Does anyone else live with this feeling every day?

[Øystein]

Eating feels mechanic, nothing really tastes good and chewing is weird. Facial expressions make me feel like a clown, so I only try to be as neutral as possible now. Eye contact with anyone in the world feels as if I had to speak in front of thousands of people, I can't bear it. No matter how I manage the tone of my voice, it feels unnatural. Every single move has to be calculated, otherwise I feel like it's too exaggerated. Being sat, stood up or laying down feels wrong. Even when I'm alone, I feel watched. Everything I write, even right here right now, feels off. Basically every minute of me being awake is constant uncomfortableness with every stimulus ever. It only really stops when I sleep or "pretend" to sleep, but then I only dream nightmares. I don't know how to deal with this feeling of not belonging in this world at all. Does this sound familiar to anyone?

 

[Torbasco]

I relate a lot. It feels like I'm dissociated and just not meant to be alive most of the time. My thoughts are right there with you, I hope you can find peace eventually.

 

[Klee]

I fee this too, lately more than ever.

 

[Sinai Silence]

I feel this so much, nothing I do ever feels right. I'm always questioning what I'm doing and sleep is the only escape when I get it. I hope you find peace from it.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I do feel this way a lot. Everything feels mechanical and forced with no real feedback emotionally. All I feel is mild anxiety in the background.

 

[NekoNomNom]

I relate a lot. It feels like I'm dissociated and just not meant to be alive most of the time. My thoughts are right there with you, I hope you can find peace eventually.

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I've been seeing this picture so much on Facebook as of late.

 

[Leshen]

No matter where I am and no matter what I do, I always get this weird feeling that something isn't quite right - like I wasn't even meant to exist.
I'm pretty sure I have some kind of dissociative disorder...

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I feel like that all the time. When it first started it was like my vision was going hazy and I just kept saying "I don't feel real" when people would ask me what was wrong. I can't look in the mirror because it doesn't register in my brain that I'm there. It's scary; like an out of body experience while still awake. I feel like my soul is dead; as if it's been stolen. None of this is figurative. I literally feel as though I am both living and dead.