Does anyone else think that living for another 60 or something years is exhausting?

[cactusflower]

It's already so hard to get through my day to day now. I can't imagine having to do this much longer. There is little pleasure in anything anymore so every moment is just agonizing and sucks the energy out of me. I'm thinking about actively planning again because I just can't see myself doing this much anymore.

 

[Chr0nicAnhedonic]

I can't possibly fathom having to do this for another 40+ years. Even though I'm in a "better" place than I was, I know just how easily that can be taken away.

The world is in active decay, and things will only get much worse. I don't plan on being around to see it.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I would rather eat my own shit than endure another 60 years of this hellish existence.
Getting through 1 day is bad enough.
Please, just kill me already.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If I found a way to get out of the hole I'm trapped in I would gladly want to go on living until 100+ years of age. The conditions are as follows, health must be good, financial stability.

 

[Lys_C15H25N3O_d3]

please, i could not be able to. phisically it would be impossible unless its a curse.


i havent "planned" anything. "everything is happening on autopilot"
planning starts when...
no p´lanning, this time is simple, no brainer.. . (seems simple to say yeah right;.)


problem is... leaving traces (from the typography to necropsy) . i know no one "crazy enough" to help "me" get rid of things when i wont be able to, it freaks me out but, 2 weeks and a half now on autopilot i swear i didn't want things to come up to that


But i also Swore that if they had ever reached ... its like , i can't turn back now.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Yes. Thank goodness I am nearly 50. When I reach 50, I am signing up to PPH and as soon as I get a disease that will render me eligible for a Swiss clinic, I'm offski.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

I've thought that way since I was a teenager and still do now. We just work for 70 years only to inevitably pass on and have nothing to show for it? It seems like such a scam tbh

 

[Orbitc]

I will soon be 35 years old and I am already tired of life - I will definitely die before I turn 35 - to live almost as many years as I have already lived the same shitty life that I live - no thanks.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

At 24 I don't even want to see 26, let alone my 60s or 70s. Imagine staying here for another 4 to 6 decades, hardly seems like a good deal to me but people will find a way around that by all the things they use to help themselves cope like a good career, spouse, children, etc...

I hardly get excited about any prospect of the future because I'm not convinced it'll be any better than now to make me reconsider ctb on any serious level, life is so fucking exhausting, all the amount of problems you have to go through internally or externally, to do it over a stretch of a few decades is too much to ask of me. I don't even enjoy life anymore, I find it all monotonous. After the death of our grandmother, my brother said he needed for me and two of other siblings to stay alive for another 3 decades or more but I simply cannot honor that, I'd rather be gone before the year is out. Even to stay alive is expensive and trying plus everything is getting worse. I find nothing about the continuity of my existence a good thing at all.

 

[doneforlife]

If I found a way to get out of the hole I'm trapped in I would gladly want to go on living until 100+ years of age. The conditions are as follows, health must be good, financial stability.

True that. But I don't think, I would aim beyond 100 ..he he..it would become too much .

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes 60 years in this hell is too long.

It boggles my mind that anybody would want to live that long in this evil oppressive anti-suicide prison world and as a small animal that is under constant threat of extreme torture.

Also mind boggling to me . That most humans believe in and want an afterlife or reincarnation when sentience and consciousness is a curse that can cause extreme pain and suffering.

I guess people don't realize how long a trillion years is . Afterlife or reincarnation could last for trillions to the quadrillion power years and more . 60 years is too long a trillion years unimaginable torture.

 

[adrenalinejunkie]

I'm 56 and have had way more than my share of problems including being addicted to cocaine and sent to prison when I was 17, the real prison. I remember around 18-20 wanting to die a lot for what I missed and what I knew I would never have. I have to say the majority of the time from there to now has been good for the most part and I wouldn't have wanted to miss it. I got jobs I never imagined I would and made more money than I could spend and have a family. About 3 years ago I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 and the severe depression got me. I lost almost everything, job, wife, obscene amount of money, totally couldn't get out of bed. Everyone ragging on me because they have no clue what real depression feels like. I can't stop thinking about suicide and now I'm here. I'm glad stayed this far but we'll have to wait and see what happens next. Honestly if I could solve my money issues I think I would be ok.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

That most humans believe and want an afterlife or reincarnation when sentience and consciousness is a curse that can cause extreme pain and suffering.

