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Steamm
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- Feb 28, 2020
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I mean, dammit I wanna live, but the corcunstances force me to leave this world. Know what I'm saying?
UhhhhhhIs chronic-not-terminal disease in the 15%?
Yeah I know exactly what you're saying. I don't want to do this at all and never thought I'd have to. I could kill the person who ruined my life it's just that that persons meI mean, dammit I wanna live, but the corcunstances force me to leave this world. Know what I'm saying?
these people aswell may fail attempt and jump from a building legs first to be paralyzed and in deep shit....Uhhhhhh
I'd guess. It's a factor for me. I was basically using Pareto, and it's pretty well established that suicides are mostly impulsive. I am of the opinion that impulsive suicides are tragedies. This is because these people would benefit from treatment, or just taking some time to think over whatever downturn of fortune they've encountered.
And I'm an efilist antinatalist.
Yeah, your garden variety impulsive suicides botch the job badly, unless they use what clinicians call "highly lethal means."these people aswell may fail attempt and jump from a building legs first to be paralyzed and in deep shit....
I understand what you're saying, I somewhat agree. But for me, I've been extremely depressed for just about my entire life, which has only been made worse by bad choices on my part and harm done to me by those who were supposed to protect me as a young child. The psychological torment and pain has become debilitating over the years and I am now at a point where I am experiencing physical symptoms from not being able to function properly (not eating and generally not taking very good care of myself over the years) and my anxiety and panic disorder. I agree with what you're saying entirely for those who are simply going through a depressive episode or are in a crap circumstance. For others, it's a lifetime struggle that just gets to be too much and becomes hardly worth putting in more effort into, especially if you've spent so much of your life fighting.This is going to sound awful, but...unless you are truly backed into a corner - and really that only corner is your physical body is in so much pain they you can't function or have a quality of life...otherwise, I believe there is ALWAYS another way. I have been through a major depressive episode in the past - so I do know what that feels like - and I wanted to die then, too. That was 15 years ago and I had a wonderful life after. Simply beautiful. It wasn't until I lost my physical health that I was able to see how bad things REALLY can be. I urge you, if in good health...find another way. ♥
understand u so soo good manI want to live, I want my life back, but I made the most STUPIDEST decisions ever. And it cost me my life. I am forced to CTB, when I don't want to. It's the worst pain ever; worse than hell man
understand u so soo good man
I understand what you're saying, I somewhat agree. But for me, I've been extremely depressed for just about my entire life, which has only been made worse by bad choices on my part and harm done to me by those who were supposed to protect me as a young child. The psychological torment and pain has become debilitating over the years and I am now at a point where I am experiencing physical symptoms from not being able to function properly (not eating and generally not taking very good care of myself over the years) and my anxiety and panic disorder. I agree with what you're saying entirely for those who are simply going through a depressive episode or are in a crap circumstance. For others, it's a lifetime struggle that just gets to be too much and becomes hardly worth putting in more effort into, especially if you've spent so much of your life fighting.
also can understand u so good.. have so much physical symptoms that started when I was not able anymore to take care for my mental health.. and thats why I hsve to ctb, cuz i feel so sick and painfulI understand what you're saying, I somewhat agree. But for me, I've been extremely depressed for just about my entire life, which has only been made worse by bad choices on my part and harm done to me by those who were supposed to protect me as a young child. The psychological torment and pain has become debilitating over the years and I am now at a point where I am experiencing physical symptoms from not being able to function properly (not eating and generally not taking very good care of myself over the years) and my anxiety and panic disorder. I agree with what you're saying entirely for those who are simply going through a depressive episode or are in a crap circumstance. For others, it's a lifetime struggle that just gets to be too much and becomes hardly worth putting in more effort into, especially if you've spent so much of your life fighting.
Same.I could kill the person who ruined my life it's just that that persons me
Absolutely. I don't know how to change the circumstances so I gotta goI mean, dammit I wanna live, but the corcunstances force me to leave this world. Know what I'm saying?
I completely understand. Clinical depression can create very real and true, debilitating physical pain.I understand what you're saying, I somewhat agree. But for me, I've been extremely depressed for just about my entire life, which has only been made worse by bad choices on my part and harm done to me by those who were supposed to protect me as a young child. The psychological torment and pain has become debilitating over the years and I am now at a point where I am experiencing physical symptoms from not being able to function properly (not eating and generally not taking very good care of myself over the years) and my anxiety and panic disorder. I agree with what you're saying entirely for those who are simply going through a depressive episode or are in a crap circumstance. For others, it's a lifetime struggle that just gets to be too much and becomes hardly worth putting in more effort into, especially if you've spent so much of your life fighting.
Sometimes impulsive suicides are just among the first noticings of things that could turn out to be recurring and serious problemsUhhhhhh
I'd guess. It's a factor for me. I was basically using Pareto, and it's pretty well established that suicides are mostly impulsive. I am of the opinion that impulsive suicides are tragedies. This is because these people would benefit from treatment, or just taking some time to think over whatever downturn of fortune they've encountered.
And I'm an efilist antinatalist.
I wouldn't personally recommend doing anything that would make you run out of money or lose access to a peaceful means of killing yourselfDepends.
Could I survive? Yes quite easily.
I have a fairly comfortable life in an external sense. I have a good education, I have money, I am financially independent, I have my own place to live in a safe area, I'm physically healthy. I have a lot of things people wish they had and I am grateful for that. It's the only positive thing I can say about my life.
However I'm a broken person on the inside, I know without a shadow of a doubt that depression has completely consumed me and I know that I'll never escape that depression living a "normal" white collar middle class life.
I know I only have two options, I either have to make a radical change in my life such as moving to live in a different country that is very different from the US or I'm going to at some point kill myself.
I already have SN and meto stashed where I live. I can ctb peacefully whenever I want to =)Sometimes impulsive suicides are just among the first noticings of things that could turn out to be recurring and serious problems
I wouldn't personally recommend doing anything that would make you run out of money or lose access to a peaceful means of killing yourself
Same here, I'm just saying I'm personally wary of any situation where I'd have to move somewhere and lose itI already have SN and meto stashed where I live. I can ctb peacefully whenever I want to =)
If I moved to Thailand I imagine my life would be so radically different I wouldn't want to die.Same here, I'm just saying I'm personally wary of any situation where I'd have to move somewhere and lose it
You could theoretically put it in a checked bag at the airport but even then I'd be afraid of losing it or getting in trouble for having it
I might easily eventually have to move around life but the risk of losing my SN is crippling to me
I've never been to Thailand so I couldn't sayIf I moved to Thailand I imagine my life would be so radically different I wouldn't want to die.
Its life in the USA that to me is bleak and hopeless.
I feel exactly the same as you wrote in your post.I mean, dammit I wanna live, but the corcunstances force me to leave this world. Know what I'm saying?