I'm so fucking sick of people checking on me. They're only checking on me because I had a suicide attempt, before then no one fucking gave a shit. It's just because they don't want a death in their conscious. Just let me die ffs, I don't owe anyone anything especially after they made me feel so shitty.
OMG I soooo understand. Yeah, when I begged and pleaded for help, love, attention, to feel good about myself, where the fuck was everyone?
Then you end up in the er and strapped to a bed in a locked ward and still no one, not a call, a card or a single flower.
Get let out and all of a sudden everyone wants to know how you are, where you are, wat are you doing, where are you going. Not to help, be there, listen, nope, to instead tell you how you shouldn't feel the way you feel and everyone does love you blah blah blah.
No. No one loves me, they love Who the WANT me to be or THINK I should be in their world according to them. All you gotta do is listen to how they talk about other people, 'fucking faggots, disgusting transvestites, this kind of person needs god, that kind of person should be locked up, ugly, fat, stupid, I hate being around blah blah blah' They will ALWAYS step on your toes but god forbid you step on theirs you sinner you.