The Reincarnation part boggles my mind as to why anyone would want a cyclic life and death process of different lives. Consciousness breeds suffering, no matter how great or small.

I can't stop thinking about suicide and now I'm here. I'm glad stayed this far but we'll have to wait and see what happens next. Honestly if I could solve my money issues I think I would be ok.

This is why I can't even bother to stay to see 30, let alone past 50 because so much can go wrong within that time frame to bring you to a point of considering ctb and not even stop thinking about it, not to mention all other manner of things that will go down hill. Sure the positive aspects can reinforce some level of hope that things may just turn out fine but screw taking a gamble on that for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The thought of such a thing disturbs me and fills me with dread, under no circumstances could I ever wish to decay from age in this cruel and harmful existence that I never had any need for in the first place, I view it as preferable to not exist no matter what. I'd prefer to avoid all future suffering by falling into an dreamless and eternal sleep.

 

[kyuuketsuki]

i don't think it'll happen to me, but i could see myself having enjoyed life and happily living to an old age if things went better for me in the past. not anymore though, my mental illness is too bad. even if i achieved everything i'd ever wanted in life, i think i'd still feel empty. i think i'm afraid of aging itself too.

 

[MatthieuFrederickW]

I can't possibly fathom having to do this for another 40+ years. Even though I'm in a "better" place than I was, I know just how easily that can be taken away.

The world is in active decay, and things will only get much worse. I don't plan on being around to see it.

What do you envision the world will be like in 100 years realistically? I'm glad I won't be around to witness it.

 

[figurehead]

Yes and no. I've lived 50 years trying to CTB every few years. Sometimes I wish I hadn't, of course, and I find no emergency exits to save me. I'm kind of happy I have come this far, tho. Living IS exhausting but it's also I kind of challenge, life and death are a challenge.

 

[Aim]

No mather how hard ctb is. And leaving this earth shatters me deep in the heart. It needs to happen.

 

[Someday_Somehow32]

Pretty much. I'm at the point where even two weeks feels like years. I can't imagine living that long. Just imagine all the people you know that will die, and you'll always just have to deal with it.

 

[Ernest1964]

Yes. Thank goodness I am nearly 50. When I reach 50, I am signing up to PPH and as soon as I get a disease that will render me eligible for a Swiss clinic, I'm offski.

You must have a baneful of money.

 

[リンさん]

If this world was a better place, and I lived in a country that doesn't progressively make things worse for itself for no good reason, I'd stay.

But even then, I absolutely do not see myself existing for more than 20 years from now. Time flows by exceptionally slow for me, it's torturous.

 

[Ernest1964]

In two days I will turn 59 year old. I think that when I am 65 I will CTB. Unless something drastic happens in my life between now and then. I have no money saved up, I have no retirement savings. I have no permanent housing. I have a job that pays the bills but I feel like I'm living just to stay alive and that is quickly becoming a burden... existence, I mean. If I weren't on these antidepressants right now, I would probably just end it when I turn 60. Dear Lord, I don't want to get old and sick, I'm already starting to fall apart.

 

[ggetout33]

While I'm young, relatively healthy I'd still like to enjoy my youth before CTB.

But once I get older and the decay of the world gets too much, and most of the important people in my life are either dead or no longer need to be cared for then yeah I'm out.

 

[lebrodude]

60 years…..luckily I'm in my 40s so that is very unlikely to happen

40 years is probably doable but it's no real consolation as that is a hell of a long time as well.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

i don't think it'll happen to me, but i could see myself having enjoyed life and happily living to an old age if things went better for me in the past. not anymore though, my mental illness is too bad. even if i achieved everything i'd ever wanted in life, i think i'd still feel empty. i think i'm afraid of aging itself too.

Me too. Even if I won the lottery and had a partner I would still be chronically depressed and bipolar.

Yes and no. I've lived 50 years trying to CTB every few years. Sometimes I wish I hadn't, of course, and I find no emergency exits to save me. I'm kind of happy I have come this far, tho. Living IS exhausting but it's also I kind of challenge, life and death are a challenge.

Yes, life is truly exhausting and gets exponentially worse as we get older. But yet, I'm grateful I'm not young anymore because getting older brings me closer to death.

 

[sserafim]

It's already so hard to get through my day to day now. I can't imagine having to do this much longer. There is little pleasure in anything anymore so every moment is just agonizing and sucks the energy out of me. I'm thinking about actively planning again because I just can't see myself doing this much anymore.

