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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
I'm so sad to hear so many people here are also feeling lonely. I have never been more lonely in my entire life. I hardly ever see my family, but there are a lot of issues and the relationships aren't satisfying anyhow; to much past trauma. I've never really had many good friends irl, nor have I had many relationships. I've not been in a relationship in a bit. I've no friends at all outside of here now & even here it seems like lately the numbers have wained even more. Ive really never been so low in my life.

Ive tried many things, and without going into detail, the cards are very much stacked against me. This site helped at first, but now I often feel worse after coming here. Actually sometimes significantly worse & I've really not used the site much. I still feel horrible & loneliness is one of the main reasons I found myself here/feeling so bad. I've lost any hope at this point. Anyway I'm always here if anyone wants to chat.. tho idk if my PM's work.
Feel free to pm me if you need. Big hugs! :hug::hug::hug:
 
Deathcabforugly

Deathcabforugly

Member
Apr 25, 2020
72
:'( Me too! My extroverted side....75%.....is bothered that I am friendless, my introverted side .....25% is ok that I'm friendless. I've been forced to be introverted. My BPD makes me unable to keep friends I feel. My extroverted side let's me make friends very easily.
I'm BPD too and for one am done with this fucking life
 
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strand

strand

Member
Apr 11, 2020
45
I can barely remember myself not feeling lonely. I don't know how I pulled through, especially in high school. I think I spent most of these years disassociating, it had a major negative impact on my self-perception and character. I can't imagine what it would be like if I didn't have some close familial relationships. At first, I thought I didn't mind that I was a loner, but I've seen how people can bond with others and I want that too. Maybe that's why I love cats and dogs so much. :notsure:
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
I'm BPD too and for one am done with this fucking life
Well you are most welcome to PM me if ever you need a chat. Big hug to you, from me.
If you ever need to vent, I'm here.:hug:
I can barely remember myself not feeling lonely. I don't know how I pulled through, especially in high school. I think I spent most of these years disassociating, it had a major negative impact on my self-perception and character. I can't imagine what it would be like if I didn't have some close familial relationships. At first, I thought I didn't mind that I was a loner, but I've seen how people can bond with others and I want that too. Maybe that's why I love cats and dogs so much. :notsure:
I had a hard time in school as well. I was bullied. Pretty badly. I was ostracised quite a lot. Loneliness is awful. Feel free to PM me if you need to chat. Big hug to you! :hug:
 
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Deathcabforugly

Deathcabforugly

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Apr 25, 2020
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I don't know why it's not working maybe I need to post more to unlock the feature idk
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

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Mar 7, 2020
991
I don't know why it's not working maybe I need to post more to unlock the feature idk
I'm not sure how many posts you need to unlock the feature. Maybe message one of the staff and ask. They are quick to reply to any queries.
 
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Supersadmommy90

Supersadmommy90

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Sep 24, 2019
186
Yes I'm very lonely. I have no friends and just got out of an abusive relationship. I find it nearly impossible being single and it's not making me want to ctb any less.
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

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Mar 7, 2020
991
Yes I'm very lonely. I have no friends and just got out of an abusive relationship. I find it nearly impossible being single and it's not making me want to ctb any less.
I'm sorry to hear that you were in an abusive relationship. It sounds like you have been through a lot. I'm here if you need me. Hugs from me to you.
Loneliness is awful.
 

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