr1d3r

Shattered Mannequin
Nov 21, 2018
278
Would love to meet new people, Utah's a pretty lonely place.
 
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Kyrok

Kyrok

Paragon
Nov 6, 2018
970
I'm on a chronic pain discussion board and about 5yrs ago I met another member IRL.
It was a novelty, but nothing more.

For those who are terribly lonely, though, go for it. So hard for the non-depressed to tolerate us.
 
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elizabeth.luck

elizabeth.luck

Eliminate your map.
Mar 10, 2019
124
No a neighboring state. I drive rideshare for a living so travel isn't that big of a deal for me.

You might be interested in knowing Jack Kevorkian is buried two miles from where I grew up. :smiling:
 
GeorgeJL

GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
You might be interested in knowing Jack Kevorkian is buried two miles from where I grew up. :smiling:
LOL nice, we can go visit his grave and leave a bottle of nembutal in remembrance. LOL
 
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elizabeth.luck

Eliminate your map.
Mar 10, 2019
124
I met two people from the original Sanctioned Suicide Reddit in February of 2018. A man and a woman. They were both lovely but we lost touch and I wish I could find them again. I hope they're not here, I hope they recovered! But if you're here, please message me!!!
 
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seekingoblivion

seekingoblivion

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
454
I'm in Africa. Even if there's any other Africans here I'm probably the only one from my country. I'm not gonna be meeting anyone from here. And believe me I would love to meet some of y'all!
 
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GeorgeJL

Enlightened
Mar 7, 2019
1,621
Africa? Isn't that where Ebola, malaria, and pyramids are? LOL

My parents visited Africa years ago. They visited the pyramids.
 
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ShadowOfTheDay

ShadowOfTheDay

Hungry Ghost
Feb 14, 2019
331
Never met in person with anyone on SS, but I would like to. I think that would be fun.
 
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Idorus

Arcanist
Apr 30, 2018
426
Hardly any dutch here.. so a no-go I guess. But I would be open to receive if anyone feels the need to spend some days in my country.
 
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GreyMagic

The more you care, the more you have to lose.
Feb 21, 2019
173
It's complicated...

  • Have I met anybody from this forum? No
  • Would I meet anybody from this forum? Yes if I felt comfortable with that individual person. Wouldn't meet more than one person at a time as social anxiety couldn't cope with it.
  • Have I ever met anybody from other forums? Yes.. to the extent that have several ex girlfriends and boyfriends from other forums. Met one friend who I text daily. Then there have been a few who have met me and decided that they didn't want to be friends with such a fucked up person.
 
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Santiago

Mage
Mar 25, 2018
588
Hardly any dutch here.. so a no-go I guess. But I would be open to receive if anyone feels the need to spend some days in my country.

There are quite a few Dutch people here considering the size of these forums. I am one of them.
 
Meretlein

Meretlein

Moderator
Feb 15, 2019
1,199
I think it would be cool to meet someone on here but I live in the middle of nowhere.
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,065
Would be wierd specially if the person are in "despair" phase... I am OK now but in January I was anxious to kill my self. I am from Brazil by the way.
 
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Idorus

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Apr 30, 2018
426
There are quite a few Dutch people here considering the size of these forums. I am one of them.
So far only 3 revealed themselves as such of which 1 wouldn't be able to meet up because of social anxiety issues. Great to meet you. I'm living in a brabo city and open to receive as I said (even for aliens yes). I don't have a problem with numbers so whether it would be a meeting with one or 5, it's ok. It might break my day a little and I would love to cycle around a bit to show what my country or city has to offer. But just an evening meeting is great as well. I had a friend who died recently and I visited him every night on bike for 1,5 decade. Ik ben min of meer in een gat gevallen met zijn verlies ;)
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
Does anyone here ever meet in person?



But it's unlikely to be a long-term friendship, is it, so what's the point??
Would be wierd specially if the person are in "despair" phase... I am OK now but in January I was anxious to kill my self. I am from Brazil by the way.

Yeah, could you imagine going out for a pint with half the depressing self-pitying, fuck the world members on here. Fuck me, I'd throw myself under a bus on the way back from the pub.

On the other hand, if there are members who haven't entirely lost their sense of humour to self-pity, it would be great to have a laugh over a pint about our very weird future plans..
 
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Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,065
Does anyone here ever meet in person?



But it's unlikely to be a long-term friendship, is it, so what's the point??


Yeah, could you imagine going out for a pint with half the depressing self-pitying, fuck the world members on here. Fuck me, I'd throw myself under a bus on the way back from the pub.

On the other hand, if there are members who haven't entirely lost their sense of humour to self-pity, it would be great to have a laugh over a pint about our very weird future plans..
Man sorry if I offended someone here. My problem is that I am so fucked that sometimes I fuck everything. Why you think I wanted to kill me in first place...
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
Man sorry if I offended someone here. My problem is that I am so fucked that sometimes I fuck everything. Why you think I wanted to kill me in first place...

Sorry, as usual and is my way I was looking on the humorous side of the possibilities of meeting fellow SSs down the pub. I suppose we're all fucked here, so you're in good company. Do you mind my asking...why dya want to kill yourself?
 
Quinlor

Quinlor

The stranger
Feb 21, 2019
1,065
Sorry, as usual and is my way I was looking on the humorous side of the possibilities of meeting fellow SSs down the pub. I suppose we're all fucked here, so you're in good company. Do you mind my asking...why dya want to kill yourself?
Sure, Why not... during my whole life things have gone wrong in both private and professional lives. Last year I met the love of my life and she left me after realized how miserable my life is , without money, without work, without friends
I tried kill my self hanging in the new year eve , but I failed, then I tried "night night" method many times and a poisoning but again I gave up. Now as a idiot I am trying find a job again... but I know that always the things goes wrong.
and you?
 
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JWL

Arcanist
Jan 15, 2019
460
Sure, Why not... during my whole life things have gone wrong in both private and professional lives. Last year I met the love of my life and she left me after realized how miserable my life is , without money, without work, without friends
I tried kill my self hanging in the new year eve , but I failed, then I tried "night night" method many times and a poisoning but again I gave up. Now as a idiot I am trying find a job again... but I know that always the things goes wrong.
and you?


Me? I'm perfectly normal and no problems...:smiling:
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
3,069
Would be awesome to talk to someone about suicide but I live in Denmark and there are never any Danish members other than me on forums.
 
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Onomotopoeia

Experienced
Feb 8, 2019
264
I might. The issue for me is anxiety as others have mentioned. However Its very possible. The frame of mind of the other person matters as well. I have been suicidal a long time but would not consider myself actively suicidal but i'm not in any position to provider anyone any type of support that involves anything more than awkward silence.

I am oddly intrigued that 2 people in this thread are in NYC that's semi-close for me but the city seems so intimidating.

I am curious though would it not be easier to meet someone in the city? I mean sure probably not someone to openly talk about CTB but surely friends in general?

Seems like if nothing else there would be support groups and/or meetups (things that dont work well in my area)

back on topic though: yes, I might but it would involve more prior socialization that I do not really do even here, so yea
 
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