Does anyone else wanna stop themselves from degenerating more?

[CoolGuy9]

I'm part of the bottom of society. Worthless and incapable to do anything worthwhile. I am still young however and I still have some internet friends and a few other nice things. If I keep going the path without change, I will just degenerate more. The idea that one day I'll look in the mirror and think of these days as the good days is just how can a man even fall so low? If I killed myself now, then I would not have to go through that and people might even see my death as sad as no one really knows how worthless I am. I of course hope that I get better and see these as the dark days, but being optimistic is a way to be disappointed if you are me. Still, maybe there is some hope.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yeah you can find hope through psychedelics and maybe medications, and self development. I have benefited from all these, which is why I won't be taking my life until I am an old man.

I used 2c-b and 4-aco-dmt with great success. With both of these I was in sublime bliss for hours with it. It was a magical mystical spiritual experience. I felt like the universe was flowing through me. You can get psychedelics from Dream Marketplace.

Many people especially men have benefited from Jordan Peterson's Self Authoring program.
Self Authoring - What is Self Authoring? https://selfauthoring.com/

Try differnet types and classes of medications.

Do some meditation, go for a walk, get some exercise, eat healthy get enough sleep but don't over sleep.

If not, go kill yourself. The choice is yours.

 

[HelpPlease]

Yes I am in severe pain

 

[Xaphous]

I've lost all my youth and now almost all my 20s. Not a single good experience to mention or look back on. I'm already very bitter and angry. If I knew 100% what happens the moment I end it I would have done it by now, the uncertainty is a fucking bitch.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I've lost all my youth and now almost all my 20s. Not a single good experience to mention or look back on. I'm already very bitter and angry. If I knew 100% what happens the moment I end it I would have done it by now, the uncertainty is a fucking bitch.

You create your own reality in the afterlife. Obviously not every suicide is created equally. Meaning an old man wouldn't have the same psychological guilt that a young person would have in committing suicide. So it depends on your situation as to if it's a bad idea or not. Anyway that is my thoughts on it.

 

[Xaphous]

You create your own reality in the afterlife. Obviously not every suicide is created equally. Meaning an old man wouldn't have the same psychological guilt that a young person would have in committing suicide. So it depends on your situation as to if it's a bad idea or not. Anyway that is my thoughts on it.

I'm not so sure you create your own reality in the afterlife. There is no guarantee or proof of that. I would only hope there is more freedom and choice but there could be even less for all I know.

 

[Ἡγησίας]

Yes, I do. Like Michelstaedter says resigning and adapting oneself to ordinary life, narrow and deceptive, is the real death.

 

[GeorgeJL]

I'm not so sure you create your own reality in the afterlife. There is no guarantee or proof of that. I would only hope there is more freedom and choice but there could be even less for all I know.

From my research there is a different kind of freedom here than in the afterlife. The freedom here is that you create your own destiny here. The freedom there is that extreme suffering ends. That is just as long as you don't follow negative entities into the lower realms/dimensions. That is their territory you don't want to fuck around with that shit. Stay in the safe areas and don't allow them to feed off of your negative energy and you will be fine. Yeah those are my thoughts on that. BTW I am speaking with many many years of research into the afterlife from listening to many perspectives from Christianity to Buddhism, to atheistic astral projectors, I've heard it all.

 

[Weems]

Lot of familiar thoughts ITT. I bombed my formative years and took a socio-economic nosedive. Despite my personality problems, in college I used to hang out with some very cool, smart, and now successful people. Now I spend my workdays with the scum of the earth in a menial job (and my nights alone). It is degrading. The longer this goes on the less of a soul I will have.

 

[Xaphous]

From my research there is a different kind of freedom here than in the afterlife. The freedom here is that you create your own destiny here. The freedom there is that extreme suffering ends. That is just as long as you don't follow negative entities into the lower realms/dimensions. That is their territory you don't want to fuck around with that shit. Stay in the safe areas and don't allow them to feed off of your negative energy and you will be fine. Yeah those are my thoughts on that. BTW I am speaking with many many years of research into the afterlife from listening to many perspectives from Christianity to Buddhism, to atheistic astral projectors, I've heard it all.

Yeah I've heard a lot myself including not to go into the light as it's an archon trap to come back to earth, that you will even see past family members welcoming you to the light but it's part of the trap, or that we pass through the ''hall of ma'at'' where the soul is judged and decided for us where we go next. I've done nothing with my life so that's grim and scary really. I guess I won't know for sure until I'm dead.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Yeah I've heard a lot myself including not to go into the light as it's an archon trap to come back to earth, that you will even see past family members welcoming you to the light but it's part of the trap, or that we pass through the ''hall of ma'at'' where the soul is judged and decided for us where we go next. I've done nothing with my life so that's grim and scary really. I guess I won't know for sure until I'm dead.

Yeah I've serious considered just roaming the afterlife for all eternity without coming back to the physical. This is a fucked up place to be. The only benefit of reincarnating is that you will eventually reach a high state of enlightenment one day. But until then it's tough.