Yes, I would hate to live that long. I never want to experience adulthood or old age. Living the same day on repeat would be so dystopian and boring. I barely have any energy to even exist, and I'm not even doing anything. I'm planning to ctb within 2 years, before I turn 25. I never want to live past 25. I would hate to reach anything beyond my mid-20s. I am never reaching my 30s! I will ensure that I will die during my 20s. I never want to be a real adult and have to slave away for 50 years. That just sounds so depressing. Being a wageslave to capitalism sounds like such a soul-sucking existence. I also never want to reach old age. What's the point of getting old? Your body and mind just deteriorate and decay. I'd rather die now, we all die in the end anyways. What's the point in living another 60 years? That's such a long time, and I truly believe the best moment in life is up until now (early adulthood). Everything just goes downhill from adulthood onwards.

I've thought that way since I was a teenager and still do now. We just work for 70 years only to inevitably pass on and have nothing to show for it? It seems like such a scam tbh

It literally is. Adulthood is the biggest scam

 

[dragonofenvy]

It's already so hard to get through my day to day now. I can't imagine having to do this much longer. There is little pleasure in anything anymore so every moment is just agonizing and sucks the energy out of me. I'm thinking about actively planning again because I just can't see myself doing this much anymore.

I've spent the last 15 years of the 22 years I've been alive thinking this way, and yet I continue to stick around. I've been able to find little things that help me ignore the pain for brief periods, but the thought of living this as my whole life until I'm 80 is unfathomable. I tend to try not to think a month into the future, let alone view how I'd be when I'm that old. The only advice I can give is to do what I did: try to find some little things to occupy your time with before your time comes. I'm not sure what that would be as even I struggle with it, but it doesn't have to be anything extraordinary. It can just be a small mundane task or daily ritual or something along those lines.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Yes, I would hate to live that long. I never want to experience adulthood or old age. Living the same day on repeat would be so dystopian and boring. I barely have any energy to even exist, and I'm not even doing anything. I'm planning to ctb within 2 years, before I turn 25. I never want to live past 25. I would hate to reach anything beyond my mid-20s. I am never reaching my late-20s or 30s! I will ensure that I will die during my 20s. I never want to be a real adult and have to slave away for 50 years. That just sounds so depressing. Being a wageslave to capitalism sounds like such a soul-sucking existence. I also never want to reach old age. What's the point of getting old? Your body and mind just deteriorate and decay. I'd rather die now, we all die in the end anyways. What's the point in living another 60 years? That's such a long time, and I truly believe the best moment in life is up until now (early adulthood). Everything just goes downhill from adulthood onwards.

It literally is. Adulthood is the biggest scam

Exactly right.
Life for the vast majority of people involves nothing but working their asses off to buy things they don't really need because they have been brainwashed into thinking that having lots of money and possessions makes them successful.
None of the shit they buy makes them happy for long anyway.
They then work themselves so hard that they often end up with stress related issues and other health problems.
What is the point of all this ?
It is actually insane to do this for half a century until you are a wrinkled old meat sack.

 

[sserafim]

Exactly right.
Life for the vast majority of people involves nothing but working their asses off to buy things they don't really need because they have been brainwashed into thinking that having lots of money and possessions makes them successful.
None of the shit they buy makes them happy for long anyway.
They then work themselves so hard that they often end up with stress related issues and other health problems.
What is the point of all this ?
It is actually insane to do this for half a century until you are a wrinkled old meat sack.

Literally! I hate consumer culture. I hate all of the advertisements and commercials around, and how people just buy and buy and consume and consume. I hate how people buy things that they don't even need. Like you don't even need it, what's the point? People buy things to satisfy the void within, yet that's only temporary satisfaction and fake happiness. The void can never be filled, because life (under capitalism) is the issue. It's such a meaningless and unfulfilling existence. I also think they get material satisfaction out of owning things, yet that's all an illusion. None of it will matter once you're dead anyways. I hate how materialistic and shallow society and the world are. I hate the fact that people are brainwashed into putting up with this scam called life under capitalism. The thing I hate the most though is the pipeline. We're basically treated like cows for slaughter, fed our whole lives in this system from birth and school to eventual work and wageslavery. I hate that no one has tried to rebel against capitalism or the system yet.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Definitely. I'm so tired now. Good thing is- I doubt I'd live 60 years more anyhow- I'm 43 now. But truthfully- I don't even know how I'm going to get through the next few months.